"Let her remain as she is, there is no need to close her consciousness..."
"Child, why are you doing this?"
"I just think it's pitiful that you've been dead for so long, and you don't understand the current world, so I want you to take a look and breathe some air..."
"So that's the case, then I have to thank you, even though I don't have anything substantial to thank you for."
"It's not necessary, it's enough that you have been protecting me."
"Then Raeder, I will keep your mother active. She will share all perceptions with you and can talk to you directly at any time."
"She doesn't know what I'm thinking, does she?"
"You can isolate your internal speech so it's not seen as a conversation with her."
"Oh... that's okay. Don't talk all the time from now on, just watch the world quietly."
"I know kid, I will try my best to keep quiet."
"Try your best?"
"Ah, I am actually a person who talks a lot. I haven't talked to anyone for so long, and sometimes I can't help myself."
"Then please be careful and don't keep talking."
"Okay kid."
"You have a good rest, we have other things to do tomorrow."
Sai said as he walked towards the window.
"where you go?"
"Do some research, and then you may have to leave the city."
"Ah? Then..."
"Don't worry, I will let you see her, you don't need to wait any longer."
"oh……"
Sai deftly jumped out of the window and disappeared into the night. Raeder stared out the window in a daze, without moving for a long time.
"What are you thinking about, kid? Do you often stay in a daze like this?"
"I used to do it when I was at home, but after I came out, it became less and less. It was unsafe... Why did you start talking so quickly?"
"Oh, I thought there was something wrong with your physical condition. You didn't move for such a long time. When I was still alive, I couldn't sit still for more than five minutes."
"Then how do you do research?"
"Research requires hands-on work, and it is not completely static."
"oh……"
"..."
"I...take a shower, please don't peek."
"Well, what can I say? Your body was manufactured and has been looked at by countless inspectors before it left the factory. Why do you still feel shy because of being looked at? What's more, the person looking at it is your mother.
.”
"This... is not the same thing! When it leaves the factory, this body is just a product. After being installed into my consciousness, it becomes my body. As a lady, how can I let others see my body casually! You... I haven't admitted it yet
You are my mother, so you can’t watch either!”
"Oh, it turns out that's the case. Then it will cause some trouble for the children."
"What's the trouble?"
"Miss Sai did not give me the function of cutting off my perception. I can only passively accept your perception signals."
"How could it be? Then I'll do it myself...it's strange, why can't it be blocked?"
"It's a miracle that I was awakened. I don't know how Miss Sai completed the long-lost data. The reason for my current state of existence is unknown. Naturally, you can't make any modifications to me."
"I regret it a little bit. What's the difference between this and being implanted with a monitoring program? Aren't you watching every move I make?"
"That's different, kid. I won't tell others about you, and I can't tell others. You can treat me as a friend who shares secrets, and you can share your joys, sorrows, and sorrows with me, instead of being as helpless as before.
People can talk.”
"But now I don't have the autonomy to choose, and I'm not familiar with you either..."
"It is precisely because we are not familiar with each other that we have to have more contact, right? You have not had a mother since you were a child, and naturally you have not formed an emotional connection with your mother. To you, I am a completely unfamiliar character who you do not know how to get along with."
.”
"As long as you know……"
"Sorry, Raeder."
"Ah? Why are you apologizing suddenly?"
"Because I am not a competent mother. I gave up my responsibilities as a mother in order to follow my own principles, causing you to miss important life experiences from birth to now. This is the fault I have committed against you. I am sorry for you."
It’s unforgivable for you.”
"No, no...I am not sad because I don't have a mother. I have never been. The relationship between everyone in the family is very weak, and modern society does not value relationships as much as the previous era. I just felt that when I looked up relevant information,
I'm curious, but it's just curiosity... You don't need to apologize to me. I was born without you and have lived for so long. The role of mother has never been in my life from the beginning."
"oh……"
"What’s wrong with you?"
"It's just a little sad."
"Why be sad?"
"Because my child doesn't need me, this is undoubtedly the saddest thing for a mother."
"I... don't quite understand... I don't exist in your life at all, and my life has nothing to do with you. Why are you sad for someone who doesn't exist?"
"No, my child. Although you were not born at that time, you were already born in my heart. I don't know if your father has ever told you about the topics he and I chatted about after the modification of your fertilized eggs was completed.
The most common thing is about you."
"No, father has never told me about you. I don't know you exist..."
"Oh, then I really asked a stupid question."
"I wasn't even born, what do you have to talk about?"
"Of course there is, and there are many, many topics we can talk about."
"for example?"
"For example, will my daughter be as beautiful as me or even better than me? Will she be smarter than your father and I? How can we educate you so that you can grow into a capable and responsible person?
Like us. We want to make the world a better place, because a beautiful world is worthy of my super invincible, smart and lovely daughter. I have bought clothes for you from 0 to 18 years old, at least when you
Before I become an adult, I want to dress you up according to my own preferences..."
"Why don't you speak?"
"Oh, I just think it's a little funny. All these fantasies are just fantasies in the end. I haven't even seen my own daughter."
"Then why didn't you compromise at that time and instead committed suicide?"
"Because I am a person with conscience, I cannot trample on the dignity of other people as human beings for my own selfish desires, nor can I accept that I continue to associate with people who have given up their bottom line. To be honest, when I died, I actually felt
I hate your father very much. I think he is too selfish and broke the promise he made with me. He did not insist on making the world a better place."
"I... used to think he had made the world a good place."
"No, my child. The world should not be like this. Hey, in fact, I am also a selfish person. I abandoned my child without hesitation. This is definitely not the behavior a mother should have."
"I can actually understand your behavior. You also said that some things are very important and worth sacrificing everything for..."
"You can understand that this makes me happy and sad at the same time."
"Why are you still sad?"
"Because you lack some of the emotions that normal people should have, you don't even know how to hate."