Regarding this issue, many years ago, Su Mu thought about it many times while looking at the seat that the little boy occupied until he graduated from elementary school.
ask.
Although they are just children, they are all children, but bullying other children for fun can really lead to the simple conclusion that 'they just have the mentality of children and want to attract other people's attention'.
Is it over?
Since he could just be because of what the teacher said, "He lacked care when he was a child, he was in a single-parent family, so he was lonely and wanted to attract others' attention", then why did Xia Ju have to end with "This child has been psychologically distorted since he was a child, and it's not surprising that this kind of thing happened."
?
Su Mu admitted that he was frightened at that time.
As a young child, it is not surprising that he would be frightened when he saw the bloody scene.
But most people do it as an afterthought.
For example, Su Mu thought about this incident repeatedly in the next year and discovered a crucial point.
If that incident hadn't happened, I would definitely not have been much better off in the future. It would have been even worse than the current situation of being isolated and scared.
be isolated.
This matter was already finalized when I was tricked and wrote that love letter.
Their goal is to make themselves the legitimate targets of bullying.
I read more books, learned more things, and made more friends. After that, I will recall it every once in a while.
The perceptions and thoughts are different every time.
Su Mu remembered three years ago, no, it should have been seven years ago including rebirth.
I went to the elementary school to visit my former head teacher, and got the child who I guessed should be shrinking and living in the shadows.
But in fact, there was no fear or any psychological shadow.
It's just getting worse.
When they first met, Su Mu still remembers clearly. The other party pulled Su Mu affectionately and talked a lot. It seemed that he had selectively forgotten what he had done to Su Mu before that incident happened.
He just said proudly that Xia Ju deserved it.
"That kind of lunatic would be better off staying in a sanatorium!"
"No, a mental hospital would be more suitable."
"It's best not to come out for the rest of your life."
The other party cursed Xia Ju.
He showed off his tattooed arms like a little gangster and wore earrings. There were no shortage of girls around him.
Do you expect such people to reflect?
To timidly change the domineering personality before?
"Hey, doesn't that madman listen to you?"
"I'm just joking with you, so take the knife with me."
"I said, hey."
"How about you call her and ask her to come here to have fun. Although she is a little crazy, she is really good-looking. It can be considered as compensation for me, how about it?"
"If you do this, we will still be good brothers."
He has a broad mind, and it seems that just letting go of grudges with a smile is very comfortable and reasonable.
"Call out and do it?"
"How to do it?"
Su Mu looked at his face, that unruly face made people inexplicably angry.
"Haha, how do you do it? Brother, you asked a wonderful question!"
He held Su Mu's shoulders and lowered his voice and said, "Well, if you don't mind, we can come together and take turns in front and back. No one will suffer anyway, right?"
"Um."
Su Mu took off his hand on her shoulder and looked around the private room.
"You said before that this place belongs to your family?"
"Yes, come and play anytime in the future. You are an old classmate and a good brother. You will get a 10% discount!"
He said generously: "I'm telling you, I'm familiar with a lot of girls who frequent this place. If you want something special, just come to me."
"Oh? Are you still a pimp?"
"This is an ugly thing to say."
He frowned and said, "Who are these pimps, and who do I know?"
"Don't all bad people know bad people?"
"bad people?"
He pointed at his face.
"Yes, it's so rotten that you can smell it from a long distance away."
Su Mu smiled and said, "To be honest, if I hadn't endured it, I would have vomited three times."
"It's interesting. Did you come all the way to see me, an old classmate, just to get beaten?"
"maybe."
"Bang!"
When he was about to speak, Su Mu picked up a beer bottle and hit him on the head.
"Fuck you!"
After reacting, he got angry.
But it's unfortunate.
In his impression, Su Mu was still the neutral, ordinary person who cleverly lived in the middle position in elementary school.
But now Su Mu was isolated after that and felt useless, so he went to Su Mu to learn Sanda.
In the final analysis.
Su Mu was able to beat him, who was half a head taller than him, until he was lying on the ground like a dead dog. He had a big share of the credit.
certainly.
After smashing a lot of things and beating people into disgrace on their property, Su Mu felt uncomfortable when he came out.
To describe it a little bit, there are footprints all over his body, including his head.
All the money in my mobile phone and wallet was taken away.
Su Mu stood at the sink in the public bathroom and simply dealt with the miserable sight of himself in the mirror.
Several women or men came out of the bathroom next to them, all with the same surprised look in their eyes.
He thought this was natural.
Because there is blood under your nose, cyan under your eyes, and the clothes on your body are full of footprints, everyone knows that this person has been beaten.
So it's not unreasonable to be stared at strangely.
No one knows about this.
Su Mu didn't tell anyone. Except for him who was beaten by him and then by him, the people who were there that day knew.
do not know either.
Even he didn't know why Su Mu suddenly opened the wine bottle for him.
Su Mu felt that people like him would never understand.
He will always curse: "Damn, two lunatics, one is crazier than the other!"
Who is unsound?
Everyone said Xia Ju should stay in a nursing home.
Because she stabbed him with a knife.
Many years later.
No.
What Su Mu wants to say is...
In fact, I was not really afraid of her from the beginning, and I was not afraid of her because she suddenly did that. In my subconscious, Xia Ju was sound, and at most she had a withdrawn personality.
And relatively speaking.
A long time ago.
From the first time I was invited by those people, "Do you want to pee together?", they were already classified as unhealthy people.
Always thinking.
Whether you are healthy or not is decided by people who don't know the inside story. As long as more than a certain number of people say you are not healthy, then you are not healthy.
No matter what the person who is characterized as unsound has experienced, no matter whether her schoolbag has been maliciously done with disgusting things, no matter whether she has had the pages of the book secretly cut out without any fault, it is transparent.
No matter, just because she responded seriously to those malicious things for the first time, she was finally classified as an unsound person and entered a sanatorium as she wished.
"Crack."
Sumu lights a cigarette.
Let’s talk about the summer orange itself.
If you have a thorough understanding of this and that kind of thing, this and that kind of motivation, and this and that kind of person's character, then you can look at what she said.
For example.
"We are essentially the same."
"Only with you can I understand each other."
"You will definitely need me, one day."
You can almost see some clues.
In fact, what she said is essentially correct.
She knew that Su Mu did not classify them as healthy people, and she also knew that Su Mu's willingness to risk being isolated to talk to her was not just sympathy.