Xia Ju stared blankly, looking around at everything happening now.
crowd.
Cheering, encouraging, shouting, the emotional girl was moved to tears by the penetrating emotion in her voice.
I don't play the guitar very well, but this song has nothing to do with how good the overall level is.
The level is the highest. Experts unanimously say that if a trainee has not practiced for 100 years, it is impossible to play the guitar, there is no voice that can be sung for 200 years, and there are no lyrics that can be written for 300 years, it is not necessarily the best song.
But a sound that resonates with people must be good music.
It can evoke in you many threads, threads of memory, and threads of emotion stitched into your brain, intertwined together so that you can know with your heart that this is a good song.
Xia Ju saw the tears on Ye Chuxia's face that had not yet dried.
That proved that she didn't have a sudden idea of Su Mu, let alone find it novel, nor was she just a dispensable little character as she despised.
There is a fire in my heart.
Not to Ye Chuxia.
It's anger at one's own incompetence.
Here’s a calculation method.
Ye Chuxia was someone she despised.
Then the person who was despised seemed to have been hit harder than herself, but her determination seemed to be more thorough than herself.
And when he wrote the words 'suicide note', he had already lost more than one point to Ye Chuxia.
Why when you didn't express your feelings clearly.
It was just that I started to give up after not getting a clear response to my vague and ambiguous attempts that night.
give up.
Ask yourself where is your determination?
Where is the courage?
He claims to be the person who likes and suits Su Mu the most in the world. But this love was actually lost to the younger generation whom he despised.
Are you more hopeless than she is?
You obviously don’t even have the courage to declare your thoughts loudly like her, why do you give up?!
Why? If rebirth is not to change the actions of your cowardly self, if you are not ready, if you do not already have the courage that Ye Chuxia in front of you already has, then why should you be reborn with God's favor?
You should just die and disappear into Sumu's world.
But since he's not dead.
There is no disappearance, there is no failure.
Because Su Mu became closer to other girls, he chose to avoid his ambiguous expressions, and spent more time with Mu Sheng, so he became decadent.
What is this?
Xia Ju clenched her fists, filled with anger.
Full of shame.
It is shame and anger at the depth of one's own incompetence.
"ha···"
fine.
Xia Ju took a deep breath.
Fortunately it's not too late.
The shameful suicide note had no text, and even the title was neatly crumpled with the paper and thrown into the trash can.
It's okay, as long as it's still too late to do everything you want to do.
The five senses seemed to return to the whole body at once,
Thirsty.
hunger.
tired.
Noisy voices.
Xia Ju stayed away from all this and returned to the man-made lake below the apartment. It was quiet enough here.
Before taking precedence over physical needs, there is one thing that must be done no matter what.
Feelings have exploded.
After seeing the wonderful performance of the underestimated junior, Xia Ju could no longer think about other issues.
She doesn't care what Su Mu is doing or thinking.
In other words, it doesn't matter how you view yourself now or what you are about to say. Those are things that should be considered only after you say them.
let's hit.
Make a call now.
A voice in her heart urged Xia Ju several times. She took out her mobile phone from her pocket, effortlessly found Su Mu from the address book of several contacts, and clicked the call button.
"Summer orange?"
Su Mu answered the phone.
"Su Mu, I have something to tell you."
"you say."
"I like you. I love you. I hug the pillow every day and hold him tightly. I treat him as you. Otherwise, I can't sleep."
"I like you. I have wanted to say it for a long time."
"Don't ask me why I like you. It's not because you let me live at your place, it was earlier."
"I am Xia Ju, whom you have known for a long time."
"I am that strange Xia Ju. You are not allowed to express any opinions on what I say now, as long as you know that I like you."
"I love you."
"I used to think that as long as I kept you by my side, we would be together. But now I find that that is not right."
"But I still don't know what to do."
"I lied to you, I was despicable. I was the one who hurt you."
"I like you, and I feel like I will go crazy if I don't say it again."
"I love you."
"Even if you refuse to accept me, that's your right. But I still love you."
"It doesn't matter how you treat me after this phone call or after knowing the truth."
"I just want you to understand that I love you truly and from the bottom of my heart."
"This feeling is very strange, but it exists. It was a small dot in elementary school, and then it spread and became the ocean it is today."
"I like you."
"Even after rejection, I will continue to like you shamelessly. But don't worry, I already know that the way I did before was wrong, and I won't do that again."
"I will continue to like you shamelessly in a normal girl's way."
"Finally, I want to reiterate, I love you."
Say it.
Xia Ju hung up the phone directly, then turned off the phone neatly and went to the nearby Shaxian snacks to eat.
She had not eaten for a day and a half and was very hungry and thirsty.
In front of the computer, Su Mu was completely confused.
Xia Ju is the shadow that has accompanied him throughout his youth.
Su Mu had lived in college for five years in his previous life, and then was reborn inexplicably by an opportunity.
When I was reborn as a senior in high school and had returned to normal life, those memories were long gone.
When he heard that she had been admitted to a mental sanatorium in the first year of high school, Su Mu started trying to forget that memory, and it was almost done now.
The memory goes back to the scene where the knife was inserted into the boy's thigh, and blood flowed freely.
Even though almost ten years have passed, Su Mu can still recall it clearly.
"Um."
But it can be explained.
People are not stupid.
I have long felt that there is something wrong with Xia Ju's inexplicable affection.
I have been suspecting this issue for a long time.
It's just because of two personalities, one who reads quietly and never takes the initiative to say a word, and the other who is a sharp-tongued beauty who was dubbed the Flower of the Mountain in college. The two personalities seem to be very different, so I selectively believe what she said.
It's not the same person, it's just the same name.
It's not a big deal.
Su Mu thought, just reject her like before.
I looked at the hung up phone and called her.
"Hello, the phone you dialed has been turned off."
What I got was a cold reminder.
Su Mu put down the phone and turned off the computer, and suddenly remembered something.
That was many years ago.
Xia Ju's parents brought Xia Ju over and forced her to apologize to them. After that, Xia Ju left, what they said.
It wasn't that they said some philosophical slogans about life that Su Mu always remembered.
"There's nothing we can do about this kid Orange."
"I don't know how she lived her previous life to end up like this."
“···”
"After we adopted her, we found out that 13 families before her couldn't stand her and threw her back to the original orphanage. We had no choice but to send her back like the others before her.