After being in a daze for a moment, Lei Luo looked at Guang Hui steadily. Their eyes met. He hesitated for a moment, then pressed his lips together slightly, and there was a trace of thought in his eyes.
"Unifying the ninja world is the process of realizing your self-worth. To a certain extent, it is the embodiment of your ideals and pursuits. I like to call it... superego."
Without moving his eyes away from Lei Luo's face, Guanghui watched the former seriously. While observing the changes in his expression, he slowly stretched out his index finger and pressed it against Lei Luo's chest.
"And the desire to continue the bipolar pattern, in other words, the desire to have a qualified opponent like Bing who can satisfy you, comes from the desire to fight in your bones..."
"That is...my self."
The atmosphere was quiet for a while. Lei Luo frowned slightly, closed his eyes tightly, and was immersed in thinking about his own pursuit. When Guanghui saw this, he retracted his finger.
But he didn’t stop analyzing Lei Luo’s words:
"The conflict between superego and id constitutes your contradictory and complex character. Lei Luo, you are different from anyone else in this world..."
"As the most powerful ninja in the world, he is also the leader of the most powerful country in the world..."
"You don't have a series of low-level needs such as physical, safety, emotional, social respect, etc. What you want is always at the top of the needs, which is self-realization."
Shrugging her shoulders, Guanghui smiled. Seeing Lei Luo opening her eyes and looking at her thoughtfully, with questioning emotions flashing in her eyes, she coughed lightly.
"Unify the ninja world, bring world peace, promote the development of the times, and bring prosperity and stability to the world. These are the goals you have instilled in yourself. This is great, really."
"And constantly looking for powerful opponents, defeating them, experiencing the feeling of blood flowing in the veins, and savoring the thrill of beating the opponent every time is another goal."
"These two goals are a tangible manifestation of your need for self-realization, but there is an essential difference between your id goal and your superego goal."
"That's why you are so entangled and in pain sometimes."
"Now, do you understand?"
At this moment, listening to Guanghui analyzing himself in detail and slowly like a scalpel, Lei Luo had some vague understanding, but then he felt a little confused.
"what should I do?"
Guanghui turned around and cast his gaze towards the sea of cherry blossoms flying in the sky. This time, he didn't speak for a long time, just silently admiring the beautiful scenery in front of him.
The pink and white flowers are like snowflakes in winter, so bright and beautiful, and seem to have an unusual and subtle charm in this spring of Konoha's 47th year.
"Guanghui, I..."
The stuttering tone flowing through her ears was filled with a deep doubt that she had been thinking about for a long time. After Guanghui heard it, she sighed softly, turned her head, stared at it, and opened her red lips.
"Take a good look at yourself, Lei Luo."
"Exclude the superego, id, and your self is essentially missing. You are not like a human being, but like a god, or...a devil."
"How long has it been since you took care of your brother? How long has it been since you cared about your wife, friends, and partners? Even if it is our daughter, have you ever taken the initiative to mention it?"
Although his tone was very calm, the fluorescence in his eyes and the gently biting lips revealed Guanghui's unspeakable depression and sadness at the moment.
Lei Luo was shocked, and his pupils dilated slightly. At this moment, countless past memories flooded into his mind, making his throat extremely dry. He opened his mouth several times, not knowing what to say.
Yes, since time traveling, he rarely cares about the people or things around him. He is either working, killing people, or practicing every day, as if these are all his life.
His brother should have been responsible for Yi Tong's growth, but apart from teaching Yi Tong some ninjutsu and arranging some educational resources, what else had he done to Tong Yi?
Have there ever been an in-depth communication between brothers?
If not, how could they become distorted if they are similar?
How could he put all his attention on No Naiyu?
Lei Tonghui didn't know the meaning of what Nonoyu did? But he did it without hesitation, without any regrets, and he was willing to go to jail.
On the surface, it seems that Lei Tong has a good relationship with No Naiyu, but in reality, it might be that Lei Tong cannot find the warmth of family in himself and can only find another spiritual sustenance. He regards No Naiyu as his sister or even his mother.
?
And Nonoyu...
Perhaps it was his lack of self that prevented him from paying any attention to his wife. When she needed his company the most, she was still on an endless expedition, working, working, working...
In the end, it led to the tragedy that year.
Besides, she is my daughter...
"Our daughter, she, she this year..."
"She is two and a half years old this year."
Interrupting Lei Luo's words directly, Guanghui looked at her restless husband. She had never seen his expression at this moment. It was obvious that the conversation just now had a great impact on Lei Luo's soul.
"Since you are away from home all the time and have never paid attention to our mother and daughter, I gave her a name without permission."
As he spoke, Guanghui lowered his head, raised his hands and stretched behind his head. After a slight movement, he untied a small jade pendant hanging around his neck, handed it to Lei Luo, and added lightly:
"If you feel okay, then..."
"exquisite?"
Lei Luo stared carefully at the inscriptions on the jade pendant and inadvertently interrupted Guanghui's words. He turned his wrist and noticed that the jade pendant was exquisitely made and had a layer of light cyan light shining on its surface.
Obviously, this is no ordinary jewelry.
"This should be... some kind of ninja tool, right?"
Feeling the chakra fluctuations contained in Jade Perry, Lei Luo thoughtfully handed it back to Guanghui, who took it silently, without making any reply, and just looked at it intently.
After understanding the meaning in Guanghui's eyes, Lei Luo didn't think too much and gave his opinion decisively: "Linglong, it sounds pretty good, and it's quite suitable for girls, by the way..."
"Where's her last name?"
"No last name."
Their eyes met each other, and looking into those calm eyes that seemed to have already read his heart, Lei Luo was stunned for a second, and then quickly reacted and smiled pretending to be relaxed.
"If you don't have a surname, then you don't have a surname. That's fine."
Lei Luo's slightly embarrassed smile made Guanghui laugh out loud. Her smile was no better than Lei Luo's, it was very natural and gentle. While laughing, she leaned on Lei Luo's shoulder again.
“Do you have any ideas about Linglong’s future development?”
Lei Luo thought for a while and asked: "What is your opinion?"
"My opinion is not important. You are her father. You have to make your own decision on this kind of issue."
"Then...then become a ninja?"
Guanghui nodded silently, indicating that he could accept it. Seeing this, Lei Luo couldn't help but think about what kind of teacher, or in other words, tutor he should choose for his daughter.
But then I thought about it, if Linglong stayed at home all the time, she would be missing out on some external interactions, which might be detrimental to her future growth, so she simply said to Guanghui in a consultative tone:
"Should we send her to a ninja school in Konoha for training?"
"Okay, but in that case, work matters..."
"Isn't there a telephone? Besides, the railway line now connects Konoha and the capital, and the journey only takes a few hours. If you really find it troublesome, I can also mobilize the flying thunder god..."
"Lelo."
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"Thank you for caring about our daughter."
Looking at Guanghui who suddenly hugged him and remained silent, Lei Luo also fell into silence, looking into the distance. The cherry blossoms in the sky slowly fell, and the courtyard gradually became quiet.
His heart seemed to be much calmer.
It's time to change, let's start with... yourself.