Lin Ye in the carriage seemed so quiet, as quiet as when he was sitting alone on the steps at the door of Shoushanku after burying his mother-in-law.
On that day, when all the people in Wuwei County had left, the Shoushan Treasury seemed empty.
At that time, the Shoushan Treasury was still full of supplies, so it shouldn't be empty.
Maybe what was empty at that time was not the big house, but the house in my heart.
Growing up in such an environment, Lin Ye sometimes couldn't tell who he really was.
It’s the self that takes the lead when leading troops in battle, the self that is cunning and cunning when making numerous plans, the self that is wild and wild in the teaching department, or the self that is lonely when sitting quietly and not moving.
Lin Ye has never been a hypocritical person, so when he was thinking about these things, he not only did not take it for granted, but instead felt that it was a bit hypocritical to dwell on these things.
People who are lonely and carry too many burdens sometimes even breathe carefully.
The woman in white originally wanted to ask Lin Ye, are you just sitting like this? Don't you have anything to say?
But in the end, she didn't say anything, and just sat quietly with Lin Ye.
The carriage only swayed slightly, the street was flat, even the gaps between the stone slabs were smooth, and there were very few bumps.
The woman in white didn't know why, but she felt like Lin Ye had gone back to when he was less than two years old, sitting alone on the swing, neither crying nor laughing, just sitting blankly, looking nothing like him
He's a kid of that age.
In the end, Lin Ye was the first to ask.
"Where are we going?"
The woman in white replied: "I just want to pick you up and talk. I don't have a specific place to go. Do you have one?"
Lin Ye thought for a while and replied: "How about going back to Wuwei County?"
At this moment, there was an undercurrent surging in Geling City, and when he still needed to do a lot of things, he suddenly said that he should go back to Wuwei County?
The woman in white didn't hesitate and nodded immediately: "Okay."
What made her feel distressed was that Lin Ye was always so sensible, so sensible that he easily accepted her identity as his aunt, and easily recognized the Supreme Saint's original arrangement.
He said that he was not the kind of child who was sensible enough to make people feel sorry for him, maybe he just didn't want to trouble others to feel sorry for him.
And he still has to use his heart to respond to other people's distress.
He has never been a person who is good at acting. If he completely replicated the character of the Supreme Saint, then acting would be really easy.
But he wasn't. He had practiced smiling in front of the bronze mirror countless times, but when he looked at himself in the mirror, which seemed to be sunny, he still felt hypocritical and disgusting.
Lin Ye is complicated, so complicated that he can't even give himself a definition.
If you had to ask him to describe what kind of person he is, his answer would probably be just nonsense.
Not a good guy, not a bad guy either.
Such answers will not get good marks.
Those who have not experienced so many people will never understand why he is so complicated despite being so bad at acting.
"I'm going to find Lu Dalijiao and borrow his Yunzhou so that we can go faster.
, after all, there are still many things going on in Geling City."
Lin Ye said this in a very soft voice.
The woman in white asked him: "Have you ever been willful? That kind of willfulness, no matter what?"
"have."
Lin Ye answered quickly.
The woman in white immediately asked: "When was it and what happened?"
Lin Ye didn't answer.
Everyone will feel that of course they have been willful at times, but how many people in this world can really ignore it?
The place where my heart belongs is not my heart after all.
The lights are dimming, and there are numerous figures. Everyone is one of them, a member of the common people, and everyone is a god. You can see the people you care about among the numerous figures at a glance, with incomparable clarity.
No matter what you do, you are an immortal. Immortals are not in this world.
Humans are always the ones who have no hesitation. At that time, they can kill demons or immortals.
Lin Ye really recalled it carefully, because he really felt that he had been willful countless times.
But just ignoring it left him unable to find an answer.
Where is it? Who has it?
"Just take the car."
The woman in white said: "Yunzhou is too fast. Some things have to be done slowly, to experience the feelings, to think, and to settle."
Lin Ye said: "I can't."
The woman in white asked: "Why can't you?"
Lin Ye thought for a while and replied: "When everyone answers that they are not good, it is because everyone has a framework in their heart. Within the framework, I am capable, and outside the framework, I am not capable."
He said: "The size of this frame depends on what lives inside it. Most people's frame is a home. For the sake of home, they can have many good things and many bad things. I
It’s big...it’s destined to be big.”
Destined.
The woman in white asked, "Even when I go back to burn incense, I have to come and go in a hurry?"
Lin Ye said: "Yeah."
The woman in white said: "Even if you don't interfere with the affairs in Geling City, Your Majesty will naturally take care of them."
Lin Ye said: "The more you read, the less you will make mistakes. Now I have to read more."
The woman in white asked again: "Why don't you allow yourself to make mistakes?"
Lin Ye replied: "The frame is big."
The woman in white suddenly realized that she was the hypocritical one. Why did she force Lin Ye to do things that were destined to leave more scars in her heart? Just to satisfy the Lin Ye she wanted to see in her heart.
What does the leaf look like?
Pain? Cry?
"Then Yunzhou."
The woman in white nodded.
She looked out the window: "You are right."
Lin Ye said: "Thank you."
These two words made the woman in white wake up instantly... Lin Ye recognized her identity as an aunt so easily, but in fact, he didn't accept it so easily.
The carriage was heading towards the city gate but suddenly turned a corner.
In fact, this is the same as at certain moments in life. You have turned a corner, but it is not that you are further away from your goal, but that you have found a way to reach your goal faster.
