In the middle of the night, I received a call from the Underground Research Institute. It was said that there was something important coming to me. Although I was a little unhappy, I still agreed to go there. Considering everyone's safety, I woke up Cherry and asked her to go there.
She is responsible for keeping vigil and notifying me in time if anything happens. That girl is indeed the so-called elite. She was not confused at all when someone suddenly woke her up in the middle of the night. If it were me, she would definitely yell and beat anyone in sight.
When I came to the research institute, I was greeted by a masked man. He was also a master who didn’t need to sleep, and he was still very energetic even in the middle of the night. Since I became a goddess and stopped staying up late, I always sleep well at night, unless there are special circumstances.
, otherwise I would never be a night owl.
It's really ironic to say that I didn't pay attention to my health when I was a mortal, but after becoming a goddess, my work and rest became regular. This is as absurd as a poor man who spends money recklessly and a rich man who is frugal. But it is not unreasonable.
, but there is a deep-seated reason. Everyone knows that staying up late is wrong, but there are still a large number of people doing activities late at night. Some people do it because they are forced by life, and some people are forced by life in another way.
.They are not forced by work tasks or anything like that, but they are strangled by something invisible and intangible, unable to struggle.
When I was in college, the teacher once asked us a question, that is, when would patients with depression choose to commit suicide? Some said it was at night, some said early in the morning, and some guessed it was broad daylight, but in fact, the answer to this question
It's dawn, when the sun is about to rise. A new day is a new beginning for most people, but for these patients, it is the beginning of a new torture. Because they are unable to bear this pressure, their suicidal motives will
It reaches its peak at this time, and you will actually implement it. If your friend with depression calls in the middle of the night, please treat it as something serious. Maybe this is their last effort to ask for help. Never comfort them.
Then ask the other person to talk to you tomorrow. Maybe you won’t be able to see the other person tomorrow.
I am not depressed, nor do I have any other mental illness, I just have a bit of neurasthenia. Insomnia has been bothering me for a long time. I can only sleep peacefully after staying up late and making myself very tired. Otherwise, I might
I stayed in a half-asleep state until dawn. Instead of ruining the whole day like that, it would be better to stay up late and ruin the morning. So I stayed up late every day, which disrupted my biological clock and made my health worse.
I am not depressed, nor do I have any other mental illness, but I am also afraid of tomorrow. Not only that, I don’t have the courage to end today. I used to be a real loser, and I have no time left.
Value, every day of my life is dull. But I know that this is wrong, it will destroy myself, and I must do something. But when it’s time to go to bed every night, I find that my day is wasted again.
... So I was afraid, afraid of the lost yesterday, afraid that the upcoming tomorrow would be wasted, I was so afraid that I couldn't sleep, I was so afraid that I had to find something to numb my nerves and make myself exhausted. In this way.
It's very uncomfortable to do, and it does no good at all, but I still repeat this behavior every day. The so-called weak-willed people are those who would rather endure the pain than the hard work of exercise. They are destined to achieve nothing.
That’s why I force myself to do something useful, even if it only seems useful. I learn some useless knowledge, take some useless certificates, and acquire some useless ideas. I know that these things can’t help me at all.
I find a suitable job, but I still do it. On the one hand, it is to numb my thinking and create a feeling that I am very busy, so that I will not feel ashamed of myself while living around. On the other hand, it is to force myself to
Adapt to the things you don't like so that you don't drown in fantasy. Living, only when people are alive can they pursue any dreams. People who can't even live are not qualified to pursue anything. No matter how dissatisfied you are with the world
, no matter how far-reaching and profound your thoughts are, you must first let yourself live and let your body as a carrier exist in the world. Don't expect the world to pity you. Most of the world is chaotic and disorderly.
The will of the world is full of malice towards everything... No, the will of the world without a clear self has no concept of good and evil. The world just uses the most appropriate method to maintain its own chaos and disorder, and people like you and me are obviously not worth mentioning.
Mention. Maybe some will perish in madness, but more will perish in silence. This has nothing to do with anything, just because you have no ability to maintain your own existence, so you disappear.
