I know what the status of updates during this period is, and what the level of writing is, especially the last plot. In fact, what I want to write is to use an obscure way to write about the impact of foreign culture or foreign influence on the local area. , I wanted to write a weird and bizarre story, and when I made the setting, there was actually no deviation, but in the past six months, I have had a big problem with my personal state.
I began to doubt myself constantly, and began to have various hallucinations. My mental problems gradually began to torture me. I am not looking for an excuse. The original intention of this book is actually good, and the story is also good. I even thought He used this book to fight against his Changning Imperial Army and Bu Rang Jiang Shan.
However, in the second half, especially in the creation of the last plot, I gradually became irritable and tried to improve my condition by slowing down, slowing down the plot, slowing down the description of the characters, and slowing down the advancement of the story. But all to no avail.
I'm a failure.
So I plan to finish this book by the end of this month. What I’m afraid of is losing my reputation for writing good stories. Of course, I’ve already lost a lot of it.
Editors and friends have always advised me to take a break, even if it means stopping for a few days to adjust, but I feel that taking a break is disrespectful to my professional attitude, and the things I write are so poor.
I'm a failure.
In the past few months, my editor-in-chief, my editor, and my good friends Qingluan and others have spent an hour or two talking on the phone every time. They have all been enlightening me. I am very grateful, extremely grateful.
In the next ten days or so, I will finish writing this last story, although it has already
I failed to write it, but please believe that this original intention is really good, and the story about Zhentian is indeed not a last-minute improvisation of the word count, but I didn't write it well.
Yes, I am a failure.
I also want to tell you directly here that the end of this story is to restore order. In fact, after the events that I originally wanted to write about arrived in Dayu, they had a spreading impact on the people from runes to culture, which in turn caused the people of Dayu to waver in their faith. , but I don’t know why I gave up on the initial setting process, and the subsequent writing became nondescript.
There are no violent conflicts, no proper plot progression, nothing, not even unnecessary moaning.
Starting six months ago, anxiety, fear, and even some schizophrenia began to torment me. I never dared to talk about these things to anyone. It was not until two months ago that I took the initiative to mention them to my editor and friends.
I resist meeting people and just want to be alone without any social interaction or talking. This is wrong, and I know very well that it is wrong.
After the book is finished, I may take a few months to adjust myself. Although the conception and creation of the new book were ready half a year ago, writing it right away can only ruin the new book, just like ruining the book. It's like the whole army is arrayed.
I can’t say when the new book will be released. I will come back when I can turn writing a book into a happy thing again.
In the next ten days or so, I will finish this book and get over this plot as soon as possible. This process is torture for me, and it is torture for everyone.
sorry Sorry sorry.
I really love writing books
, I also really love readers, but I am a failure now.