"The performance that day was very successful. The boss of a large chain bar took a fancy to us and wanted to sign a touring contract with us. Everyone was very happy, and we felt that our hard work had finally paid off. So everyone called us
Their friends gathered together to have a lively drink and chat."
"Then you got drunk."
"No, I didn't drink too much that day. He cared about me very much, so he kept protecting me from drinking. But... no one thought that something like that would happen. Maybe this is an inevitable problem in that circle.
…”
"what is the problem."
"We can only ensure that we don't do evil things, but we can't make friends, or there are people who do evil things among our friends' friends. Because everyone knows about my relationship with him, someone made a joke with us on this matter.
', a completely criminal joke."
"Could it be that you were raped by a group of people..."
"Stop it, your thoughts are completely inconsistent with your appearance. Please don't say anything. Thank you."
"OK."
"Although it's not as bad as you think, it's really bad enough. He drank a lot that day, and a lot of it was done on my behalf. I originally thought I could take care of him, but I never expected someone to do it to us.
I took drugs. It was not a drug, but... something that stimulates people's desires... At that time, I felt that something was wrong with me, but I didn't think about it. I just thought I was too happy and drank more than usual.
The other members of the band saw that we two were not feeling well and wanted to send us back. But at that time, my mind was no longer clear. I just thought that I would not be able to go home smelling of alcohol and worry my grandma, so I proposed to stay in a hotel for one night.
You can still take care of him. You know he and I actually play a lot, so I don’t think there’s any problem, but... he was also drugged, and both of us were in a state of excitement and couldn’t control ourselves. After our friends settled down, we left.
, I could no longer suppress my desires and took the initiative to push him down. And under the dual stimulation of alcohol and drugs, he completely lost his mind..."
"It's okay, at least it's a mutual love, not something heavy."
"What kind of mutual love...Actually, I really, really didn't plan to go to this point, at least before I became an adult...I am very rebellious, and even in your opinion, very...slutty, but...
…But I’m not as bad as you think, I actually want to be a good girl…”
"Bai Yanghua, do you know why our parents always like to make decisions for us?"
"Isn't it so that we can pursue their dreams for them?"
"You only see the negative side, but not the positive side. It's like you only see the light emitted by your dream, but ignore the shadow cast by the light."
"What's the meaning?"
"Parents make decisions for us. On the one hand, they really want to control our lives, but on the other hand, they also prevent us from ruining our own lives. Human beings are social animals, but the school of knowledge about society
It will not be handed over to you. You can only practice learning in social life to gain so-called social experience. Minors... no, what students who spend most of their time in school lack most is social experience. We are called
Protected by schools and parents, they are basically unaware of the darkness and dangers lurking in society. Every adolescent child thinks that he has grown up and that he can control his own life because he relies on his little three-legged cat skills.
You can gain a foothold in society with your secondary school thinking. But if you really break away from the guidance of novices like parents and teachers and hope to rely on your own abilities to enter society, you will soon fall into the trap of 'Where am I? What am I doing?
, Who is doing this to me? Such a situation of being at a loss. Children do not understand society, and they often can only see its bright appearance, so they need experienced parents to guide them. Lack of social experience is a student's flaw
, it cannot be overcome with courage or faith.”
"Who said that! There are obviously people who have made their own way! If I had been more careful, I wouldn't have encountered something like that!"
"Yes, there are indeed many people who have broken out in their own lives. But can you see their bodies, can you see their souls, do you know what kind of harm they suffered before they succeeded? Do you see
Live through those terrible scars that will never heal?”
"..."
"What's more, there are still only a few who succeed. Why do some people hang out when they are young, and continue to hang out when they grow up? They are the ones who try to break away from the guidance of their parents and fail. Are such people very common?
Not much."
"Not necessarily, maybe they don't have parents to take care of them..."
"I admit this. It is true that not everyone has parents who can discipline themselves. This is a tragedy for the entire society, and it is understandable to blame the blame on the world. Not all bad people are born anti-social, many of them are influenced by bad environments.
Created.”
"Well! I really want to be a good child! I have always been a good child! But I really, really can't stand my parents' rule over me. I just want to do what I want to do.
!”
"Of course it's okay to pursue your dreams, but have you chosen the right way to pursue your dreams? You hate gangsters, and you should know that in that kind of environment you will definitely deal with gangsters, but you still chose to do it."
"How can you pursue your dreams without sacrifice? There's nothing wrong with the method I chose, okay? What happened was completely unexpected! I'm not a god, how could I know everything in the future? If I hadn't chosen this path, what would I have done?
How can I make rapid progress in music? My parents don't let me study music. They just want me to be a top student and make a lot of money. What else can I do?"
"You really have no other choice."
"That's right!"
"But Baiyanghua, I want to confirm with you. Did you embark on this path to pursue your dream, or did you have this dream after embarking on this path."
"I...what difference does it make!"
"The difference is huge. You are talented in music, you are good at performing, you can play music very smoothly, you like to make music, and you get a lot of happiness from music."
"Yes! Isn't this the manifestation of dreams coming true!"
"All of this was achieved after you chose this path. Before that, you had no dreams in this area at all."
"What... does this matter? Isn't it good to live in confusion? Isn't it good to find your dream?"
"Having dreams is of course a good thing, but have you ever thought that if you didn't choose this path, you might have other dreams."
"Other dreams? Where do other dreams come from? Dreaming of becoming the so-called social elite? Don't be kidding! I have a talent for music, so why not make good use of it!"
"Of course you have talent, but is your success only based on talent? I never understood why your hands had so many calluses, and I didn't know why you had a big flat box in your luggage... Baiyanghua, you have been...
You haven't practiced the piano anymore, can you still play as well as before?"
"..."
"Why don't you stop playing? Is it because you regret your choice? Why have you never shown off your talents to me before? Is it because you don't want to think about that past event again?"
"No...it's not like that! I don't practice just because it's inconvenient now! There's nothing to show off to you! If I regret my choice, why would I bring the piano all the way to school!"