"Because of this experience, I no longer go to those so-called intermediary companies, but directly contact the employer. Although I can't receive larger activities this way, because of my quality, I can make more money."
It’s enough to live on. Because the management of private schools is much looser than before, I can also skip school and work as a waiter in a more expensive restaurant... Well, you know how bad I am, in fact, I just work as a solicitor.
A waitress or something like that. The income is average, but relatively stable."
"It seems that you spend more time working than studying."
"Yes, for me at that time, the pressure of life was far greater than the pressure of study... No, to be precise, study was not a pressure at all for me, it was something I could do well as long as I did it.
But work is different, you will not be rewarded for your hard work, you will encounter a lot of disgusting accidents."
"for example."
"For example, if I was harassed by a gangster and I slapped the other person, I had to apologize and have my salary deducted in the end. Store owners only care about their own revenue. They will not be like you and pamper me because I am beautiful.
.I am just a good-looking tool. If it affects my work, I will still have to replace it."
"You are right about this. If it is a beautiful girl, as long as it is not a heinous crime, I will love and protect her."
"Then you are really the president of the Appearance Association~~~ But you do despise others for being ugly, because no one can be more beautiful than you."
"No, I don't think others are ugly. Dislike and dislike are two different concepts."
"Really~ Then why do you care so much about appearance? Is it because birds of a feather flock together?"
"First of all, this is just my personal preference, and there is no complicated reason."
"What's next?"
"Secondly, it's a simple reason. I don't want beautiful things to be tainted by the dirty world. I hope they can stay beautiful and innocent forever."
"This is really a... excuse for being a middle school student... You can help me, but can you help all the beautiful girls in the world?"
"Not now, but maybe later."
"Really? Are you really that strong?"
"right."
"What about people who are not beautiful girls? Aren't they qualified to be loved and cared for by you?"
"It's not that I'm not qualified, but that it's unnecessary. Others are responsible for the happiness of ordinary people. I'm only responsible for the happiness of beautiful girls."
"You are indeed very real, you speak without any disguise~"
"I have no need to hide. Ordinary people tell lies because they are afraid of offending others and damaging their interests, but I am not afraid of offending anyone."
"It's good to be strong~ Sure enough, only the strong can gain true freedom in the future... Elumia, you have never compromised for the sake of survival, right?"
"Yes, but that was before I became stronger."
"Oh~~~How can I become as powerful as you?"
"You can't become as strong as me, never... Baiyanghua, you made a mistake in a premise. It doesn't mean that you can be free by being strong. In many cases, being strong will only bring you more trouble.
.”
"Really? Are you talking about offending the powerful?"
"That's just a small case. There are bigger things that you don't know about."
"That's much better than being weak~ At least strong people can control their own lives and don't need to be forced to compromise with life. How free~~~"
"Bai Yanghua, what do you think freedom is?"
"Freedom? It means... being carefree, being able to do whatever you want, not having to do things you don't want to do, and living your life without caring about anyone's opinions... like this?"
"Then I have to tell you with regret, except that I basically don't have to do things I don't want to do, I can't meet any other standards. I am not free in your definition."
"Huh? Are you kidding me, Elumia? Aren't you free yet?"
"I have a lot of worries, and I can't do whatever I want, and I can't completely ignore other people's opinions. There are even tasks that must be completed."
"Really? I didn't feel it at all?"
"Not noticing it doesn't mean it doesn't exist, so I'm not as free as you think. But that doesn't mean I'm not free."
"What? What detours are you taking?"
"Because I am free in both subjective and objective senses, and I am the freest person in the world."
"Hmm... I don't understand. I don't understand what you are talking about at all. Since you are restrained, why do you say you are the freest?"
"Because I am very happy. Although I will go through various ups and downs along the way, the final result must be happiness. I will stay happy like this forever. Freedom is not the goal, happiness is the goal. Only when you have achieved happiness can you say you are yourself.
be free."
"But... isn't freedom itself a kind of happiness?"
"Baiyanghua, have you ever seen people who are absolutely free? Have you ever seen people who are happy because of absolute freedom?"
"I've definitely never seen this. How can there be absolutely free people in life? You are the closest person I have ever seen to absolute freedom, but you still say you are not free..."
"I am free, but not absolute freedom. Absolute freedom includes the freedom to destroy my own happiness, and I absolutely do not need this kind of freedom, so I do not want absolute freedom."
"You are so convoluted! I really can't understand you! Wait a minute and let me digest what you said..."
"In short, freedom is just a vague concept, while happiness is a real concept. What I need is happiness, I don't need to do whatever I want, and I don't need to make myself unhappy, so I gave up making myself unhappy.
The freedom of happiness is exchanged for the freedom of making yourself happy forever.”
"...Your words are getting more convoluted, but I probably understand what you want to express. You value real happiness more than nihilistic freedom, right?"
"Is such that."
"That's it~~~"
"So Baiyanghua, what do you want? Happiness or freedom."
"...Is it okay if I want them all?"
"Yes, but you have to strike a balance. As I said, freedom includes the freedom to be unhappy. If you want to be happy, you have to give up this part of freedom."
"...Then I still want happiness~~~Now I have nothing, so I want everything. If I had happiness, maybe I would be like you and not value freedom so much..."
"I can give you happiness, but only if you really want it and cooperate with my actions. I will do my best to help people who want happiness get happiness, but I will never go the extra mile for people who don't want happiness.
.”
"...I'd better continue telling the story. Maybe you won't want to help me anymore after hearing it..."