The girl whose name was called slowly stopped and turned around.
Oda was a little stunned when he saw Nishino's face: the face that Oda was very familiar with was covered with traces of tears rolling down his face, and under the bloodshot eyes was an expression that was half-smiling but not smiling.
"Na-chan...I..." Oda put his hands on his knees and spoke raggedly, trying to explain, but was interrupted again by Nishino.
"It's enough, it's really enough." The raised corners of Nishino's mouth looked very sad, "I shouldn't have thought about it for so long..."
"Xiaoshi, do you know? Ever since I said those words, I have been afraid that you will dislike me and be estranged from me because of this matter. I am afraid of losing you as my best friend.
"
"Actually, I want to explain it to you right away." Nishino's hair had already been messed up due to running. A gust of wind blew by, and her long hair covered half of her face, but she didn't care at all and continued to talk to Oda.
, "I want to laugh with you and say that all of this is a misunderstanding, and it's all what I said out of the blue. From the time I knocked on your door to now, I have always wanted to say this."
"But I don't know why I can't say it. I see your attitude and I know that I can't succeed, but I still can't say those short words of explanation. There is always a chance, as long as I don't explain, I can say
Maybe you will agree." At this point, Nishino chuckled, as if he was mocking himself, "I know it's impossible, but I still want to grab the last straw, like this
, isn’t it ugly?”
"Na-chan..." After hearing Nishino's explosive remarks, Oda didn't know what to say.
"I just deliberately slowed down a bit to wait for you to catch up, Xiaoshi. Maybe this mentality is at work." Nishino's hands pinched his thighs tightly, and conspicuous red marks appeared on his snow-white skin. "
So, now it’s Xiaoshi’s turn to give me a final answer.”
The girl in front of me has tried her best to tell herself all her thoughts, so what should I do?
Oda considers herself not a sentimental person, but what Nishino said just now really touched her heart, and she didn't even know how to organize it in words. But Oda knew one thing, and she could no longer escape at this time.
After taking a deep breath, Oda stood up.
Faced with Nishino's unreserved voice, he should convey his thoughts to her without reservation.
"Na-chan, actually when I heard your confession at first, I thought it was a joke. But after I slowly found out that you were serious, I was actually a little scared." Oda scratched the back of his head with his hand, "Here.
Before, I actually didn’t know what true love was. Books describe the so-called heartbeat, but I still haven’t experienced this emotion personally.”
"I've been asking myself, do I like you Na-chan? I think I do." Upon hearing this, Nishino's head suddenly raised, and his eyes began to shine.
"But I don't know if this kind of love is between lovers. Before this, I always thought you were my friend, no, my best friend."
"We go shopping together, eat together, commute to get off work together, and work hard to climb to the highest point of the trail together."
"But, I really don't know if this is the so-called love? Or, Na-chan, are you sure you really like me?"
Hearing Oda's question, Nishino opened his mouth to say something, but couldn't.
"I will feel very happy staying with you Na-chan. Many of the things I said before are all true." Oda stared at Nishino's eyes seriously, wanting to convey all his emotions to the other party, "
We will be friends forever, we will always be together, you are already an excellent idol, and what’s more, you have caught up with me.”
"But, is this really love? Could it be..." Oda didn't say the second half of her words, but she felt that Nishino should understand what she meant.
"Am I really a lover for Koichi?" Nishino fell into confusion. The confession just now was the result of the combined effect of excitement and the heat of the bathroom, although Nishino thought he had confirmed his feelings for Oda.
Her lover liked her, but Oda's words made her a little unsure.
"Thinking about it this way, it seems that in this year, I am the only one who has relied on Xiaoshi unilaterally. Have I done anything to help her?" Nishino asked himself in his heart, but could not get any answer.
.
Nishino once read a sentence - "Any relationship is a mutual sacrifice." So, in this love that I don't know whether it is friendship or love, have I done anything for the other person? Is it a few lunches or going shopping together?
What opinions did Oda give him? Compared with all the things Oda gave him, these little things seemed to be nothing.
Therefore, this relationship may only be born out of his own sense of dependence and exclusivity. Whether it can be regarded as a true love, Nishino himself is not sure now.
But, what is it about that feeling of excitement that I feel every time I see Xiaoshi? If this is not love, then what is it?
Nishino raised his head and looked at Oda again, but this time her eyes were not as firm as before. Her expression that was half-smiling instantly collapsed, and tears slowly flowed from her eyes again.
"So, what should I do..." Nishino asked in his heart, but he never got an answer.
"Na-chan, I have said everything I want to say." Oda felt that his eyes were a little sore since I don't know when. "So, the answer I want to give you is."
"Thank you, but now I can't accept being a lover with you now."
"We will always be good friends, at least I won't change my attitude towards you Na-chan because of this incident."
"But, at least for now, we can only be friends."
"Na-chan, you shouldn't just look at me, you should have your own world."
Really, it was rejected.
But for some reason, Nishino didn't feel particularly uncomfortable in his heart. Instead, he felt a strange sour feeling. Wiping his messy face with his hand, Nishino tried his best to put a smile on his face, but he was still only half-crying and half-crying.
Smiling, with a complicated expression that makes people look uncomfortable: "Well, we will always be friends."