It’s just ridiculous~ Anyway, people will watch the feature film, so I’ll just do it in theaters~
"Hey...are you going to give up on yourself so much?"
No~I am not giving up on myself, I am being abandoned by the world~
"...I'm getting more and more depressed!"
No~ Anyway, no matter how I write the classification, it always looks like "beep~", so I just write it casually~
"Have you ever written seriously?"
What do you think? Although this book is just a collection of settings without a main line about cross talk, I have really tried my best, but... SO, waste is waste.
"Are you depressed again?"
No, this is not depression, this is the normal psychology of having no money and no girlfriend, especially among those who have learned helplessness.
"What happened to you……"
It’s an old problem that comes back several times a month. You see, I worked hard for a month and got the same salary as the subsistence allowance, but it disappeared immediately without covering up the heat. It’s the same with writing articles, and I can no longer be on the list or win awards.
"...Seriously, you should open a new book, a book that you are good at, with a main plot and a script."
Yes~ I have been thinking about it recently, a hardcore wasteland novel.
"Huh? Really? Can you write hardcore wasteland novels?"
It’s true~Cute hard-core wasteland writing.
"What the hell! Is there such a thing!"
It didn't exist before, but it has since I wrote it. You see, this book is a narrative life story. It didn't exist before, but now it exists~
"Ah? How come I didn't know our book was this kind of thing!"
Because this is the classification I just came up with~
"God damn...forget it, why don't you write it? Write it~"
There is no call for essays~ It would be a big loss to just send it out, okay?
"But you can no longer make money from this book!"
It sounds like new books can make money, but the income from that book is less than a fraction of this book~
"That's because...that's because you forced yourself to write something you're not good at in that book, right? You can't write the male protagonist's literary and emotional daily life at all, okay?"
It's not important. In short, it just doesn't make money. It doesn't make money. You see, this book has been updated for so many days. Why do you have to get full attendance before you say it's not right? I can't do it if you ask me to open two books at the same time. I write books.
So slow, holding back 2,000 words every day until 3:30, asking me to write two books? Impossible, then just don’t go to work the next day. You see, I am late every day, although I think being late does not affect my work at all, in fact
It doesn't matter, but the boss is not happy. Although I may be late, I will never be absent. Those who ask for leave at every turn have nothing to do. It's just because I'm late and it's not pleasing to me. What can I do?
"Oh~ So that's the reason~ Let me just say... Well, being late is not right in the first place, okay?"
But my job is a meaningless waste of time. Is there any difference between wasting it in bed and wasting it in the office?
"There is... it feels good to waste the leader in the office..."
But I'm not feeling well~ To be honest, if I hadn't considered that the current work tasks have not been completed and no one will take over if I leave, I would have resigned a long time ago! It's a lot more full-time hours and a part-time salary! I'll stay
It's all out of responsibility in my position, okay! With this time, why don't I open two books at once? Why don't I study wholeheartedly to improve my abilities? I left my drawing board there and never touched it.
Time! These life-wasting jobs all think that what I like to do is the same! I told you a long time ago that I will lose my job!
"Stop, stop, stop! Don't vent here! Don't talk about people like this who are a social idiot! You are an author after all!"
Forget it, Aini, what an author, I’m just a writer... maybe I’m not even a writer.
"..."
Don't look like this, Aini, you know I just vent every day. After venting, it's time to go to work and write articles.
"...Is this useful?"
It’s useless~ Complaining is of course useless, so I...
"No, I mean, is it useful for you to comfort yourself like this? Is your venting really venting? I can't feel any relaxation on your part. All I see is increasing pressure."
Press it~it will explode on the spot if it is overloaded.
"...What about us? Do you ignore us?"
You don't need me~ Amy is a completely independent individual. She will continue to live her own life without me. What's the use of me?
"Are you here for 'use'? Do you think this is what you mean to us?"
Isn’t my purpose just to record your life for others to see? However, no one likes to see it~ So my role is gone, right? Oh, in fact, it should be because my writing is not good, right? Yours
Life is so wonderful, how could anyone not like to read it~ It must be my poor writing. Don’t you think so?
"That's enough! You bastard!"
ah?
"You idiot! You stupid idiot! Trash! Scumbag!"
That's what I am~ Did you say...hey, what's wrong with you? Aini, what's wrong with you...are you crying? Damn, you're crying!
"I'm not! I didn't!"
Damn it, why are you crying! Don’t cry! Even if you cry, you still look good, but don’t cry! Why are you crying!
"Because you are a fool!"
Don't be like this, dear! Even if I am useless and make you angry, don't cry! I'm not worth your crying! Don't cry, this doesn't fit your image, you are a carefree big sister! Don't be like this!
"Bullshit! If you say it's not worth it, it's not worth it!"
I'm just a loser, what's the point?
"It's not up to you to decide whether we are useless or not! Where would we be without you! You bastard!"
I...your world has nothing to do with me, it exists objectively!
"But Amy exists because of you! You know clearly that she is your reflection in this world, why do you still belittle yourself like this every day! Aren't you denying your own existence and denying Amy's existence?
!”
I'm not denying Amy~she has much more potential than me, I'm just denying myself...
"You are Amy, you bastard!"
But I am... No, I'm not! I can't do anything, I can't change anything, there's no comparison between me and Amy! Don't say I am her! This is insulting her!
"That's because you don't have a chance! That's because we can't reach your world! If we can break this damn dimensional wall, then you can definitely... you can definitely pursue your dreams... and work hard to make the world a better place.
It’s beautiful…it must be possible…you shouldn’t be like this…you shouldn’t be like this…”
…
…
Okay Aini, don’t cry, this look really doesn’t suit you, it’s not chic at all~
"We can't do anything... What's the difference between us and you..."
The difference is huge~ You can change your own world, and that’s enough~
"What about your world..."
That's it~ The world around us is destined to get worse and worse. This is the choice of all mankind. It cannot be changed by a few people, let alone by a free agent like me... What will happen to the world?
Just follow the protagonists of those worlds~ I just need to go with the flow...
"Don't you feel unwilling to do so?"
But nothing can be changed by just relying on your mind, right?
"..."
So don't cry~ I've already said that I'm just pessimistic on a daily basis. I'll have to do whatever I have to do tomorrow~ Just don't worry, Aini, I won't abandon you, I can guarantee this.
"If leaving us can make you happy, I would rather you leave us..."
Don't be silly, this image really doesn't suit you~ Wipe your tears quickly and turn back to the carefree lady Aini~
"Just wait, we will definitely find a way to break the dimensional wall. Even if you die after too long, just wait for me, do you hear me!"
Yes, yes, please obey my sister, I will definitely wait for you.
"Hmph~!"
Oops, I already told you that your image is wrong, why have you changed into the image of a young lady again?
"It's none of your business? Come and beat me if you don't accept it?"