Whenever I see Yuan Wan, I feel a deep sense of inferiority in my heart.
This feeling never goes away.
No matter how hard I try, I won't change this feeling.
This kind of inferiority complex has always been hidden deep in my heart. This is not only the last tenderness I retain for Yuan Wan, but also my protection and love for my original beautiful love.
Even...even if I know that I will be a passerby until my death, and that I will never have anything to do with her until my death.
However, as long as I see her, I can't help but have the urge to be with her. Even if I can just accompany her like this, I am willing.
"call..."
I took a few big gulps of fresh air, tried my best to calm my head, and tried my best to prepare the ground for my next words.
"What's wrong?"
Yuan Wan saw my unusual behavior and couldn't help but ask softly: "Are you not feeling well?"
"No, I want to say that actually I already know the truth of the matter. You don't have to hide this matter from me. I know everything."
I clenched my fists hard and tried to calm down my tone when speaking.
But even so, I didn't dare to look up and it was her eyes, because I was afraid. I was afraid to face her pale and sick face. Every time I looked at her, I would feel more guilty.
"That's right...after all, you and he are good brothers, so it is inevitable for me to tell you such an important thing. I'm sorry, I shouldn't hide it from you."
Yuan Wan, who looked haggard, looked at me with a wry smile, bowed gently to me, and expressed her apology.
"There's no need to do this. I know it's really difficult to share such unhappy things, so I can understand you."
I slowly raised the corners of my mouth. Although I didn't dare to look into her eyes, I still gave her a kind smile.
"Thanks."
Yuan Wan bowed her head to me very politely, expressing that she understood her polite words.
"However, I still have something to ask you."
After hesitating for a moment, I slowly raised my head and asked seriously.
"What happened? I...I will tell you the truth as much as possible."
Yuan Wan knew that she had made a mistake just now, so she scratched her head in embarrassment, and her voice sounded like she would change her mind if she knew she was wrong.
"I want to know why you said we are good brothers?"
When I asked this question, I couldn't help but grit my teeth angrily. I almost whispered the whole sentence in a gritted teeth voice. Obviously, the words of a good brother are really too hypocritical.
"Ah? What, am I right?"
Yuan Wan tilted her little head in confusion, her expression full of confusion about the matter.
"That's not quite right, but I still want to hear the truth from your mouth."
I took another deep breath and tried to calm down as much as possible.
"Well, haven't Liu Yu been good brothers with you for a long time? He also told me that the best brother in this life is you. He not only admires your ability, but also admires your personality. He said he knows you
It is a blessing in my life. How did it come to your mouth and become the truth that I know?"
At this moment, Yuan Wan's small eyes were full of confusion, as if the word "puzzled" had been written directly on her face.
However, I'm not stupid, I can hear Liu Yu's sarcasm and teasing in her words.
On the surface, he was praising me, but secretly, he was scolding me as worthless.
"Hehe, this sounds really ironic. Tsk, tsk, tsk..."
When I heard this, I couldn't help but smile bitterly and shake my head. I couldn't help but smack my lips while talking to myself.
"What's wrong? Is there really a problem with this? I don't quite understand."
Yuan Wan did not understand the meaning of what I said. With a confused look on her face, she could only tell that something was wrong with my tone.
After all, perhaps only he and I can understand the truth of this matter.
"Nothing, I just...I just feel like this..."
Before I could finish my words, Yuan Wan's eyes suddenly flashed with hope. She slowly raised her head and looked at me with that pleading look that she hadn't seen in a long time. She lowered her voice and
He smiled bitterly and said to me: "I beg you, can you...can you...help me?"
Suddenly being spoken to like this, I felt a little confused. I couldn't help but take a breath of cold air and took two steps back.
"You, what do you want me to help you with? And don't act like this. I can't stand it."
Looking at the embarrassing situation in front of me, I couldn't help but shed a drop of cold sweat on my forehead.
For a moment, combined with all the previous words and situations, I seemed to understand something.
But...but I don't have the guts to continue thinking about it.
Because Yuan Wan wanted to find me and get back together with Liu Yu through me.
Since I have become what Liu Yu calls a good brother, when the two of them break up, I will be the mediator.
