Lu Weishang clenched her fists unconsciously, and her veins popped out. She tried her best to control the surging emotions in her heart, and continued in a straight-line calm tone: "I work like crazy, trying to do everything before you."
in front of
Tell yourself if I can't be stronger than you, how can I protect you? When I was nine years old, I awakened "Legilimency" and rewrote the record of being the youngest in the history of the Lu family. I was so happy that I thought
This resolves the knot in my heart.”
Lu Weishuang paused for a moment, then bit her lower lip with her upper teeth, once, twice, three times... Finally, she chewed up the emotions and trembling voice and swallowed them back.
The maze of clouds was churning more and more fiercely, and Mr. Painter's gray mist did not hide it at all, but eroded inward from all directions without restraint. He had obviously seen through Hanabi's empty city plan, so he began to violently break through the obstructive maze without hesitation.
How long is the time left? How many minutes? Or how many seconds? Lu Weishuang knows that if she doesn’t say some things now, she may not have the chance to say them again. She wants to make an end, cut herself open, break her into pieces, and tell the most shameless words.
The dark side of her was exposed nakedly, so she was so persistent in speaking calmly because it was the only last self-respect she retained.
"Ah Huo, you quickly made me understand that in front of you, Tiandaoxing is nothing. The harder I work, the more I hit my head and blood on the wall of talent. You never argue with me.
, ha, I'm not even qualified to be your opponent. You make me look like
I perform clumsily on myself like a clown, am intoxicated with myself, and end up being ugly. In the end, you come to comfort me every time. You know, for a while, I always thought it was your ridicule, that you were showing off your power to me and mocking me.
Don’t overestimate your own capabilities.”
"A Shuang, I have never..."
"I know, I know you have never thought about this stupid little trick. For the sake of my stupid self-esteem, I subconsciously deceived myself and kept telling myself that you were hypocritical. I was just trying to strip you of your kindness.
Like an onion, you peel off your illusion layer by layer. But one day, I suddenly woke up and found that I
It’s me who’s driving, and I’ve seen the ugly core of myself. Despicable, stupid, jealous, careless, and anything I say to protect you is just an excuse to deceive myself. You know, I look at your fragile appearance now,
I really want to laugh in my heart. It’s so disgusting. It’s really disgusting to see myself like this.”
Is she really as unbearable as she said? No, that's definitely not the case. Everything we have known each other for more than ten years has flowed through Hanabi's heart. Without her support, I would not have the courage to live until now. Hanabi
Better than anyone else, we know that Lu Weishuang is extremely perfect.
However, she did not expect that the contradictions and depression in her heart would produce such a serious self-destructive tendency. Yes, she has always been aloof and perfect. Everyone seems to take this for granted, but forget that she is just
He is a person of flesh and blood.
What should I say, what should I do, as long as it can relieve her, I am willing to do anything, but I really don’t know how to do it. At this time, I am more afraid of hurting her more. Again.
, the emotions of regret and self-blame entangled Hanabi like fierce snakes. If I hadn't been so cowardly and withdrawn, if I could have told her my feelings earlier...
The turbulence of the maze of clouds gradually weakened, and behind the floating clouds as white as snow, there was a deep or shallow hint of deathly gray. The white clouds rolled, fought, and then fell silently. The quieter it became, the more murderous intent was hidden.
.
Lu Weishuang looked around. The danger was getting closer and closer, but she felt calmer and calmer. Her heart was like a wrinkled paper ball being gradually smoothed out. Her clenched fists slowly loosened and she asked in a low voice.
: "Do you know why I participate in the deer-chasing game?"
"Is it because of your father? And the pressure on your family." Hua Huo was confused and answered Lu Weishuang's words in a wooden tone.
"No, I know you all think that my father is very strict with me. Ha, in fact, since I was a child, he has never forced me once, including this game of deer. If I didn't want to, he wouldn't be so
Determined. As for the boring gossip at home, I have never paid attention to it. After that time with the chief, I finally knew what I was missing.
What? I need a position, a strong excuse that allows me to throw away all restraints and stand on your opposite side, and I can use any means to end it with you. The game of chasing deer, hehe, all the rules here are
It exists to be broken. It only cares about victory or defeat, life and death. How despicable and appropriate. As long as I kill you, I can be freed."
Kill me? End it? Ah Shuang, you're lying to me again. You don't want to end it with me at all. You want to end it with yourself. You can't stand your imperfections. You want me to hate you,
Let me attack you without any scruples. You are prepared to die to fulfill my Taoism and practice.
Hua Huo endured the severe pain that was like a burning fire in her body, used all her strength, slapped Lu Weishuang on the face, and shouted heartbreakingly: "Don't lie to me, I won't allow you to die!"
"Ah Huo, you are the only one who is not qualified to say this to me. Do you think I can't see it? Why do you want to practice such random Taoism as Douzhan? On the surface, you have a stronger will to survive than anyone else. But.
, why the more dangerous things are, the more you rush to the front like a moth to a flame. You are basically seeking death intentionally. Intentionally? Unintentionally? Subconsciously? Why do you never tell me why? "
Hanabi was speechless. She did pursue dangerous situations that risked her life intentionally or unintentionally, and then fell into it without any complaints. She was not the kind of character who sought excitement between life and death. On the contrary, she hated it extremely. But
This is the curse of her birth, a sad fate. For the day that will eventually come, the day that she desperately escapes but is inevitable, she needs countless rehearsals. She walks between life and death because for her,
You will become stronger if you live, and death will be a relief.
This was the only thing she was unwilling to tell Lu Weishuang from the beginning to the end. Because she knew that anyone who got involved with this matter would end in tragedy without exception.
Hanabi remained silent, two lines of tears running down her cheeks uncontrollably.
The maze of the sea of clouds was already gray and black, and the formation was about to break. Lu Weishang leaned forward, picked up the ends of Hanabi's hair with one hand, put his forehead against hers, and gently brushed away the tears on her face with the other hand.
He smiled and said:
"Ah Huo, I've changed my mind. Instead of killing you, I now have a more interesting choice. I want to show off as a villain. This time, it's you who will watch my back."
Lu Weishuang stood up slowly. She turned around and looked at the billowing clouds. She took a deep breath, raised her right hand to the shoulder level, punched her back in a cathartic manner, and punched the air. Her voice was still deep.
It was as calm as a pond, and seemed to be telling a trivial matter that had nothing to do with me.