"Although my mind was unclear that night, I remember everything that happened. I played so crazy with him that I barely woke up until the next afternoon, and I even found it difficult to walk. When he realized what had happened Afterwards, he wanted to apologize to me, but I stopped him. I felt that he was not wrong. What was wrong was that I was still conscious. I shouldn't share a room with him. I should let other friends take care of him... …”
"Interesting logic, isn't the culprit of all this the person who administered the drug?"
"So what? This is something that cannot be changed. I don't even know who administered the drug to this day. In this matter, I admit that it was my choice that caused the fault. This matter is completely okay. It won’t happen…”
"But in fact, you just want to find an excuse, an excuse to break through the bottom line. You have noticed the strangeness in your body, and you have also noticed the strangeness in the other person, but you still choose to spend the night with him. You want to maintain your image of a good girl , but you want to follow the wild desires of your heart. So you seize this opportunity, an opportunity to satisfy your desires and completely shirk responsibility."
"I'm not!"
"You are."
"no!"
"Okay, if you say no, then continue telling the story."
"..."
"What's wrong, keep talking."
"..."
"Why don't you tell me anymore? Are you afraid that I will continue to see through your true intentions?"
"...Erumia, do you know what kind of people I hate the most? I hate people who are smarter than me."
"Then it's really a pity. I'm destined to be smarter than you, and much smarter."
"Then let's not be friends."
"You can try and see if you can walk out of this room with all your limbs intact."
"You! You threatened me again!"
"Yes, I'm just threatening you."
"..."
"Bai Yanghua, if you can't see your true heart clearly, then I will see it for you. You dare to abandon everything to pursue your dreams, why can't you face the facts and recognize yourself? Are you a brave girl or a A girl who pretends to be brave.”
"...Erumia, why do you care so much about me? Don't you dislike me?"
"Of course I like you. Like and love are not the same thing. You have to understand... No, if we are friends, then I will also have love for you. I mean friendship. I don't want you to stay confused. I didn’t regret it until I was at an age when I couldn’t look back.”
Yes, that's how I used to be. If Lingmei hadn't come to save me, my life would have ended like that, right?
"But aren't I living a good life now? I'm so beautiful, and I got into a university that most people can't get into. How can I be any worse off in the future?"
"Bai Yanghua, why do you want to major in psychology? When did you become interested in this subject?"
"...I just want to learn, can't I? Anyway, I can learn very well in anything I study. Isn't it the same in everything I study?"
"Didn't you want to go to a music school? Why did you end up getting admitted to this university?"
"Because I changed my mind."
"Why are you always working? Don't your parents give you living expenses?"
"Because I have a lot of expenses~ Doesn't it cost money to dress up or something? These things are very expensive~"
"Very good, do you need me to tell you the real reason?"
"unnecessary!"
"Then continue telling your story and use facts to change my speculation."
"..."
"Bai Yanghua, I am not your counselor, I am your friend, a very strong one. Resistance is meaningless to me. I just want you to talk to me voluntarily, instead of being unable to deal with you. I
I said, I really want to help you, and you also need my help. You are not living a happy life, I can tell."
"You can see it! I'm obviously very happy, okay? I'm just not happy when I'm short of money, but that's normal, okay!"
"No. You are laughing and joking all day long, but your smiles are all fake, just business smiles. You are always confident in front of others, but you act quite humble in front of me. You don't seem to be
You are not afraid of a messy living environment, but you will have great fear when you actually face gangsters; you are maverick and do not care about the eyes of everyone, and are unwilling to integrate into the group, but in fact you cannot integrate into the group at all, nor can you get along with other people.
Communicate and understand each other; you gave up your dream and returned to your duty because you yourself also doubted whether that dream was really your dream, so you chose the psychology major to study yourself; you..."
"That's enough Elumia! Do you think you know me well? You know nothing! Go home, I want to rest alone!"
Baiyanghua suddenly sat up from the bed, lifted my quilt and glared at me angrily. The battering ram under her thin pajamas rose and fell with her breath. It should have been a very seductive scene. But this kind of
Combined with the picture and her tense momentum, I had no intention of thinking about it.
"It's almost dawn. You don't have to rush me. I will leave. My classmates are waiting for me, and I am the core of this group trip. You should have a good rest. It is better to take leave from work."
I rolled out of bed and tiptoed toward the door. During the time I spent with Baiyanghua, I tried my best to behave like an ordinary girl, so there was no such thing as sleeping in a suit.
"Wait a moment!"
Baiyanghua suddenly called me again.
"what happened again."
I looked back.
"Nothing, just go!"
I continued walking out without hesitation.
"Don't go! It's all your fault for reminding me of troublesome things. Come and stay with me!"
"..."
Okay, I will do whatever you want. Who made me crazy enough to insist on being friends with you? So I can only go back and lie next to Bai Yanghua again.
"..."
"..."
"Erumia, why do you smell so good~ There is no peculiar smell at all~~~"
Baiyang Hua, who was already lying down, turned sideways and came to my chest unnaturally, sniffing back and forth.
"Because I am the ultimate beautiful girl who is authentic, and it is a natural rule to exude fragrance."
"Are you saying I'm a fake beautiful girl~?"
"No, you are just a super pretty girl, you are far from me."
"...Since you are so high-end, do all places smell good? Can you let me check~"
Baiyanghua turned over and fell on top of me, her movements skillful and heart-breaking. Her eyes were blurred, and an unnatural blush appeared on her cheeks.
"what you up to."
Maybe ordinary people can't stay rational when facing this kind of temptation, but I can keep my mind calm! The way this damn girl looks now doesn't interest me at all, so I have no interest in her at all!
"Don't you~ like beautiful girls~? My appearance is quite to your liking~ I want to try a new experience~~~ Didn't you say that I am humble and not brave enough in front of you~ Then I will give
Look at my courage~~~"
As Bai Yanghua spoke, she moved her hands to strange places.
"Bai Yanghua, I have no interest in you. You and I are not lovers."
I grabbed her arm to prevent further movement.
"Why...you just think I'm dirty, right? You think I'm disgusting, right?"
Bai Yanghua stared into my eyes, tears bursting out of her eyes without any warning.
"I won't say hypocritical words just because you cry. I have always disliked you, and I won't deny it."
I said calmly, watching her burst into tears after hearing what she said.
"But I will still allow you to cry in my arms, and I will not avoid you because of this dislike. I am your friend, and I will care for you and help you unconditionally, but I will never pamper you.
Let you do whatever you want. You can cry all you want and it doesn't matter if you make my clothes dirty. But if you want to do that kind of thing with me to vent your emotions, I will beat you hard until your skin is bruised. Me and you
The roles of parents are similar. They will make you gnash your teeth with hatred, but you will regret it after losing them. Baiyanghua, how long has it been since you last contacted your parents?"
"I...I...wu..."
Baiyanghua buried her face in my canyon and began to cry softly.
"Cry loudly, there is no one else here, and the sound insulation is very good."
"Wow~~~!"
Sigh~~ Could it be that my specialty is making girls cry?