The delicate ribbon with a bow was so shapeless that it was pinched by my snow-white hands. It was a high-end snack that I went all the way to buy in order to reconcile with Bai Yanghua. I definitely don’t waste things, and I don’t have Parkinson’s disease.
, so the snack box will not fall to the ground due to my mood swings. But since no one is sharing it, I might as well throw it away somewhere and eat it by myself when I have nothing to do.
Ai Jiang is a very considerate AI, and she is very considerate when she shouldn't be. With the faint sound coming from the room, she has established a real-time sonar image in my field of vision.
Bai Yanghua, she... Baiyanghua, she... was in the room I rented for her, wearing the boots I specially designed for her, and was beaten by someone who didn't know where it came from... I'm sorry, I really can't describe it. I really feel like it now
It's so uncomfortable, so uncomfortable that I want to break down the door, rush in, tear the man apart, and let Baiyanghua know whether I can meet her needs... But my reason is still there.
I can still suppress my impulse. I said I would not interfere with her freedom in this area, so I just won't interfere, even if my heart is cut, I won't do it.
Turn around silently, get on the elevator silently, open your own door silently, turn around and close the door silently, sit on the sofa silently, lower your head silently, for a long time... I clearly dislike Bai Yanghua, and I have always treated her
I have no special feelings. I have always regarded her as a friend, so what does what she does have to do with me? Why am I so sad? What reason do I have to be so sad? What is this sad feeling?
?Why do you feel betrayed? She is not my sister at all?
There was a moist feeling on my cheeks. It was not sweat, but tears. I cried, but I didn’t know why I was crying, and I didn’t know why the long-lost feeling of helplessness came to my heart. I am no longer the helpless person.
I am a helpless otaku, and I no longer lack people who love me, but...but why do I still feel sad? Does she really have nothing to do with me? I have no reason?
My mind was filled with disorganized thoughts, and I just kept sitting on the sofa, staring at the toes of my boots without moving, without even blinking. I wasn't imitating Ling Mei or anyone else, I just simply didn't want to
I don't want to move at all, I just want to sit like this. I already understand that I am jealous and eating lemons, but I still don't understand why I have such emotions. This is unreasonable, unreasonable, and even worse.
It shouldn't be. As a goddess, this kind of inexplicable negative emotion is not advisable... In other words, no matter if you are a goddess or not, this kind of emotion is not advisable. I am angry about things that do not belong to me, as if
It's like an ignorant child cheating because he didn't get his beloved toy.
But the worst thing is that I can't control my emotions at all. I have never been a rational person, and emotions will dominate my behavior. Now I have no will to continue, as if I have lost the task halfway through.
Items, there is no point in continuing. I no longer want to stay in this world, I want to go home, to the warm and fragrant nephrite of my sisters and sisters. The world here is so cold, I can't stand it.
Night has fallen for a long time, and I am illuminated by the moonlight in the darkness. My soulless eyes look extremely lonely. I haven't looked like this for a long time. Only a complete failure will make me, who have become arrogant, look down upon me.
.
"Sister, are you there..."
"I want to go home..."
"This world doesn't need me, you'd better send other goddesses here..."
"I miss you, I want to come back to you now..."
"Let me go back quickly..."
"..."
Sister Aini has not recovered, neither has Ling Mei, nor have any of the other sisters. A deep sense of loneliness came to my heart, and my tears once again poured out uncontrollably, dripping on the smooth boots and flowing down.
The water collected into small puddles on the floor.
"I can actually shed so many tears now~~~~"
I said mockingly.
It seems that my sisters don't want me to go back. They can't accept my willfulness. They want me to continue, but... why do I need to continue now? I know that this kind of thing happens all the time. Baiyanghua always,
I have been doing this kind of thing all my life, why am I completely unable to accept it now?
Of course I can't accept it. It's like going out to eat. You can enjoy the meal without feeling uncomfortable, but once you see the dirty backstage, you lose your appetite. People will not change their opinions because of the facts.
When it comes to attitudes towards certain things, what people need is "self-recognized facts" rather than "objective facts". This is a manifestation of self-deception, but human thinking has always been like this.
Until now, I am still an ordinary person...
I don’t want to pass on my sorrow, or I don’t know how to complain to others or who to complain to. This has always existed, but it was confirmed by me today. It turns out that I had always had illusions before
, I have been deceiving myself, telling myself that Baiyanghua is just talking, but it is not the case. I don’t believe that she really did such a thing, and I have been denying the facts. But today, my fantasy has been
The facts crushed me. I could no longer deceive myself. I had lost the motivation to do things. As a beautiful girl with cancer, the most terrifying thing is to find that the beautiful girl around me does not belong to me...
Yes, although I always thought that I had no feelings for Bai Yanghua and always felt that I disliked her, deep down in my heart, I still regarded her as my own. How greedy is this~ How duplicitous is this? Why?
Will I become like this? Why didn't I notice it after I became like this?
But now, I've discovered it, maybe it's not too late.
But even if I find it, what can I do?
You know that the lake water is poisonous and you will die of chronic poisoning if you drink it. But if you don't drink it, you will soon die of dehydration. You have no choice at all.
How about distilling the water? But how to do it?
I'm really... so unwilling! I've paid so much, but I got this result?
Isn't this the same as Tengu? After being a goddess for so long, I actually turned into the same Tengu again? Am I sick?
He must be sick, and very sick.
I have to find a way to cure this disease, and I must cure it. So far, I have been cheated on, and I shouldn’t cheat on others, because I don’t know if the person I cheat on is as gentle and loving as me.
, maybe the other party is just using me. Just like Meng Xilu before, I didn’t find out that she was mentally ill until the end.
Sure enough, you can't trust others easily~especially these ordinary people...yes, ordinary people are the least trustworthy.