He hurriedly changed out of the bright yellow prince's uniform, and the horse's hooves flew into the air. The late spring wind brought the fresh scent of grass and trees after the spring flowers withered. It brushed through Mu Anzhi's still young and youthful eyebrows and hair, and entered Mu Anzhi's blood and lungs, dispelling dreams bit by bit.
The medicinal gas of the thick black soup is lifeless.
In the dream, he was so angry and resentful when he learned the news that the eldest prince was crowned prince. In fact, it was already expected, why should he be so crazy. As the courtier said, his mother was already pregnant when she was pregnant with a dragon fetus.
Since the queen's position was deposed, he was not considered the true legitimate son. Since the eldest prince was legitimate and eldest, he was born as the queen of the middle palace, so he should be admitted to the east palace.
He was so furious, yet so clear, he understood that his life had ended when the eldest prince was admitted to the East Palace. He did not even have the courage to look at his friend who had received the imperial cane for him. He was cowardly and afraid of hurting Pei Ruyu.
Future. Pei Ruyu took the initiative to say goodbye before going to Northern Xinjiang, but he did not see her. According to Xiao Yi, Pei Ruyu waited at the palace gate for a long time, waiting until the palace door closed before turning around and leaving.
This farewell is an eternal farewell.
Throughout his life, he lived in a beautiful palace, wore gorgeous clothes, and drank luxurious food. He seemed to be rich and prosperous, but in fact, he only had very little.
If I knew it was a farewell forever, I wouldn't shy away from it.
This will become the regret of my life. In my short and cold life, all I got was one or two people who made me feel warm. After you left, my life was as silent as the eternal glacier, and there was no one again.
A touch of warmth.
When Mu Anzhi arrived at Pei's house, Pei Ruyu had already fallen into a coma, and her handsome face, which the people of the imperial capital called the bright moon of the imperial capital, was also swollen. Mu Anzhi couldn't bear to touch it and didn't dare to touch it. He almost tried his best to restrain himself from crying.
sorry.
I should have thought about today's events earlier. I should have stopped you in front of the Zhaode Hall. You were the top pick on the gold medal list last year. You should not take such risks for me. You should have had a bright future, but you ruined your career because of me.
Do you know how guilty I feel in my heart?
sorry.
I didn't think of everything today earlier.
Mu Anzhi didn't feel the tears rolling down, but Pei Ruyu dreamed of a downpour that made his whole body ache, and even the sleeping pills couldn't let him have a peaceful sleep. Half asleep, he felt that the heavy rain was not in his dream.
, Pei Ruyu managed to open her swollen face and saw Mu Anzhi's face covered with tears.
Pei Ruyu's swollen eyes showed a trace of excitement, and she said angrily, "Whose child are you from? Why are you sitting here crying?"
One sentence brought back old memories. That year, when he was young and crying in a corner of the temple, he met Pei Ruyu who was recuperating in the temple. Pei Ruyu handed him a handkerchief and asked teasingly, "Whose child are you from? Why?"
Are you crying here?"
At that time, he didn't know that he was a prince, or that his mother was an abandoned queen who lived in a monastery. He just cried because he couldn't please his mother. At that time, Pei Ruyu didn't know his identity either, and the two children just played together like this.
We read and played games together. Pei Ruyu was three years older than him and half a head taller. He was willing to share his troubles with this "big brother" who was taller and more sensible than him. He asked the little Pei Ruyu in distress:
"How can I make my mother happy?"
The little Pei Ruyu thought for a while, then said in a pretentious and airy voice, "Try to be an excellent person. People like excellent people."
But, in the end, we will find that the hearts of those people have long been as cold as iron and as hard as stone in the struggle for power. You will understand that it is the Jiuyou Ice that cannot be warmed by the hottest magma. When we open our arms
, longing for a hug, we will eventually understand one cold night after another that the only one we can embrace in the end may be ourselves.
Mu Anzhi only felt more pain in his heart, so painful that he just wanted to hold his friend and cry bitterly. Pei Ruyu was so badly injured that even his fingers, which were usually well maintained, were scratched and split, and became red, swollen and cracked. Mu Anzhi did not dare to touch him.
Choking with sobs, she said, "Ruyu, don't mention anything about the East Palace in the future. I don't want to fight for that position anymore. I just want you to be safe."
"I spoke frankly to the court, not because of Your Highness, but because of my heart. Your Highness will not compete for the East Palace. In my heart, in terms of bloodline, you are the most respected person among the princes. Your Majesty appointed the prince in the name of his eldest son, and the original name
Unjust and disobedient. I am a minister of the palace, and since I can speak, I will speak. Your Highness, you are noble and kind, and you are no worse than anyone else." Pei Ruyu's hoarse voice carried an awe-inspiring determination, as if it were eternal.
