Concubine De met Emperor Kangxi's eyes and was lost in thought for a moment.
I almost blurted out a good word, but then my sense came back.
Subconsciously, she wanted to take her hand back, and immediately averted her eyes, not daring to look at Kangxi again.
Emperor Kangxi seemed to know her intention at this moment, holding her shoulders with both hands and forcing her to look at him.
"Tell me, why don't you want the position of imperial concubine?"
Emperor Kangxi might have thought that Concubine De was unable to accept her behavior before.
But at this moment, Emperor Kangxi took note of her reaction. If he still couldn't clearly see Concubine De's resistance, Emperor Kangxi would have wasted his nearly forty years as emperor.
He didn't understand why she was like this?
Which woman in this world doesn’t want a high position?
For example, among the women in his harem, which one is not doing whatever it takes to get a high position?
Why doesn't she care about it?
Could it be that she also believed what the world said and was unwilling to stand with her for fear that she would defeat him?
No! She definitely wouldn’t think so!
When she encountered danger during her southern tour, she resolutely stood in front of him, even risking her own life.
Now why would she not want to sit in that position because of this?
Thinking like this, Emperor Kangxi used a little more force on his hands, eager to hold her tight.
It seemed that only in this way could he get a little closer to her.
But seeing Concubine De's face so close to him, Emperor Kangxi still didn't feel at ease in his heart.
Since childhood, this was the first time that Emperor Kangxi felt defeated.
In the past, the woman who left the most imprint on his heart was Queen Hesheli.
She gave birth to Yinreng and left her at the best age, when they should share their happiness.
I felt extremely painful in my heart, but I had never felt such tangled emotions around Queen Hesheli.
Because Emperor Kangxi knew that Queen Hesheli, from body to heart, belonged to him alone.
He saw her clearly, and she loved him without reservation.
Thinking about it carefully, his first encounter with Concubine De was also because of the hint of Queen Hesheli in her eyebrows.
After all these years, I discovered that she and Queen Hesheli were two completely different women.
Queen Hesheli is older than me. She comes from a famous family, is dignified and self-possessed, and is virtuous and virtuous. She is almost worthy of all the beautiful words in the world.
She always keeps a straight face and looks serious. Even if she does something wrong, she will criticize her.
When she was young, Emperor Kangxi was most willing to make her laugh, but he always failed.
But because of his youth and temperament, he suffered repeated defeats and battles.
As for the Concubine De in front of me, I would also like to see her smile, but she just likes her to be happy.
Thinking about it carefully, now that she has been with him for so many years, it seems that she has never asked for anything from him.
But when I saw some extraordinary jewelry, I immediately thought of her.
I want to see what these things look like on her body, and I want to make her happy.
But she didn't seem to be that concerned about anything. No matter what she gave her, she would always accept it with a smile and say she was very happy.
But there is almost no difference between the smile between the eyebrows and the eyes.
Even, she would never force herself.
Even because he stayed in his palace for a longer time, he even persuaded him to go to another palace with a smile.
Faced with such a virtuous concubine, Emperor Kangxi was once angry.
He deliberately refused to see her for several months, hoping to make her submissive and see her making trouble to see him.
But she stayed in the palace so steadily, as if nothing had happened.
It makes people angry and a little distressed at the same time.
Emperor Kangxi thought about what kind of situation could make a woman so sensible?
What on earth has she experienced?
Perhaps the only answer is that she has been hurt by being ignorant before, and that is why she became so sensible, so knowledgeable about advancement and retreat, and so free of desires and desires.
But she had been with him since she was a teenager, and it seemed like everything was smooth sailing as she rose to the rank of concubine.
Who would hurt her without the foresight?
Emperor Kangxi didn't know about others, but at least he didn't treat her badly.
I also checked some things about her mother's family. She was also doted on by her mother's family when she was young.
If it is not necessary, she will not be sent to the palace.
This is something that Emperor Kangxi still cannot figure out until now.
The daughter who grew up with a lot of pampers is more or less squeamish, but there is no trace of it in her.
If she had done anything outrageous, it would have been this southern tour.
At that moment, Emperor Kangxi was looking intently into Concubine De's eyes, unwilling to let her go even if she blinked.
At this moment, Concubine De really realized what it meant to be so confused, with thousands of thoughts flooding into her heart. But at this moment, she didn't know what to say to Emperor Kangxi, so she just murmured something unmistakable:
"I am a concubine... I am a concubine... I have no talent or virtue, and my family background is not obvious..."
"That's enough." Emperor Kangxi interrupted Concubine De, "I don't want to hear this. You know, I never care about this. I just want to make you the imperial concubine. Are you willing to stand beside me?"
Are you willing to hold my hand and walk back together?"
Emperor Kangxi said, extending his hand to Concubine De.
At this moment, his eyes contained three parts of seriousness, three parts of stubbornness, three parts of anxiety, and one part of concern.
If it were anyone else, he wouldn't be entangled, but this was Concubine De, and he really didn't know if she was willing to go with him.
Concubine De looked at Emperor Kangxi's hand and did not put her own hand on it, but was in a daze.
In fact, how could she not know Emperor Kangxi's thoughts?
It's just that she is timid.
She didn't dare to take that step forward.
She didn't think she could sit in that position, and she didn't know why she was loved.
She has been sitting on the throne of concubine for almost twenty years. Now the emperor often comes to see her. Her sons have grown up gradually, and her grandchildren will respect her. She is not young anymore.
As long as she keeps sitting on the concubine's throne, she believes that everything around her will always be like this.
If you don’t face it, if you don’t own it, you won’t be afraid of losing it.
Don't be afraid of losing the emperor's favor, nor be afraid of losing yourself in the desire for power.
Have you ever experienced the feeling of waiting alone from dawn to dusk, and then waiting until dawn again?
To this day, Concubine De still remembers what it looked like after one red candle after another burned out.
In the last life, I had a wishful thinking, but in the end I failed to achieve it.
But today, Long Live Lord is like what she dreamed of in her last life. His eyes are all about her, and his hand is waiting for her. As long as she gently touches her hand, he will hold it firmly.
live.
But she didn't dare to hug him.
Haha, she is so funny.
After living two lifetimes, the longer you live, the more you go back?
It was not just a matter of nodding or shaking the head, but she thought it was too complicated. Then she seemed to have mustered up her courage, and Concubine De slowly raised her head.