Keeping forward is worthy of respect, but going straight forward without turning back when there is a horse behind you is not worthy of respect.
Suddenly, the woman in white realized something again.
If I were to use one word to describe the Supreme Saint, there would be nothing more appropriate than correct.
If you use a thorn to describe the forest leaves, it seems to be pragmatic.
There is something more suitable.
As a young man in his twenties, what is probably always on his mind is... I don't have that much time to waste.
After another half an hour, Yunzhou flew into the sky.
Sitting on the cloud boat, no matter how powerful the magic circle is, it is impossible to block all the wind. Lin Ye likes the feeling of the wind blowing on his face, as if a gentle hand is gently caressing his face.
Why does he like heights so much?
The people around him will give the answer immediately, because the general can think seriously at a high place.
He just loved the gentle wind.
Especially after the death of his mother-in-law, no other hand touched his face so gently.
At that time, he was only a teenager.
He sat quietly, and the woman in white also sat quietly.
She looked at the quiet young man and tried hard to find in him what he looked like when he was a child.
"Is she pretty?"
Lin Ye suddenly asked.
"who?"
The woman in white responded immediately, and then there was some guilt in her eyes.
"She...Actually, she's not particularly beautiful, but she is so lovable. Everyone likes her."
"How did she meet His Majesty?"
"She was also in the palace when His Majesty was the prince..."
"Well, I got it."
Lin Ye fell silent again.
I don't know how long it took, but Lin Ye turned around and sat facing the woman in white. He seemed to want to say something.
But the woman in white knew that what Lin Ye wanted to say at this time was not because Lin Ye really wanted to know something so urgently, but because Lin Ye understood that if she was so silent along the way, she would
Very uncomfortable.
"I remember that when I was in the Ye family, I had parents and an older brother. Later I found out that my older brother was one of the personal soldiers of General Liu Jigong."
He asked: "Then, who are my parents?"
The woman in white understood. Lin Ye suddenly said that he wanted to go back to Wuwei County, not just to burn incense.
"The people from the Ye family, the one who plays your father, are actually family members of the Fearless Camp. There are also people from the Ye family in the Fearless Camp."
Before she could finish speaking, Lin Ye asked, "Is it a coincidence?"
The woman in white shook her head: "No."
Lin Ye hummed.
The woman in white continued: "You have actually guessed many things. At that time, His Majesty did not have many people around him that he could rely on, and it was not at that time that His Majesty began to reuse General Liu Jigong immediately after becoming His Majesty.
"
"When he was still a prince, Your Majesty got to know the general Liu Jigong. At that time, the general came to Geling and wanted to practice military skills in the martial arts academy."
"They were both young at that time and hit it off immediately. Later, under the recommendation of the general, His Majesty also met some young people with great ideals and ambitions, and Ye Jingyuan was one of them."
"Ye Jingyuan's name is not on the death lists of the Cowardly Army and the Fearless Battalion. You must know that because you must have checked that list countless times."
Lin Ye nodded.
The woman in white said: "That's because Ye Jingyuan knew how difficult it would be for the general to send troops to the north, so before he was recruited, he went to your majesty and asked to be transferred to the Ministry of War. He said, I'm not afraid of death, I just feel that I can't do it all.
In the front, there must be someone who stays behind to guard the morsel of food for those in front.”
"He really isn't
I was afraid of death, because the person who stayed behind and stared at the logistics supplies...actually died closer to the front."
When Lin Ye heard this sentence, a trace of sadness flashed across his eyes.
Yes, how could Ye Jingyuan, who was alone, be able to fight against those who almost controlled the power of the court?
The woman in white just told Lin Ye about the past of more than 20 years ago in a very quiet and peaceful tone.
Lin Ye's mother is Ye Jingyuan's sister.
The woman in white told how Liu Jigong trained an almost invincible and cowardly army for His Majesty in Jingzhou, and His Majesty cared about this team and even did not want to transfer this team to Northern Xinjiang at one time.
But, no.
Your Majesty really hopes that Liu Jigong will be more ruthless and replace Tuoba Lie's position in Yunzhou according to His Majesty's plan.
But Liu Jigong is Liu Jigong after all, and Tuoba Lie is Tuoba Lie after all.
She also told about the many difficulties His Majesty encountered when he was young. No, it was not a difficulty, it was a life and death situation, every time.
She said, I am telling you this not because I hope you will think he is so powerful and worship him, but I want to ask you to forgive him for struggling to survive at that time.
Lin Ye replied...never blamed him.
The cloud boat flies quietly, rises and falls, rests, flies again, rises and falls again, rests, and flies again.
Lin Ye and his aunt talked more and more, and the woman in white would try her best to tell him all the past events as peacefully as possible.
When Yunzhou landed in a remote place, and Lin Ye walked all the way back to the home where he had lived for several years, he discovered that the appearance of his home was actually the same as his memory.
It's exactly the same inside, with no changes at all.
The woman in white told him that there are always people maintaining this place.
Lin Ye turned around and asked a little embarrassedly... Can I go in by myself?
The woman in white wanted to follow, but she still nodded and agreed.
She waited at the door for a long time, from sunset to sunrise.
Countless times she wanted to go in and see what Lin Ye was doing, but countless times she forced herself to endure it.
Lin Ye had been curled up on the ground, like the fetus curled up in its mother's belly.
He held the coffin in his arms all night. In the early morning, he kissed the coffin, then put his face against the coffin, stroking it gently.
I was also held by my mother for one night, all night long.
I also hugged my mother one night, all night long.