"Because of this, I was gradually ignored by the other party, and they would only take me to the showdown on certain occasions that needed to be staged. I thought I could keep hanging out like this, but I didn't expect that something terrible was waiting for me.
I……"
"Let me guess, you were 'introduced' by the other party."
"You are so smart~ You guessed it right away."
"Although I don't have much contact with them, I can still guess what those people will do."
"That's it, I was introduced to the boss with a higher status... It's interesting to say, a good guy like me should have been introduced to those big guys from the beginning. Maybe my temptation is too strong,
They were reluctant to hand me over directly..."
"Then what do you think about that kind of thing?"
"I...I don't know...I just went with the flow because I had no other choice. And as I did that more and more, I...I gradually started to like this feeling...maybe do that
It was the only way to relieve my stress at that time, but it was also the source of my stress... I don't know why I became like that. I felt that I had really fallen... but I didn't feel sad...
At first I was very sad and would often cry secretly alone. But later...I found that I was used to this kind of thing and used to accept different men..."
"There are so many men, don't any of them treat you roughly or want to support you?"
"No, I don't know why... maybe it's like you said, they are not willing to destroy my work of art, but they also don't want to keep playing my boring game..."
"Keep talking."
"This kind of life lasted until the first semester of my senior year in high school, because those people were responsible for my living expenses out of righteousness... Maybe you think I still built a memorial arch after doing Qingtan, but that is really not my intention... In my senior year of high school
There was still some pressure to study. If I had to focus on studying, I wouldn't be able to work. So they arranged some jobs for me that were almost free of charge, so that I could... continue to support myself in name only... I emphasized to them
I have gone through this problem countless times, so they respect my choice. I know I am deceiving myself, but I really have no other choice..."
"So do you regret leaving home?"
"Of course I regret it, but I don't regret it either... To be precise, I keep going back and forth between regretting and not regretting... I regret my current situation, but I feel happy about my current situation... because I like that thing very much.
Do it, and this is the only thing I have to do. Compared with having no freedom at home, I felt that I was too free at that time. I like the feeling of not being restricted by others... But I know what I do
Everything is degenerate. I hate myself for being like this, but I can't change it... so I indulge in the pleasure brought by that thing and try my best not to think about these problems..."
"Keep talking."
"After that, an extremely dramatic event happened. A new top official was appointed here, and the first order he issued was to clean up the original dark forces. All those people related to me were killed in that cleanup.
, I suddenly regained my freedom overnight, and of course I lost my job. What’s funny is that I actually felt uneasy because of this sudden freedom, and even started to worry about what I would do in the future... People~ Once you get used to it
If you get something for nothing, it is extremely difficult to start working again. Fortunately, I am sensible enough in this matter, or... the final bottom line has come into play again. I force myself to work again instead of choosing
Continue to sell yourself...as long as the contract is terminated, the income can support your life."
"But you find that you have new needs that can no longer be met."
"Yes... when I discovered this problem, I actually wanted to die... Before I knew it, I had become such a clear pool. I didn't understand it at all... or I didn't want to figure it out.
How did I become like that... But I am not a person who gives up easily. I told myself that I have survived the darkest days, so what if I become a clear pool? I will never seek death.
I will live well and let those who don’t think highly of me...let my parents regret their slander against me. I must get into the best university! So, I began to change my strategy and let myself
Being extremely low-key at all times allows me to avoid most troubles and focus on study and life. But... I had to solve those needs, and I couldn't solve them myself. At that time, I didn't have the
I had a date with someone, but I didn’t know what to do. Although I went to nightclubs countless times, I always accompanied them and never went there myself. And in order to maintain a stable life, I didn’t want to go. So I
I learned the whole process of finding someone online, meeting in a public place to make a preliminary judgment, and then going to a hotel to book a room... I think this is very good, very convenient, and safe. Because I have met many types of men, I basically meet them once.
You can know the character of the other person, and it is easy to choose... and because of my extremely high quality, I quickly became famous in the circle of high-quality men..."
"Well, I really didn't expect you to be named 'Beep~~~'."
"Please don't say that to me, okay? I feel very sad now and don't want to quarrel with you..."
"Sorry, because you were too sad, I just wanted to liven up the atmosphere."
"Oh~~~ Just like that, I opened a house and prepared for the exam, and successfully got admitted to this university in a relaxed and happy atmosphere. During the vacation after graduation, I dated high-quality men almost every day, so much so that
They were all a little afraid of me... I knew I was crazy with relief, but I couldn't control my crazy self. The only help my rationality could give me was to stick to my principles and only play the most basic gameplay...
...Maybe because of this, I can't completely satisfy myself, so I pile up crazy amounts...Actually, I'm tired of simple operations, but I can never break through this final bottom line. This is the only dignity I have left.
… This fig leaf cannot be torn off under any circumstances.”
"You have done a great job. There are too many reckless people in this world. It is not easy to hold on to the last fig leaf. You have worked very hard."
"Really... I'm really embarrassed when you say that... In fact, I know that I have been Qingtan for a long time, but I have never been willing to admit it... No matter what the reason is, I did what Qingtan would do.
, then I am Qingtan. The result is much more important than the cause, didn’t you say so?”
"But I also said that you still have a chance to change."
"If I hadn't met you, how would I have had a chance~~~"
"But you met, so there is no if."
"That's right... When I saw you for the first time, I was really amazed, so I couldn't help but want to get close to you, completely forgetting my identity... When I realized it, I decided to be shameless
, I’m already shameless anyway, maybe I can get to know a goddess like you? I didn’t expect it~ In the end, it was you who took the initiative to stick to me..."
"There is a question. Since you have always kept a low profile, why did that crisis happen? It was your self-protection."
"Ah~ That's because I was so busy during that time that I forgot... I can't wear tattered clothes when I go out on a date, right? I can't wear tattered clothes when I go to school, right? It's too troublesome to change when I go somewhere, so I have
I got lucky, and then something happened... luck can't always be on my side~~~"