Just like best friends between girls, when they break up or quarrel, they always need their best friends to step forward and adjust the situation at hand.
However, I don't dare to think about it, let alone Liu Yu, I don't even dare to face Yuan Wan at this time.
Although I can wish others happiness, I still can't send the person I once liked into his hands again.
What's more, I can't imagine what the outcome will be if Yuan Wan is hurt by Liu Yu for the second time?
When the time comes, I, who helped them get back together, will become a bigger sinner and feel even more guilty.
[I want you to be happy, so whether I am his good brother or not, I have to think about you.
Since he is with you just to take revenge on me, then I cannot let him have a second chance to take revenge on me.]
I had just made my decision, and Yuan Wan on the other side also raised her head and took a deep breath, trying not to speak in the same tone as before, and trying not to annoy me: "I think...
Let you help me get back together with him. I know it’s hard for you, but I, but I really love him. If it weren’t for my love for him, I would never ask you for help.”
"I can't do it. I don't know how to bring you together."
I lowered my head and shook my head gently.
"Then...then you might as well tell me something..."
After hearing this, Yuan Wan's eyes dimmed obviously, and she seemed a little disappointed in me.
"Just tell me what it is and I will help you as much as possible."
I pursed my lips and nodded, agreeing to Yuan Wan's request.
"The two of us are having a good time together. I know he is not having an affair or talking to other girls.
God. But I don’t know. I don’t know why he abandoned me in an instant... and I don’t know why he broke up with me suddenly! I really really don’t understand. I just want to know.
Why!"
When Yuan Wan heard that I agreed to her request, she grabbed my wrist, like grabbing a bundle of straw in the torrent. I was her last hope.
"me..."
I said the word "I" twice in succession, but my brain was so confused that I still couldn't decide what to say.
But Yuan Wan didn't seem to be ready to give up my last glimmer of hope. She shook my wrist directly, interrupted me before I finished speaking, and continued to ask: "Since you are good brothers, then
He will definitely tell you certain things, right? What exactly is he dissatisfied with me about? As long as you tell me, I will definitely change it. As long as I change it, maybe we can still hope to get back together!"
Yuan Wan begged me in such a low voice that I couldn't help but raise my head and take a deep breath.
For a moment, I didn't know how to evaluate Yuan Wan who put down her ego in front of me.
At this moment, I slowly turned around and said to Yuan Wan hesitantly, "Let me think about it." On the other hand, I tried hard to suppress my sad emotions.
I slowly took a few steps forward, and after using my peripheral vision to confirm that Yuan Wan was not following me, I opened my mouth with a wry smile. A feeling of sadness also came to my heart, and a puff of moisture also came to me.
Slowly appearing in the corner of the eye.
〔Ah...
Ha...hahahaha!〕
Feeling a little broken in my heart, I couldn't help but laugh crazily. Facing the corner, I smiled silently and bitterly. At this moment, I felt like a clown.
[It turns out...hehehe, it turns out that I am just a useless tool...
It turns out that this is the way my former goddess acted like a licker to others, the way she wanted love but couldn't get it.
Yang Chen, have you seen it?
She is like a dog, praying in a low voice, but like you, she is always being played with and applauded.
I think that by abandoning my own dignity and bottom line, I can gain mercy from others and get what I want.
The result is just the opposite.
After the bottom line and dignity are abandoned, it becomes even more impossible to get what you want.
Everyone hates dog licking, but everyone is a dog licker.
This sentence is really unexpectedly harsh.]
Even though I had been mentally prepared for such words, when I heard these words, I felt a little unbearable.
After all, that was the woman he had been chasing for eight years, and that was everything he had and where his happiness lay. But in the eyes of others, she acted worthless and groveling, just for the sake of that illusory and unattainable love.
Ironic, ridiculous.
These four words seem to be imprinted in my mind and cannot be removed.
"Sorry, have you thought about it yet?"
Yuan Wan looked at me who turned around slowly and refused to answer her. She couldn't help but poked her head gently, reached out and patted my shoulder, and asked in a panic.
My answer at this moment was the straw that broke the camel's back.
If I say yes, maybe Yuan Wan will cheer up.
But what followed was pile after pile of trouble.
If I say no, maybe Yuan Wan will fall into sadness and shed tears.