For both of them, it is close to impossible to go back to that time.
Nishino knows this very well, so she has been working hard to think of solutions.
I don't want the relationship between myself and Oda to get worse, but I also want to make the relationship between them further without sacrificing. Is this too greedy? Nishino actually asked himself this question more than once.
In order to have a common topic with Oda, Nishino once tried to read the books recommended by Oda on his blog. Although he only had a partial understanding of it after buying it, he was deeply impressed by one of the sentences.
"Greed and love may be just two ways of saying the same desire."
Worry about the deterioration of the relationship, suppression of the throbbing in my heart, a little jealousy of Oda's intimate behavior with others...all kinds of suppressed emotions gathered together, and finally saw Akimoto and Oda hugging each other in the music rehearsal room.
It was time to completely explode.
Only then did she realize that what she was worried about was not her weak self, nor Nishino who rejected her, nor Akimoto who just happened to appear next to Oda.
It was the relationship between myself and Oda that was distant, disconnected but indescribable.
That night, Nishino told Akimoto everything about his relationship with Oda, and Akimoto listened very carefully and asked Nishino a question.
"So Na-chan, do you still like Xiaoichi?"
Only then did Nishino realize that he, who was originally able to categorically say "I love Xiaoichi", hesitated because of this question.
Only then did she realize that although she had a crush on Oda, she was not that fanatical about it.
What supported his love for Oda seemed to be only what Oda said to him that night, and the unwillingness to admit defeat in his heart that "if you dump me, I will become a better person"
It’s just the nature of a child.
When Akimoto went to take a shower, Nishino secretly took out the photo album hidden in the cabinet and kept in a dust bag.
As I slowly opened it, I discovered that although I had promised to fill this photo album together, it ended abruptly on the day I moved out.
How long had it been since I had a good chat with Oda, how long had it been since I went shopping and ate with Oda and then pointed at something and laughed like two idiots?
When he asked Oda before, "Have you ever liked me, Oichi?" Oda hesitated, and Nishino himself used this as a reason or evidence to prove that Oda had liked him.
But looking at Oda's attitude until now, Nishino had to admit that his inference seemed completely wrong.
Oda really regards himself as a close friend, but only as a close friend.
Well, now that Oda has expressed his attitude so clearly, it is now his turn to give a definite reply.
Due to a busy day of running around, Oda returned to the room and went to bed early after a meeting in the evening, while Nishino was lying on his side on the bed and reading his favorite comics on his mobile phone, but he couldn't concentrate.
The intense battle scenes also seemed inexplicably boring.
He turned over and looked at the sleeping face of the girl lying not far away from him. She didn't seem to be embarrassed at all because she lived in the same room with him. She had a faint smile on her face. She didn't know what interesting dream she had.
thing.
After tossing and turning, Nishino still couldn't fall asleep, so she climbed out of bed, thinking about organizing the clothes she would wear and the things she would bring tomorrow, but she found a small book on the table.
"This...is from Oichi?" Nishino glanced back at Oda and found that Oda was still sleeping, so he opened the small book with some curiosity.
Generally speaking, the notebooks that girls carry around are usually diaries that record their moods and small things that happened that day. Nishino actually wanted to see something like this.
What does Oda usually think about? What does Oda usually do?
Or...Oda, do you usually think about yourself?
With such a mood, she opened the book, but to Nishino's surprise, there were many words recorded in the book that she couldn't understand at all. They seemed to be in Chinese, and they were also marked in Japanese at the bottom.
Flipping further forward, Nishino discovered that the previously recorded content had almost nothing to do with Oda himself, but some of the key points and popular memes recorded by Oda. Nishino was really shocked when he saw the carefulness of the notes.
I don’t know if you will feel this way. When you do something with a certain kind of longing and get another result, although the result is not bad, it will bring a more serious sense of loss.
——And Nishino is like this now.
After sighing and closing the notebook, Nishino was no longer in the mood to organize things, so he lay back on the bed again.
I don’t know when I fell asleep. When I woke up the next day, rubbing my sleepy eyes, the first thing that caught my eye was Oda, who was already dressed and dressed up.
"Good morning, Na-chan." Oda seemed to notice Nishino getting up, and waved to her.
"Yeah." Nishino nodded in confusion.
"Well, I'm going to have breakfast on the first floor." Oda pointed to the breakfast coupon in his hand, "Should you come down to eat later or should I bring you one?"
"Xiaoichi, please bring me one."
"OK."
"Thank you, Xiaoshi, you are the best!"
Seeing Nishino who was still acting coquettishly, Oda blushed instantly, took the room card, turned around and walked out of the room.
Taking the elevator down to the first floor, Oda found that Matsumura and Ikuta, two professional lazy sleepers, had gotten up before him for the first time. Ikuta seemed to have noticed Oda while he was devouring his food, and waved to Oda.
Because the breakfast in this hotel was a buffet, Oda went directly to get two breakfast specialties from Macau that he had researched, and then sat next to Ikuta.
"Good morning, Oichi!" Ikuta pushed aside several stacked steamers and said hello to Oda through the gap.
"Oichi, bathsanghao!" Matsumura also said hello to Oda, but his mouth was full of food, so he couldn't even speak clearly. Oda was even worried that she would squirt on his face.
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"Good morning." Oda seemed to have thought of something and smiled evilly at Ikuta, "Ikku-chan, as the person with the lowest score currently, do you have anything to say?"
Hearing Oda's words, Ikuta's expression changed from gloomy to clear. Because today's activity is mainly bungee jumping, there are no other opportunities to add points. His bungee jumping seems to be a certainty.
"It's okay, Xiaoichi will dance with me when the time comes." Ikuta comforted himself.
"By the way, when bungee jumping, two people jump separately. You may have to watch me finish before jumping."