Sister Aini once told me that the law of entropy is not completely correct, but this does not mean that the phenomena currently observed by humans are wrong. The independent world is indeed acquiring new original information from the fragmentation, but the original information is
The number is too small, completely insufficient to support the operation of a world. This is why many worlds will usher in the end, and this is why those god-level civilizations have to risk their lives to jump out of their own worlds and explore the scattered... Well, in a sense
It is said that Zero Beauty is the mother of all things in the world... But this is not important. What is important is that the existence of life lies in confrontation with the world and confrontation with chaos and disorder. Do you think that the bad things you did are just illegal and immoral? No,
You are being an accomplice of chaos and accelerating the destruction of this world. Do you think that staying at home for a day is just a waste of youth? No, you are advancing your own disordering process, you are increasing entropy, and you are promoting yourself to approach death.
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Human beings have two instincts, the life instinct and the death instinct. The instinct of life is the instinct of struggle. It is the instinct that is engraved in the concept of life after going through all kinds of hardships. It is the most basic and important thing that allows one to continue.
Guarantee. This instinct is indispensable for any kind of life, even if it is a self-replicating crystal on a remote planet. If this instinct is translated into simple language, it is "try to survive".
Every living being is fighting against the world.
However, we still have the instinct to die, which is given to life by the chaotic and disorderly world in order to maintain chaos and disorder. It is a curse on life. While the world imposes a curse, it also gives it a fatal temptation to deceive life.
To take the initiative to die. The behavior and difficulty of maintaining the continuation of life is like fighting the gods with a mortal body. Because of the difficulties, we will want to seek shortcuts and make our lives easier, but
Little do we know that we have fallen into the trap at this time. So we cheat, we plunder, we fight, we kill each other, and we are hostile to each other. It is too tiring to feed everyone by farming, why not kill half of them; researching new energy is too difficult, why not
Go grab oil elsewhere; flying into the universe is too difficult, so why not invade neighboring countries... We think we have found a shortcut to survival, and even make up the theory of the jungle to deceive ourselves, thinking that we have mastered the laws of the world.
Yes, we do have control over the laws of the world, but those are the laws that will cause the world to perish, and are a complete set of methods for jumping into traps.
But why does the world do this, why does the world destroy itself? Doesn’t the world want to exist for a long time? Doesn’t the world have its own will? Isn’t the world a huge life? Will it impose a curse on itself? No, of course
No, if the world had a clear self-awareness, it would certainly not let itself die, but it is a pity that it does not. We know that the vast majority of the will of the world is muddled, neither clear nor "self" in the true sense.
Concept. It will spontaneously advance some events, but it is completely unaware of its own behavior. And because becoming chaotic and disorderly is the easiest and least labor-intensive direction, it will act according to this principle, thus affecting the world.
Everything within it naturally includes life. This is like a sleepwalking person walking into the abyss with his cats and dogs, but the cats and dogs naively thought that the owner was taking them out to play in the middle of the night. When they were being
The moment their master dragged them off the cliff, they were horrified to realize that they were going to die. They didn't even realize what had happened when they died.
So~ it’s really not your fault that you are lazy and decadent. It’s because the world is not good and it’s the world that’s holding you back. It’s too difficult to work hard, and it’s most comfortable to just eat and drink. You’re just a weak creature.
, you don’t have the ability to fight against the world, you can only drift along and get by, collaborating with other people who are the same as you or worse in this chaotic and disorderly world, making the world even more chaotic, and finally ushering in the end of everything.
end.
"This is why we have to explore new worlds crazily, because as long as a world is discovered by us, it can avoid the fate of self-destruction. Life is precious and is the only existence in the world that can resist this curse. Ai
Mi, do you know why we want to spread love and peace? Because we like a vibrant world, I, Ling Mei, like a vibrant world. We have self-awareness, so we don’t want to disappear, and we don’t want these worlds to disappear. Chaos
It is the beginning and the end, so we must strive to maintain the best balance between disorder and order. This is the mission we give ourselves and the mission of all goddesses. So Amy, do you choose to accept this curse and do nothing, or do you choose to accept this curse and do nothing?
Join us to fight, to change, to awaken those who are in danger but don’t know it, and to work hard to make the world a better place?”
Lingmei once asked me this, and my answer was:
"I accomplished nothing in the past, but I was unwilling to give in. I don't want to self-destruct. Now I promise you that I will fight with you and keep fighting to fight against the chaotic world and create our own beauty."