My name is Zhou Zixiang, and I am the only student who survived the massacre at Admiralty Middle School three years ago.
I don't know whether my survival is a reward from God or another punishment for me.
When I was a student, I once learned a modern poem: "Some people are alive, but they are dead; some people are dead, but they are still alive."
But in my opinion, sometimes death is not so terrible, but a kind of relief.
Similarly, living may not be so beautiful. It may make people feel that life is worse than death. If you continue to live in this world, you will be like a walking zombie, living in a state of confusion every day, without any joy or happiness at all.
In the three years after returning from Lushan Village, I lived in such a state.
In the early days of the college entrance examination, our class teacher decided to take us to Lushan Village for two days in order to prepare us in the best possible condition for the college entrance examination.
This was a normal thing at first, but it was not until later that I discovered that there was a huge conspiracy hidden in it.
After happily arriving in Lushan Village, we found that there are only three hotels here, and because it is located in a rural area, the size of each hotel is not large, so the fifty-five of us students can only live in different hotels.
The villagers in Lushan Village are very enthusiastic and very kind to all our students. They took the initiative to chat with us and brought out their local specialties for us to taste.
Everyone, including the head teacher Li Jie, was very happy. Although everything was harmonious, I found a very strange phenomenon, that is, I often saw some people here looking at us in a weird way.
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The look in their eyes was very strange, with all kinds of complicated emotions in it. But because I was so excited at the time, I didn’t pay too much attention to this situation. I just thought that Lushan Village was curious about us foreign tourists.
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In addition, there is another situation, that is, I think our head teacher Li Jie is very familiar with this place, and obviously with Lushan Village. Every person from Lushan Village who meets Li Jie on the road will take the initiative to talk to her.
It seems that Li Jie is a native of Lushan Village.
But Li Jie has never told me that her hometown is Lushan Village, and this is just a very common thing, and there is no need to hide it.
I can only understand this as Li Jie has been here many times before, and over time, she is very familiar with the situation in Lushan Village.
We went there on Friday afternoon, and it was already dark when we got there. We definitely couldn't go out today.
Li Jie said that we can only stay one night in the hotel in Lushan Village. When it gets dark the next day, we will go to Qiaoshan next to Lushan Village. There are many interesting things there. We can climb mountains, have dinner, etc.
Because of the conditions, we agreed with what Li Jie said.
At dinner time in the evening, Li Jie found a restaurant for us, and all fifty-five of us in the class went there to eat together.
Although we have been classmates for three years, during these three years we studied together, lived together, and got to know each other day and night, we are all very familiar with each other.
But like now, this is the first time that all the students in the class sit together to eat.
Therefore, when eating in the evening, everyone had a different feeling in their hearts, and everyone was filled with a special mood.
Especially when I think about the fact that after the college entrance examination is over in one month, our group of people will be separated from each other, so this feeling is even more obvious.
When eating out, drinking is a must.
Originally, we were all students, and we had exams coming soon, so drinking was not an option.
But this time the situation was quite special. We were eating out and there were not so many restrictions, so everyone relaxed and drank a lot of wine while eating.
It was the boys in the class who took the lead in drinking, and then some of the more outgoing boys took the initiative to toast the girls and let them drink too.
Although most of the girls in the class were relatively reserved, the atmosphere had heated up by now, and the girls couldn't refuse, so they started drinking too.
I am no exception. My skin is quite strange. Every time I drink alcohol, I will become allergic and my whole body will turn red. Therefore, when I usually eat, I don’t even touch alcohol.
But today everyone drank, and I didn’t want to disappoint everyone, so I drank some wine too.
We all ate and drank until late, and finally went back to our respective hotels to sleep.
Because of drinking, when I was lying in bed at night, I felt itchy all over my body, and I tossed and turned for a long time without falling asleep.
It took a long time and finally I fell asleep.
My throat was dry in the middle of the night and I felt like there was a small bug crawling around in my throat. I got up from the bed and planned to drink a glass of water before going back to sleep.
While standing in the room drinking water, I heard footsteps in the corridor outside, and someone was walking in the corridor.
I raised my wrist and looked at the watch on my hand. It was now three-thirty in the morning.
This hotel is full of students from our class. It’s already this hour and everyone should be sleeping in the room. Who is not sleeping and comes out of the room?
Out of curiosity, I opened the door and went out to take a look.
After opening the door, I happened to see someone coming downstairs.
The person had already reached the stairs. After I opened the door, I only saw her once and then she went downstairs.
With just one glance, I remembered that person's face. She was Li Yue, one of my best friends in Admiralty Middle School.
After seeing that person clearly, my doubts deepened. Li Yue and I have the best relationship in the class. She is my closest best friend. We have always talked about everything.
There are no secrets.
What did she go downstairs for in the middle of the night? She didn't even tell me.
With doubts, I decided to follow him to see what Li Yue was doing out there.
After going downstairs, Li Yue walked straight ahead without making any pause.
Li Yue kept walking, and I followed closely behind her. When we arrived at the reed bush in Lushan Village, Li Yue stopped.
When I was wondering what Li Yue was doing, Li Yue stood there, suddenly turned around, and his eyes stayed on me.
Without any mental preparation, I suddenly looked at Li Yue. I trembled all over and shuddered.
"Li Yue, why are you up here at midnight?" Although I was very frightened, I still tried to calm down and asked with a smile.
Li Yue is very strange now, which makes me feel that she is very different from her usual self.
This difference is not reflected in appearance, but in temperament.
Li Yue and I are so familiar, but at this moment we are extremely strange.
Li Yue stood there, not answering my question, but grinning, showing a weird smile.
Then Li Yue waved to me and motioned for me to come over.
But seeing the smile on Li Yue's lips, I felt chilled in my heart.
If in normal times, Li Yue waved to me, I would definitely rush over immediately.
But now after I took a step, my feet felt like they were rooted in the ground and I couldn't move any more.
Li Yue still waved to me and told me to hurry over.
At this time, a voice sounded in my heart, constantly saying to me, "Hurry up and get over there" and "Hurry up and get over there."
Slowly, I felt that my consciousness began to become blurry, and my body was no longer under my control, and I leaned closer to Li Yue little by little.
But at this moment, my whole body went cold, I shook my head vigorously, and my head regained consciousness.
Reason tells me that I cannot pass now, otherwise I will never be able to come back.
Then I ignored everything and immediately turned my head and ran back.
After I lay down in the hotel and put on my clothes again, I covered my head with the quilt and didn't think about anything.
I couldn't sleep that night, and it wasn't until dawn that I fell asleep again.
But before I slept for long, it was time to get up.
After getting up, washing up, and going downstairs to eat.
During the meal, Li Yue took the initiative to sit next to me. She looked like her usual self again, with a youthful smile on her face, and started chatting with me.
I kept thinking about what happened last night in my mind. After seeing her, I asked her what she was doing next to the reeds last night.
But Li Yue's return scares me.
"No, I was sleeping in my room yesterday and didn't go anywhere!" Li Yue looked up at me and said in surprise.