Ever since Zhuge Qing became sensible, the young Qing'er has been inseparable from him.
Perhaps because of this reason, I missed the period when I realized that Qing'er was a girl.
No matter what Zhuge Qing does, Qing'er will follow him.
They climbed trees together and played in the rain. They were covered in mud while playing, but they were extremely happy.
Zhuge Qing has no playmates close to his age. He is surrounded by young officials who live in his house. It is an adult world, so he is very afraid of life. Qing'er takes him out to play every time.
He still remembers... Qing'er, wearing big shoes that her sister couldn't fit into, ran to the house and shouted: "Zhuge Qing, I'm here to play with you." He still remembers Qing'er's voice at that time.
As he grows older, even if a girl who is three years younger than him says she wants to play with him, he cannot obediently go out with her.
Even though Qing'er doesn't look like a girl at all, she has already realized that she is a girl.
The most important thing is that Zhuge Qing is the son of a nobleman and must study hard for his future.
At that age, I felt that the age difference of three years was huge.
"Qing'er, I can't play with you anymore. Starting today, a teacher will come to my home to teach me."
How old was Qing'er at that time?...She must have been only five or six years old.
In fact, he started reading before.
After he was four or five years old, he had already started learning piano, chess, calligraphy and painting. There was no need to use the excuse of studying to reject Qing'er. He just started to feel shy about playing with girls younger than him.
Qing'er no longer said in front of him that she wanted to play with him, but she still often went to Zhuge Qing's house and watched him reading through the window.
"I really...can't stand her..."
Zhuge Qing stared at the garden blankly, smiling bitterly and talking to himself.
Under Qing'er's gaze, he could not relax at all and could only study hard. Even the teacher was full of praise for him.
However, Qing'er, who was only five or six years old, could actually take the trouble to watch others reading... But as time went by, Qing'er finally stopped coming to the door.
Later, I heard that Qing'er finally started to play with the girls nearby after Zhuge Qing stopped playing with her, but she still didn't change her aggressive personality. Qing'er's mother often sighed and said that she really wished she could be quieter and better-behaved.
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Remember...it was also a sunny day like today.
Qing'er's eldest sister is getting married, and it's rare for Qing'er to come to the house, dressed up like a girl.
His mother repeatedly praised Qing'er for being so beautiful, but Zhuge Qing was unwilling to say the same thing to his mother and couldn't help teasing her. Qing'er kicked her hard... At that time, he felt that no matter how beautifully he dressed,
Qing'er is still Qing'er.
I don’t know if Qing’er was stimulated. Later, when her second sister got married or during the New Year, Qing’er would come to her door every time dressed beautifully, but Zhuge Qing never praised her. Instead, she often said some unpleasant things.
, and ended up with a few more bruises on my legs.
...By the way, when was that time?
Zhuge Qing put his elbows on the armrests of the chair and closed his eyes in deep thought.
At that time, Li Yuezhen was staying at home, so it was almost the time when the examination was about to be held... It should be the year when she was fifteen and Qing'er was twelve.
Qing'er seemed to be going to attend a happy event at a relative's house, so she came to Zhuge Qing's house dressed beautifully.
At that time, Qing'er probably no longer expected Zhuge Qing to praise her, so after saying hello to Zhuge Qing's parents, Li Yuezhen and others, she turned around and prepared to go home.
Therefore, it was completely by chance that they met in the corridor.
After that bully grew up, he really became a lot quieter... Qing'er calmly nodded to Zhuge Qing and said hello, leaving this impression on Zhuge Qing.
"Why are you wearing such inappropriate clothes again?"
Although Zhuge Qing also felt that he had a venomous tongue, when he faced Qing'er, he could not express any words of praise.
I thought Qing'er would kick him again, but I didn't expect that although Qing'er was angry, she didn't touch him.
"Both the master and Li Yuezhen said that I am beautiful. Even if they are just polite words, they sound comfortable, unlike you who only say such hurtful words."
That guy... Zhuge Qing didn't know whether he was scolding his father or Li Yuezhen in his heart.
Qing'er raised her chin and touched the hairpin in her hair.
The yellow hairpin that imitates wax plum blossoms on Qing'er's head is indeed very beautiful.
