"Yes, I miss this place very much, so I built it based on my memory. Uh...but there seems to be something missing here." Lu Daoheng walked around the study room and thought about an empty corner for a long time.
, scratched his head and sighed, "Sure enough, the memory has been blurred. What should be here?"
"That's where my father planted the tangerine."
"Oh, now that I think about it, it is indeed it!"
Before she finished speaking, a pot of green and leafy sage appeared in this empty corner. Lu Yunqian looked at the plant, hesitated for a moment, and said sadly: "This pot of sage will be gone after you leave."
Then it started to turn yellow, and no matter how hard my father tried to save it, it kept getting more and more yellow, and the leaves fell off a lot. I haven’t seen it look so beautiful in a long time.”
The study suddenly became very quiet, and Lu Daoheng stood silently in front of the pot of sunflower he had imagined. A strange light shone into the room outside the window, scattering on him through the patterned glass.
, that thin figure became a little blurry, as if it would disappear in the next second.
Lu Yunqian was startled, thinking that her brother was angry because of those words, and immediately stepped forward to hold him, but she heard a low voice asking: "Are they... okay?"
The outstretched hand was only ten centimeters away from the corner of her brother's clothes, but it stopped in mid-air. After a long time, she retracted her hand, lowered her head and bit her lip to endure it, and said in a trembling voice: "They...
I miss you very much, especially my mother. She suffered a serious illness and her body has not recovered yet. My father is also much older. He has been trying to pretend to be strong and to have moved on from your matter.
, because he needs to continue to support this family, otherwise, we will all collapse. I, I don’t know if you still hate dad, but... if you can come to see me, you must also be able to see him, he
In fact, I really need you!"
"I understand, but I... can't do it." Lu Daoheng replied weakly, lowering his head to Sanwei Kui.
"Eh?!" Lu Yunqian was stunned, not knowing what it meant.
Lu Daoheng turned around slowly, and finally no longer looked at the strange pot of rhododendron. Instead, he shook his head helplessly, spread out his hands to indicate the surrounding environment to her, and said: "You should have noticed it, too.
This is actually your dream. I don’t know why I suddenly entered here, so our meeting today is just an accident. I guess I won’t be able to stay here for long. What I will say next may come to you when you wake up.
I will completely forget it, but I still want to make a promise with you, okay?"
"Promise...?"
"Ever since eighteen years ago, when my mother brought you in front of me, who was still a weak baby, there was a voice deep in my heart telling me that I have become an older brother, an older brother with the responsibility of protecting, and an older brother who wants to protect you.
The brother who makes his sister happy. So I don’t want to see you cry, but maybe you have caught this weakness. Once you are dissatisfied with anything, you will cry to make me compromise."
Lu Daoheng's brown eyes looked seriously at the sister he had protected for more than ten years. Every word he spoke had a happy smile on his lips, as if he could see her in the past few years from that innocent face.
appearance.
She was still drooling and giggling as a baby, she was chasing after him to learn to walk, she was clamoring to feed herself, and she was giving her a birthday card that she made for the first time...
Time flies so fast! You were still a silly child when I left home, but now you have become a graceful girl. But my clock has been fixed here forever, but you still have endless ways to go.
Let’s go, what else can I do for you?
He was immersed in memories for a moment. When he noticed that there were tears in the corners of Lu Yunqian's eyes again, he turned his gaze to the window of the study room. The happy smile on his face gradually disappeared, but there was a little sadness: "
But... you have been spoiled by me, your parents, and your parents, and you have begun to become squeamish, timid, and cowardly. You will be anxious when something happens, and you will seek medical treatment in a hurry, and you will grab anyone around you as a life-saving straw.
Ask for help. Or you will be like an ostrich in danger, hiding the injured self so that outsiders cannot see it, and then force yourself to forget about it. As for my matter... Huh, that's what you do.
of."
This conversation was almost bloody. Lu Yunqian held back tears and looked at her brother blankly. She felt like her brother had discovered her secret when she was a child. But it was not shame or anger, but fear, fear.
When my weaknesses are exposed, I am afraid that my brother will look down on me, and I am also afraid that I will hear about my weaknesses again later.
She was so scared that she wanted to run away, to avoid her brother's hot gaze. But her feet seemed to be nailed to the ground, and she still stood here and listened quietly. After all, this might be the last time she would talk to her brother face to face.
…
"So, the first promise I want to make with you is, don't cry."
"Don't... cry?" Lu Yunqian repeated the two most important words mechanically, with a hint of embarrassment in her doubts. Then she sniffed as if she had been reminded, but her cold tears seemed to be intentional.
The trouble rolled down from the corner of his eyes again, leaving crystal traces on his face.
"Don't cry for prayer and compromise, don't cry for self-pity, don't cry for me." Lu Daoheng's eyes suddenly became deeper, and he reached out his hand lovingly like a father and wiped the remaining stain on her face.
Tears, "Even if you really can't help it in the future, you must be strong after crying, reorganize your emotions, and know what to do at the next moment. Remember, emotion is a river, and reason is a boat. You have to control it."
A good boat sails on the river of sensibility, but never let the river capsize your boat.”
It turns out...does my brother hope that I can become stronger?
Her weak heart suddenly trembled, and the gloomy dark clouds in her always wet heart were suddenly lifted by these words, and a beam of light came in, giving her endless strength to resist cowardice. Lu Yunqian solemnly nodded
He lowered his head and said, "Well, I won't cry anymore, I will never cry again. I want to be as strong as you. Brother, don't worry!"
"Ha..." Lu Daoheng laughed. He knew that his sister had indeed heard what he said, so he smiled very comfortably.
"Then, brother, after the first one, is there a second agreement?" Lu Yunqian asked curiously.
"Well, the second promise is to follow your heart and do what you like."
"What I like..." In the blink of an eye, Lu Yunqian's mind was immediately filled with scenes of fierce battles. Throughout her years, it seemed that there had never been anything that interested her more than fierce battles. But then she thought of
He looked at his father, knowing that this was impossible, so he remained silent again.