An unshakable river cannot turn a stone.
"I know." Mu Anzhi smiled with tears in his eyes, "It's just that the East Palace has been decided, and I have informed His Majesty that he will leave the palace and open a palace. I think I should find a small vassal land, whether it is a county or a township.
Even if it's just a corner, it's good. I have a close friend like you, and I don't care what other people think. As long as you think I'm good, I'm good."
"You know, I grew up in a monastery. Even if I was admitted to the palace later, I would still be naive. When I was a child, I came to your house and saw your home and your parents. I was very envious. I always thought that all the people in the world
Every home should be like yours, with a loving father and filial piety, a loving mother and loving children. I also hope that my family is the same. In fact, Ruyu, I can never let those who can’t see me like me. I should have done it earlier
I can't see through these things, so I fall into confusion. In fact, there are people around me who appreciate me, watch and care about me, such as Yu, please don't take risks for me again. Losing Donggong is not a loss to me, because Donggong has never been
Belong to me. You are my friend and my brother. Don't let me lose friends and relatives. That kind of life is truly lonely."
"Your Highness..." Hot tears fell on his hands, as if falling on Pei Ruyu's heart. He had known His Highness Mu Anzhi since he was a child. It was a carefree youth. He was in poor health and recuperated in the temple.
, Mu Anzhi grew up in the temple since he was a child. There were only two children of school age in Tianqi Temple, so the birth of friendship was natural. At that time, the little Mu Anzhi would shed tears because he could not be liked by his mother. Later, he knew,
Mu Anzhi is a prince, but his status is awkward. Mu Anzhi's mother is the deposed Empress Liu. After Mu Anzhi was taken to the palace, Pei Ruyu was accused of being his companion. If it were not a human design, this would be absolutely impossible. However,
, Mu Anzhi was so happy. He pulled Pei Ruyu and talked endlessly about the fear and loneliness in the palace, the joy and admiration when seeing his father. He knew that Pei Ruyu would come to study with him, so he prepared many things for Pei Ruyu.
Gift.
I don’t know if it’s because he hasn’t been in the court since he was a child, but Mu Anzhi’s character is like his divided life. He has the simplicity and directness of the monastery, and the dignity and pride of the royal family. He would say, “I can lose someone because I am not virtuous or loving enough.”
But he will never give up the position of Donggong because of his bloodline!", but he would also say, "Ruyu, is it enough for a person to have power? I hope that I have relatives and friends in my life, I hope
My relatives like me and care about me, instead of calculating their likes with all their heart. Is the calculated love still a liking? Can such emotion be considered a relative?"
Pei Ruyu accompanied him to study in the palace. She knew how diligent and hard-working he was, and had seen his confusion and loss too many times. Pei Ruyu had never seen a royal person with such strong feelings. In Pei Ruyu's impression, most royal people
He maintained his unfathomable power with aloofness and aloofness. His grandfather reminded him many times that His Highness is a prince and should abide by the duties of a monarch and a minister.
But even if Pei Ruyu is as rational as Pei Ruyu, she will be touched by the trust in Mu An's eyes when she faces him. They have known each other for twelve years and been together for twelve years. He was the first in the case and the first in the Yuan Dynasty, and Mu An was happier than him.
Twelve years of companionship, not only was he studying with Mu Anzhi, but Mu Anzhi was also accompanying him. This was more than just the cold duty of a monarch and his ministers. They were the most intimate friends and the most beautiful friends in each other's youth.
Mu Anzhi's position in the palace was awkward. Emperor Mu Xuan turned a blind eye to Mu Anzhi for several years, as if he didn't even know that he had a son named Mu Anzhi. Sometimes Pei Ruyu really wanted to say to Mu Anzhi, there are people who are not worthy of you at all.
Call me Father!
But maybe because he never got it, Mu Anzhi tried his best to get his father's approval. Do you know that feeling? Someone cut out a hot heart and offered it as an offering, but what he got was always a basin of bone-chilling cold water. Later,
There is no cold water, only indifference and disdain. Such an indifferent attitude that your whole person does not exist in my eyes makes Pei Ruyu angry! How has Mu Anzhi felt in these years?
Today, Emperor Mu Xuan issued an imperial edict based on the fact that the eldest prince was the direct eldest son. What a humiliation and despair Mu An felt!
"Ruyu, I'm fine. You have to promise me to take care of yourself. Even if we can't always be together, let me know that you are always well."
Mu Anzhi was not as hysterical as Pei Ruyu was worried about, and he did not raise his spikes to prevent anyone from getting close. Mu Anzhi said that he wanted a small vassal land, and he could vassal it if he wanted to.
Actually, it's better to leave.
"If Your Highness intends to join the vassal state, I would like to ask you to be the vassal minister."
"I see."
If I could be the vassal king, I would definitely take you as my long history.