The five hundred and fortieth chapter of the event [seeking a monthly ticket
"No one in the family is willing to do anything, so I have to do everything! I have to serve you all well, cook, take care of the whole family, and take care of Ah Jing. I have to do everything. I don't have a day of freedom.
, I don’t feel free for a day, I don’t even have time to be sick, I can’t do anything without me..."
Chen Shengdi suddenly cried and shouted hysterically, her words were very messy, and she was accusing something.
These words seem to be old sayings, and some words mentioned casually by Lin Qianfei are serious. It can be seen that they are Chen Shengdi's daily complaints, and she has said them countless times.
Perhaps this is part of the real situation of this poor family. All the housework is placed on Chen Shengdi, which has already overwhelmed her nerves.
At the same time, Lin Guowei's complexion became darker, and he seemed much older in the blink of an eye. He sat slumped in the chair, feeling very confused and confused.
Seeing the changes in the couple, Gu Jun, Wang Ke, Cao Yicong and others knew in their hearts that they were directly related to Lin Jing's disappearance.
Gu Jun's heart suddenly tightened. A bad prediction was gradually proven to be true, and a tragic event gradually surfaced. He didn't even want to think about the truth, but some gloomy imaginary pictures surged in his mind, making him dizzy.
I don’t know if it’s imagination or a hallucination…
Take it to the deep mountains and wild forests and abandon it... push it off the cliff... and bury it in a pit dug with a hoe...
He took a deep breath and said, "Aunt Chen, please calm down and tell us everything about what happened back then."
"Let's make it clear, we will handle it carefully." Wang Ke added a voice and put more pressure on the two of them. His Chinese-character face showed the majesty cultivated by long-term interrogation, "If you can't explain clearly, Lin Qianfei
He and Lin Longxuan may need to cooperate with our investigation for a period of time, which will definitely affect their studies."
"We really don't know how A Jing disappeared!" Lin Guowei suddenly said anxiously, feeling nervous and scared, but also a little angry, "It has nothing to do with Feifei and Long Xuan. They don't know anything. If you want to arrest us, arrest us or shoot us.
Just shoot us!"
The middle-aged man shouted very loudly and with anger, and had nowhere to vent his anger. He slapped the coffee table with a loud bang, which echoed in the old and messy living room.
If it were another village man, he might be startled by Lin Guowei, but Gu Jun and the others stood still and didn't say anything, just watching.
Chen Shengdi gradually calmed down or became depressed. She murmured something, but did not make any sound that could be heard clearly. Her red tears flashed with a complex look, as if she was looking at the old paintings on the wall opposite.
Certificate of Three Excellent Students.
"It's me..." She suddenly uttered a trembling voice, "It's my mouth, it's all my fault... I shouldn't have said that to him... It's all my fault..."
Gu Jun frowned slightly and looked at each other. Things seemed to be different from what they expected.
While Lin Guowei became stiff and silent again, Chen Shengdi told some unknown situations of the year.
Three days before Lin Jing disappeared, Chen Shengdi scolded her son. The reason was that Lin Jing kicked other children's basketballs with his feet on the basketball court in front of the village. He got into an argument with others and was pushed and almost injured.
A fight broke out, and a parent came to complain.
Lin Jing said that he just stood there and wanted to help kick the ball back. If he had hands, he would catch it and throw it back.
But the other kids insisted that he was causing trouble, that his feet were dirty, and that he was a monster...
Chen Shengdi did not stand on her son's side and scolded Lin Jing in front of the parent. When the parent left, she was still very angry and continued to scold Lin Jing: "What are you watching on the basketball court all day?"
, you can’t play anymore, if you quarrel with others and cause trouble, you will get into trouble, and waiting for you is annoying enough, and you will get into trouble!"
In fact, in the past, in normal times, Chen Shengdi often complained and scolded her eldest son like this. She didn't understand, and she felt very bitter in her heart. She thought it was... nothing.
"Ajing is also my son and I raised him. It's not his fault that he has no hands. I know best how difficult it is for him. How can I really blame him..."
At this time, Chen Shengdi choked up as she recalled, but on that day, she also cursed a few vicious words. She had never cursed like that before. After scolding her at that time, she actually regretted it. She was just stubborn and unwilling to admit her mistake. By now, she has
Too late to regret.
"I said... I should have listened to others' advice and thrown you away when you were just born, so that you wouldn't be burdened with yourself for the rest of your life like you are now..."
Listening to this, Gu Jun's heart couldn't help but sink, and his breathing became heavier, as if he could feel Lin Jing's pain at that moment.
But he knew that he might never truly understand that feeling, even though his native family was not very good either.
Chen Shengdi continued talking. Three days later, in the evening, she returned home on a tricycle carrying two children and a few bunches of bananas. Ah Jing had disappeared. She said she did not lie in this part, and neither did Lin Guowei,
He was indeed out of town that afternoon, and when he came back he joined in the search for Ah Jing.
After searching for several days, they couldn't find it... so they didn't insist on looking any further.
But they were very sure that Ah Jing ran away from home on his own and should still be alive for a while.
Maybe the handless beggar child that someone in the neighboring village saw on the streets of Dongzhou City was rumored to be him...
For this reason, the couple once made a special trip to Dongzhou City, to the rumored street, and looked at the beggars on the street from a distance.
It's just that they didn't see their son, and they didn't go up to ask. Maybe his son wasn't there, maybe they hadn't encountered him. After going there once, they never made any move to look for Lin Jing, and just pretended that his son was not there.
When this person is alive, there will be no such person...
They got a kind of relief, the family became less difficult, and Qianfei and Long Xuan's life became easier.
But over the years, the couple have never truly let go of their missing, handless eldest son...
After hearing this rhetoric, Gu Jun, Wang Ke and others did not judge for the time being. They watched Lin Guowei smoking a cheap cigarette numbly, watching Chen Shengdi get up and walk to the master room connected to the living room.
Jun and Cao Yicong followed and watched, and saw Chen Shengdi taking something out of an old wedding suitcase on the wardrobe beside the bed.
"This piece of paper was left by Ah Jing... When I got home that day, the paper was placed on the coffee table..."
Chen Shengdi looked confused, holding a small piece of crumpled white paper in her hand.
Gu Jun took the old paper and saw a line of words written with a blue ballpoint pen on the paper. The handwriting was slanted and laborious, but he tried his best to control each stroke.
Those words were written by Lin Jing, but I don't know how he wrote them.
[I’m gone, don’t look for me, when I’ve had enough, I will commit suicide]