When Luo Changan heard this, he was immediately startled, thinking that today is actually the anniversary of his father's death, and today I forced him to wear a festive red wedding dress, and he suddenly felt a deep sense of self-consciousness in his heart.
The sense of responsibility and even the struggle were gone. She stood like a puppet, letting him control her, just like he had let her control her just now, cooperating with him to put on her wedding clothes.
Luo Changan, you are really nothing! Are you doing human affairs?
Luo Changan was so upset that he condemned his own behavior. He should at least be gentle and ask why he could be so sad that he suddenly stopped doing it. You are so shameless when you start making trouble with others unreasonably and provoking other people's emotions.
Recalling Di Qianao's expression of forbearing helplessness and indulging in her injury just now, her heart ached with pain.
When she stood side by side with him in her wedding dress, he met her eyes through the bronze mirror. He almost lost control of holding her slender waist, restraining his desire to gushing aroused by her, "Today is also the day for the left.
It was the birthday of Xiang Song Kui. When I was fifteen years old, I watched my father beheaded by Song Kui. When my father's head rolled to my feet who were hiding in the dark, he didn't even close his eyes.
And I know that Song Kui chose the day of his birthday to celebrate this day every year."
"Emperor, I..."
"Luo Chang'an, forgive me for not being able to fuck you on a day like today. I can't keep thinking about my father's face of death and death while possessing your body. If you can, I hope you understand me and don't fuck with me."
It’s noisy. Is it okay?”
Luo Changan's heart twitched, the tips of her ears and neck were red, she nodded quickly, she even felt ashamed, "Stop talking about it, Emperor, I was wrong, I am a bastard, I always force you to touch me
If you do things according to your own ideas, I will blame you for doing things according to my ideas. I never think about you, I am too self-centered."
She had always only emphasized her own misfortune and hatred, but he had always remained silent and never mentioned his past and experiences. Today, he was pushed to the extreme by her and had to reveal the tip of the iceberg, which made her realize clearly,
The trauma and pain in his heart was no less than hers.
"Emperor, I'm sorry, I didn't know that today is the anniversary of your father's death. I'm sorry, I... was unreasonable and used unreasonable things like children's private affairs to speculate on you." Luo Changan tried to put his hand on his handsome cheek, "I
Now I understand that you are not neglecting me, you are just in a bad mood."
Cold sweat broke out on Di Qian'ao's forehead because of his forbearance, and his breathing became rapid. God knows how tempting her aggrieved look was when she scolded him for neglecting her.
"After my father left, my mother knelt all over my father's old tribe, begging them to protect me and help me rise to power. For the imperial family, to maintain my father's hegemony, and for me, my mother endured unimaginable sufferings.
I watched my mother kneel down in front of everyone. I watched my usually proud mother lower her head. I vowed to honor my mother. Luo Changan, this is why I can tolerate my mother placing a harem for me.
That's why I don't want to hurt my mother's heart. I can have no heirs, but I can't be unfilial."
Luo Changan's eyes were blurred by tears, "I understand, I understand. I'm sorry."
"I can drag it from nineteen to thirty, or from thirty to forty, but the result is the same. You and I will always have to face this step. I have made various attempts, and I
I want you to be pregnant more than anyone else, and I have also struggled. You heard me right that day, I said elopement. But you and I are not desperate people, and we are both sensible. We know that there will be no result, and we know that we have our own
Mission, but we are attracted to each other. If you think I'm dirty, I admit it. I don't remember what happened with Gongsun Ya that night, but I can't shirk responsibility. This is who I am. If you want me to get out of your life
,I respect you."
Luo Changan hugged him, patted him gently, and then hugged him tightly, "Emperor, stop talking, let me hug you. Maybe I also need you to hug me."
"Tell me your answer. Do you want me or don't you want me?"
Luo Changan thought for a long time and said slowly: "These days, I have thought about it over and over again, but I can't see hope in every road. Emperor, please get out of my life. Let's just be friends. I
It hurts me so much to see you being tortured like this."
As soon as Luo Changan finished speaking, Di Qianao pushed all the items off the table, and then placed them on the table for her. He held her hands tightly and asked: "The answer is, you don't want me anymore,
Yeah."
"!" What's the answer? Didn't he say something abstract about withdrawing from life that she couldn't even understand?
"answer me."
"Emperor... calm down..."
"This is not the answer I expected! The standard answer is that you want me! Forcing me to wear a wedding dress on the anniversary of my father's death is enough to shock me. I really didn't expect you to dump me today. You always give up,
You never followed me firmly, you always threw me away!"
Luo Changan was stunned. He actually had a standard answer. Didn't he let her choose? She was so messy. It would be good for them both to be separated. It would be fruitless to continue to entangle. It was too painful. "I'm sorry, I
I didn’t know there was a standard answer beforehand.”
"Luo Changan!" Di Qianao was depressed.
"Emperor, you have confused me. What do you want? I just want you to calm down. I know you are in a bad mood tonight. I am very slow. Can you tell me what to do to calm you down?
"
"Stay with me. I want you... to stay with me." Di Qianao held Luo Changan in his arms, almost rubbing her into his body, "Don't leave me alone today."
Luo Changan felt relieved and held his hand and walked back to the bed, "I'll stay with you, I'm not going anywhere."
That night, Luo Changan felt his waist being hugged tightly by Di Qianao. Listening to his turbulent breathing, it seemed that he would lose control and eat her up at any time, but he held back because the day was special.
Without touching her, he would open his eyes from time to time to see if she had left. Sometimes, although he did not open his eyes, he would tentatively call her name.
"Luo Changan."
"Um."
"Luo Changan."
"Um……"
"Don't go."
"I'm always in your arms."
Luo Changan never imagined that the cold man who scared her at first would one day be so helplessly dependent on her.
"..."
Finally at the end of the night, Di Qianao fell into a deep sleep, and for the first time Luo Changan realized that beneath his cold and arrogant appearance, he actually had a sensitive and insecure heart. In her hazy moment, she seemed to hear
Di Qianao's murmur reached his ears.
"I will only get married once in my life. You are my first wife. I will never let you go. Even if you hate me in the future, you will never leave me."
When the morning sun shone into the room from the window, Luo Changan opened his sleepy eyes. The seat next to him was already empty. Di Qianao had already left to go to court. She had half of his clothes under her body. It seemed that she was trying to get rid of the clothes.
Cut off alive.
Aunt Mei came in with morning tea and said softly: "You were still sleeping soundly when the emperor left in the morning, and his clothes were pressed against you. He was afraid that he would wake you up by taking out his clothes, so he simply cut them with his sword."
Luo Changan: "..."
As for this operation, luckily I didn't press one of his legs. Otherwise, if I woke up and saw his broken leg under me, I would be scared to death.