I sighed with some emotion and continued: "Teacher, I, it is precisely because I have experienced too many such things that I can understand that if I express myself excessively, not only will I not find the real thing, but I will also
They will also be ostracized. This is how people are. If someone stronger than them appears, their first thought will not be to admit that others are excellent, but to find ways to highlight themselves by belittling others. This is human beings
.”
The physical education teacher pondered for a moment after listening to my words, then raised his head and asked with some confusion: "Do you want to tell me... If you make friends with your classmates at this time, it will only be because of what happened just now."
And the counter-productive view will actually make it more difficult for you to seek the real thing you want, right?"
"Yes, teacher." I nodded slightly, raised two fingers and continued to narrate: "After this incident, their first impression of me has been formed, which can be roughly divided into two types. The first
The first kind, worship me, this is a minority of people. The second kind, look at me like an idiot, because they think I am a person who deliberately wants to pretend to be x. Once these two impressions are formed, they will definitely appear when they come into contact with me.
A sense of distance. Once such an antagonistic relationship is formed, it is difficult to change...the content of our conversations will also be limited because of the relationship."
The physical education teacher looked at me with some admiration and said with a face of joy: "You kid, you are so insightful...and what next? Please continue talking about your thoughts, I am very interested."
"Because of this, my seemingly perfect performance opportunity just now may become a black mark for me to be ordered to drop out of school in the future. That is, beating the teacher." After saying that, I turned my head and looked at it gently.
The physical education teacher's eyes were calm as he narrated.
"But teacher, didn't I find a chance for you to step down?" the physical education teacher pushed up his glasses in confusion and asked curiously.
"I know. But even so, I can still be portrayed as a pretentious criminal and a violent maniac. After all, there is no cost or price to have a name. After their impression is formed, they will also subtly affect other people's views of me.
Perception. Eventually, I will most likely be isolated."
At this time, I slowly narrated it very calmly, as if the incident I was telling had nothing to do with me, and there was no reaction at all.
When I said this, I showed such a dull reaction, which really made the physical education teacher feel a little emotional.
"But, isn't what you said a bit extreme?" the physical education teacher took a deep breath and asked slowly.
I turned my head, rubbed my nose gently, and said very calmly: "Teacher, when you were in school, your so-called small circle probably made a lot of comments about others... But you can also find that these comments can never be
Be objective. And your small circle will also have different attitudes towards a person because of these unobjective comments. Right?"
The physical education teacher gently took out the cigarette from his arms and held it in his mouth. However, he did not light it, but just held the cigarette in his mouth and said slowly to me: "I see... Actually, what do you think?
Yes, but I don’t think my opinion is wrong. After all, you have to know that no one approaches you without any reason, because humans will not do anything that is truly against their will as long as the reasons cannot convince their hearts.
What do you think?"
I smiled and did not respond to the teacher's question.
When the teacher saw that I was not talking, he sighed lightly and continued: "Of course the comments of the small circle will have an impact on the people around you, but in fact, such comments give them a reason to get to know you and get closer to you.
, isn’t it? After all, only when you have an idea, can you use this idea as a reason to convince your heart to do something. What do you think? Only by getting closer to each other in this way can you find the real thing you are pursuing.
"
This time it was my turn to be left speechless, and I stayed silent for a long time.
"Teacher, do you know mimosa?"
After being silent for a long time, I raised my head and asked calmly.
"of course I know."
"Then you should also know that mimosa plants will automatically curl up after being touched." I suddenly raised my head and continued to press.
"Um."
I turned around, looked at the people running on the playground, and continued: "Teacher, the reason why Mimosa is shy is because it is afraid of being hurt. Where it lived before, it was hit by heavy rains and gnawed by insects.
Food will be the reason for its death. But in order to survive, it slowly evolved and became like this. It did this not only to adapt to the environment, but also to protect itself."
"I know this too. What do you want to say?"
My expression suddenly became ferocious, and my eye circles turned red. I gritted my teeth and growled helplessly: "If a person has the same personality as Mimosa, can you understand? Can you imagine the hurt he has experienced?
? He continues to do this in order to protect himself and protect himself from being hurt. No matter how the environment changes, even if the sun is scorching and the mosquitoes disappear, he only hopes that... he can protect his heart and no longer be hurt by anything.