"My uncle gave this to me and said it would look beautiful on me."
Upon hearing this, Zhuge Qing suddenly became furious.
He walked to Qing'er without saying a word, suddenly pulled out the hairpin and threw it into the garden.
Qing'er looked stunned.
"what are you doing!"
Of course Qing'er would be angry, but Zhuge Qing had no regrets at that time.
When he saw the hairpin in Qing'er's head, he felt furious.
"You don't look good at all wearing this hairpin."
Zhuge Qing still remembers his coldness when he said this.
I thought Qing'er would kick him this time, but I didn't expect Qing'er to look up at him blankly... Then, she leaned out from the railing and looked for the hairpin.
There was a pool in the garden, and the hairpin just fell on the stone beside the pool.
Qing'er stared at the hairpin for a moment, then pursed her lips, took off her shoes, and climbed up the railing.
Before Zhuge Qing had time to stop her, she had already crawled to the garden, picked up her clothes, and walked on the moss-covered stones.
If you accidentally slip, you will definitely fall into the pool.
Don't do anything stupid... I was wrong, please come back quickly... Zhuge Qing shouted in his heart.
However, he couldn't say a word.
Qing'er stepped on the stone carefully, but Zhuge Qing's eyes were attracted by her white legs.
Against the background of the dark green pool water and blue-black stones, this white skin has a sacred flavor.
Zhuge Qing stood motionless and was stunned. Qing'er finally walked to the hairpin, picked it up with slightly trembling hands, inserted it into her hair again, turned around slowly, stepped on the stone and walked along the original hairpin.
Walk back and walk under the railing.
When she climbed up neatly and grabbed the railing and stood on the corridor, her white legs were covered by her clothes.
Zhuge Qing felt that he was absolutely stunned at that time.
Qing'er put on her shoes, glanced at Zhuge Qing silently... and turned around to leave.
At this time, Zhuge Qing finally felt regretful and realized that he had hurt Qing'er.
...She almost cried just now...
Although Qing'er did not shed tears, her tightly closed lips were not because of accusation, but her eyes were full of sadness, which was enough to push Zhuge Qing into the abyss.
After that, Zhuge Qing had countless nightmares about this incident.
After that time, Qing'er never came to Zhuge's house wearing beautiful clothes or even visited her home. Zhuge Qing never had the chance to apologize to her.
"No...I don't need to go out of my way to apologize..."
Every time he recalled this incident, Zhuge Qing felt ashamed and couldn't help but sigh.
The sun hid at some point and the light in the room became dim. Could it be that it was covered by clouds?
Maybe it was because of his inner guilt that he didn't dare to come and apologize... Qing'er's hurt expression appeared in his dreams from time to time, and the unexpected sight of her white legs also made his heart beat up and he couldn't sleep, but he couldn't tell anyone
people.
At that time, he told himself every night not to think wildly, Qing'er was just a twelve-year-old girl.
Every time I look back on those years, I feel that I was too cowardly.
...At that time, I was too immature...
Now, he finally knew that when he threw away Qing'er's hairpin, it was actually out of jealousy.
At that time, he had not yet participated in the state examination and the national examination. Although he was the son of a nobleman, he had to rely on his parents for food and clothing, so he felt jealous...jealous that others could use the money they earned to buy hairpins for women.
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Even if Qing'er's hairpin had no special meaning and was just a gift from a relative, it was enough to arouse Zhuge Qing's jealousy.
Because Qing'er was wearing jewelry on her head that he couldn't afford to give away even if he wanted to, this incident made him very angry.
Looking back on that year, although he hurt Qing'er and was very depressed about it, he still passed the state examination and the joint examination in one go.
With his status as a noble, as long as he passed the state examination, he could become an official sooner or later. However, Zhuge Qing did not want to wait any longer.
He wants to become an official as soon as possible, earn his own living as soon as possible, and buy gifts for his sweetheart... Although it is impossible to say this, the emperor who dotes on the queen may understand this feeling.
Zhuge Qing looked at the bookshelf in the corner of the room. Among the countless books, there was a black box.
The day to open this box is not far away.
Is it really not that far away?
He looked towards the garden. The banana leaves were dyed a faint red... The sun would set soon.