In the end, I spent all my savings due to traveling around and could no longer afford excellent food. I had reached the point where I could not eat enough and stayed on the streets again. I had to return to the starting point and chose to stop in Guangzhou again.
On the first day of the first lunar month, this day is so important, happy and happy to many people. However, this day is a deep pain for me...
These are all things about Chen Zhima and Yanguzi, what else do you want to do? I don’t want to look back on the past, but the past is always like a documentary about my historical reality, and it is constantly repeated in my mind.
On this day, I wandered alone on the nameless streets of this metropolis, walking aimlessly. Everyone gave me a strange look, with strange eyes, like a dog.
I passed by a restaurant and was hungry, so I walked in with an intention of getting enough.
I ordered wine and side dishes. When the waiter lady walked past me generously, I couldn't help but begged to the waiter lady: "Little sister, can you talk to me?"
The waiter stared at me with big eyes and said, "Why, do you have no home?" ...
I nodded helplessly and replied: "Yes, I don't have a home, I am an orphan, a wandering wanderer."...
Actually, I am not an orphan, I am just a homeless man who has lost his family and happiness. Among the people separated by language and human feelings, no one noticed my existence and my loneliness. I only know that today, I am strolling.
In this endless and nameless street, I don’t know where to go tomorrow…
These bustling metropolises and colorful everything have changed many of the country people born in this small place. However, it still makes me unable to forget the joys, sorrows, vicissitudes and helplessness I have experienced.
Whenever it is quiet late at night, I will pick up my pen and write down everything in my mind. I hope this will not only take a long time and a long midnight, but also make the boring life more fulfilling.
Despite this, the wounds and pain buried in my heart still torture my soul cruelly. Loneliness and helplessness are still like the darkness, surrounding me...
Standing under the empty world and looking at the tall buildings on the roadside, I couldn't help but feel an inexplicable panic. Guangzhou is so big, but it is so small, so big that I don't know where to go, but so small that I have no foothold
land.
In the evening, if the big vegetable market is bright at night, a man wearing old clothes stood in a corner of the vegetable market. This person is me. This dress was found in the box from the old clothes at the entrance of the community, because
I need to dress myself a little older and look poorer, because so that there are people sympathizing with me. After all, there are still many good people in this world. My ghostly eyes are looking around.
It's time to fight.
At this moment, a few sanitation workers holding brooms came in from outside. As soon as they came in, they began to clean the ground. One by one, they began to throw vegetables on the ground. There were water spinaches, cauliflower, green peppers, green vegetables.
.I immediately took out the prepared woven bag and picked up some vegetables that looked good in color. This time I posted it again, and at least I don’t have to spend money on groceries for a few days...
I just returned to Guangzhou, and I was not in a hurry to go to the hooligan because I didn’t want to see him, nor did I want to see friends or colleagues I’ve known.
I rented a house in Guangzhou with a young man who was over 10 years younger than me. It was said that it was two bedrooms and one living room, but in fact it was one bedroom and one living room. The unscrupulous house owner used wooden boards to convert the large room into a small room, but it was also considered as
There is a place to stay.
The young man is named Huang Wei. He works in a technology company and he does network and monitoring installation projects.
A few days later, just the May Day holiday, Huang Wei's girlfriend also came to Guangzhou. From that day on, two enthusiastic young people always refused to calm down at night. I felt like I was accompanying them. Next door
The noise reflects the intimacy process of the two young people.
...I was impatient! It was done so soon. I kept swallowing, and secretly cheered...
……… So soon, the next battle began again, the smell of gunpowder was very strong, and the partition walls began to shake. Is it an earthquake? No! No! Of course not, that is the power of love, when the two young people were burning
Private war….
I just wanted to close my eyes, but the wooden board next door began to vibrate again, and my sleepiness was driven out of the sky again. My heart was so hot that it was unbearable, and I had no sleepiness...
I had to turn on the computer, click on the yellow pages, and a film started. The male and female protagonists are European and American, passionate and strong desires. Damn, this is too exaggerated, like a dog, otherwise how could it be so good?
I even had the urge to get up from the bed and rush over to drag the boy's corner. No, no, of course not. I also thought that Chinese men could never satisfy European and American women. Suddenly, I felt upset
The emotion hit me, and then I got up and pulled out the yellow piece from the computer, opened the window and scratched it out...
The next morning, I bought two steamed buns with only two dollars and cooked a lot of vegetable soup. The breakfast was very rich.
After breakfast, I continued to look for a job, but the day was fruitless and it was almost dark, but I didn't want to go back to rent a house. I walked aimlessly along the road and entered the factory area. I walked while I
While searching for any advertisements for recruiting workers in the factory on the side of the road.
After walking like this for nearly four or five hours, it was almost deep. I lay down on a bench under a cold courtyard with a frustration.
I was so exhausted. I felt so happy when I lay down. I spent the night alone in other places and in the cold courtyard. I really couldn't accept it for a while, and I didn't want to be alone like this.
Lying in this cold courtyard for a night. Besides, I began to feel hungry again. Although the hunger was not surging, it moistened silently. This feeling was very uncomfortable. I began to curse in my heart:
"Damn, Guangzhou is so big, but it has no place for me"...