Hurt. Is he at fault? Can you say that his approach to refusing excessive contact is wrong?"
He was silent again after what I said. Seeing the scene in front of him, he didn't know how to respond to me at all.
"sorry."
The physical education teacher lowered his head slightly, not daring to look directly into my eyes.
The two were silent with each other for a long time.
Suddenly, I turned my head and asked the PE teacher very seriously: "Why are you just holding a cigarette in your mouth like this and not lighting it with a lighter?"
When the physical education teacher heard this question, he gently took the cigarette from his mouth and answered me with a smile: "Because there is no reason in my heart that can persuade me to light up the cigarette. The reason why I took out the cigarette is just because I am addicted to smoking.
So I habitually hold one in my mouth. However, because there are people next to me, I can't be in public places, let alone let others breathe my second-hand smoke. This is the reason why I don't light it. Because my other reason is stronger,
My first reason couldn't convince my heart, so I made such a move. Do you understand?"
I lightly shrugged, looked at the physical education teacher with a wry smile, and said helplessly: "Now you want to take the opportunity to lecture me again. You are not the protagonist, and neither am I. There is no result for us to talk to each other. After all, according to the
What you said, none of our reasons can convince each other."
After hearing this, the physical education teacher laughed loudly, reached out and patted my shoulder, and said with a smile: "This
Not necessarily, the reason why you approached me and asked me questions just now is because you have thoughts about me? My performance just now made you confused, and at the same time, it also gave you a reason to approach me. This, maybe
It must be your class teacher’s good intentions in making this decision.”
I sighed lightly with a smile on my face. At this time, I decided to change the topic and no longer wanted to discuss such tiring things.
I turned my head and suddenly hit the smiling physical education teacher in front of me with a white eye, and said with a look of disdain: "Hey, your expression and tone are not trying to trick our old class, are you?"
"Ahem...ah? Me?" The physical education teacher was obviously frightened by my sudden question, and his cheeks turned a little red. But after he realized the question, he quickly shook his head and said resolutely.
I said: "How is it possible? Only ghosts like a tigress like her."
I squinted my eyes and sneered, suddenly picked up my phone and shook it in front of the physical education teacher. I said with a bad smile: "Ah, I didn't expect you to say bad things about our class teacher. It seems it's time for me to send this recording to
Our class teacher. Hahaha."
The physical education teacher immediately stood up straight, waved his hand to me in a hurry, and said with a begging look on his face: "Hey, hey, hey... your script is not right. Brother Yang, Brother Yang, if you have something to say, say it well, if you have something to say,
Tell me carefully, please don't do this."
I smiled evilly and shook my phone, showing the look of someone who had succeeded in his scheming, and said with a grin: "Okay...then you have to keep it a secret for me, keep everything we talked about today a secret, and don't tell anyone, and I,
Just keep your inappropriate remarks secret for you, do you think this kind of deal is okay?"
When the physical education teacher heard that I was relieved, he quickly said with some disdain: "Okay, okay... you are such a thief, you actually took the opportunity to threaten me."
"Huh?" I frowned pretending to be displeased, narrowed my eyes and snorted coldly.
The teacher swallowed nervously, then quickly stood up straight and said helplessly: "Brother Yang, Brother Yang, I was just joking... From now on, whatever you say will be whatever you say. I will listen to you.
, that’s all right.”
I pointed at the physical education teacher with my finger and said with a bad smile: "I didn't expect you to really like our class teacher. What a good boy. You are really full of bad ideas."
"...I've already given up. You should give me a step down..." The physical education teacher shrugged helplessly, smiling bitterly as he begged me for mercy.
"Okay, okay. Teacher, don't forget to keep it a secret for me." After I finished speaking, I waved my hand gently and walked towards the edge of the playground without looking back.
"Why……"
The physical education teacher seemed to want to say something to me, but now it doesn't matter what these words are to me.
After all, no matter what he said, it was nothing more than a few words. He wanted to persuade me. Although I also intend to talk to him now, I still have more important things to do now.
Before I could take a few steps, the bell rang, and my nervousness burst out.
[Trouble, trouble... it’s really a headache!! I don’t want to fall in the last mission... playing a hundred times is no joke...]
Thinking of this, I felt a chill in my lower body, and a chill came up.