After spending some time with Lu Xiao, Chen Jingchou and others, Tuoba Yu'er will have some self-awareness of her own character flaws.
Reckless, willful, and emotional, she will ignore many details that should be paid attention to when she is passionate. Her stubborn personality makes it easy for her to get into trouble.
In the process of traveling together, Yu'er not only gained a clear understanding of her own character, but also gained a lot of understanding of the partners around her.
Especially Yong Zhen, who has always taken care of and taught her martial arts, and Lu Xiao, who has guided and advised her from time to time.
Long before Chen Jingchou and Xiaoxue joined the team, Lu Xiao solemnly asked Yu'er about her ultimate goal.
"Why did you decide to assassinate Yang Guang?"
"Do you simply want to avenge the blood of your parents and clan members? Or do you subconsciously believe that Yang Guang's death will have a positive impact on the world's situation?"
Under the in-depth analysis of the questions raised by Lu Xiao, Yu'er began to face her own heart for the first time.
Revenge for one's parents is a matter of course, and Yu'er never thinks that her motives are wrong.
But just like the question Lu Xiao raised, she began to examine the underlying desire hidden under the motivation for revenge.
If it were Yu'er who had just come out of the Tuoba tribe, she might have answered without hesitation. She decided to assassinate Yang Guang just to complete her revenge.
But after living in the Sui world far away from the Tuoba tribe for a period of time, her thoughts gradually changed.
Not all Sui people were cruel and tyrannical people like Yang Guang. In addition to their living customs being different from those of the Xianbei people, the Sui people each had different personalities and life aspirations.
Some people resigned themselves to Yang Guang's oppression, while others could not bear the heavy taxes and chose to rise up and join the forces determined to overthrow Yang Guang's tyranny.
Yu'er does not blindly think that everyone in her tribe is a good person. She once personally executed the tribesmen who committed crimes on behalf of the tribe leader Zhang Lie.
The deeper the contact with the Sui people, the more blurred her prejudice against the Sui people became, and she gradually concentrated the hatred accumulated for many years on a few people.
Lu Xiao's question revealed the true thoughts hidden in her heart.
Yu'er finally recognized her true demands. She hoped to change the turbulent situation by killing Yang Guang and keep the Tuoba tribe away from the shadow of war.
Yu'er admires her brother-in-law Zhang Lie very much. He is an out-and-out hero.
But heroes usually have great revenge, and Zhang Lie is no exception.
As the eldest brother of the Three Fengchen Heroes, Zhang Lie hopes to make a career in the coming troubled times, and the Tuoba tribe is the capital for his start-up.
Yu'er won't blame Zhang Lie for having other agendas. After all, what Zhang Lie has done for the Tuoba tribe over the years is all from the bottom of his heart.
Yu'er can say that his intentions are not pure, but she can't blame Zhang Lie's behavior.
As long as they are alive, everyone will have their own selfish desires. Except for a very small number of saints who have no desires and desires, no one can be exempted.
Yu'er could not change her brother-in-law's mind. The best way to keep the Tuoba tribe away from the war was to get rid of the possible source of the war, which was the Sui Dynasty Emperor Yang Guang.
Thinking about it now, Yu'er felt that she was too naive at that time.
During the journey, Lu Xiao would provide spiritual counseling to Yu'er from time to time, guiding her to think independently and see clearly the changes that Yang Guang's death might bring to the world.
Although she was unwilling to admit it, she put aside her hatred and prejudice and finally thought clearly.
Yang Guang's death will not only fail to calm the troubled times, but will further embolden civil forces due to the weakening of centralized power.
Once we enter truly troubled times, all kinds of conspirators and careerists will jump out one after another, trying to be the one who finally wins and gets the big prize.
The collision of people's wills will be particularly obvious in troubled times. As an extension of their wills, the armies controlled by various forces will also fight against each other, further pushing the troubled times to a fever pitch.
Yu'er still remembered the day when she finally figured it out, the happy smile on Lu Xiao's face, and the warm touch of his big hands encouragingly stroking her hair.
Although she has no close relationship with Lu Xiao and often quarrels and resorts to violence with him, her subconscious has regarded Lu Xiao as a stern elder brother and a teacher who guides her life path.
Since they met, Yu'er has never seen Lu Xiao's will waver, and she even specifically asked him about this matter.
Lu Xiao smiled and explained at the time: "Yu'er, remember, the most difficult thing to see clearly in a person's life is always himself."
"When we see other people's behavior that is not in line with our own moral values, we will instinctively feel repulsive. People with strong actions like you will even come out to reprimand them."
"But when we ourselves do something that goes against the morals and values of others and are criticized by others, we become very unconvinced. Why do you think this is?"
"Um……"
Yu'er thought for a moment before answering: "Lack of empathy?"
Lu Xiao nodded: "This is on the one hand, because everyone is different, and it is natural that the three views of evil people and good people will be completely different."
"On the other hand, it's because of the lack of unified moral values and value guidance. That's what you mean by thousands of people with different faces."
Yu'er asked in confusion: "But, didn't you say you want to liberate the people's free will?"
"These are two different things."
Lu Xiao smiled and rubbed Yu'er's smooth hair with his hands: "You ask me why I am strong-willed, it is because I have a belief that will never waver."
"My sect pursues the liberation of human free will, but this does not mean that we will allow people to blindly pursue disorderly freedom."
"Freedom and order are exactly the opposite of each other in terms of ideological pursuit. What we need to do is to find a delicate balance between the two."
"Guide people to have free will, so that human creativity can be maximized."
"But at the same time, we must also use the concept of order to guide the world's moral values in the direction of good and reduce the chance of the bad guys you talk about appearing."
"Some people are born with anti-social personalities and cannot be changed. Once such people appear, we must judge them according to strict laws, truly show the price of evil in front of the people, and let them know the consequences of doing evil.
The cost is much less than the harvest.”
Yu'er still can't fully understand everything Lu Xiao taught, but her will is indeed moving closer to the direction Lu Xiao leads.
Unwavering will, this is Yu'er's view of Lu Xiao's strong mind, and this is exactly what Zhong Xianzi, who has closed herself off, lacks.
Lu Xiao has always believed in the truth that fighting is not only a competition of personal strength, but also a head-on collision between the wills of both parties.
In terms of absolute strength alone, Lu Xiao, who has not fully grasped the rules of the world, is slightly inferior to Zhong Xianzi, who became an immortal through the reincarnation of an ancient artifact.
But during the fight, Lu Xiao could feel through the collision of swords the fragile heart that was deliberately frozen under the opponent's seemingly tough attitude.
"Poor fairy, your weak will cannot control your powerful power."
"clang!"
Once again, Fairy Zhong swung the broad-bladed war sword in her right hand away, and the distance between the two parties was slightly increased.
Under Tuoba Yu'er's expectant gaze, Lu Xiao put the sword into its sheath, lowered his center of gravity and took the starting stance of drawing the sword to strike.
"Will and strength, both are indispensable."
"Fairy Zhong, please feel my will contained in the attack with your heart!"