The door creaked, awakening someone from their light sleep.
The remaining body was lying on its side, looking into whose pupils.
"Did you just wake up?"
The cold can was flying on the girl's palm. Lin Shuwen stared at Yun Luoyan by the door with an apologetic expression.
"Because I couldn't move my body, I took a nap..."
"Then do you want to wake up?"
Yun Luoyan smiled lightly, walked to the hospital bed, and stood beside the bed with a malicious smile. She held a cold can in her right hand and pressed it to Lin Shuwen's face under his horrified eyes.
"Hiss~ouch~"
The muscles on his face stretched into the shape of a mummy, and Yun Luoyan laughed out loud at the young man's exaggerated and funny expression.
"You can't bully patients like this, I tell you this!!"
"Oh? Give me a reason!"
"Because...I'm thirsty!"
"puff!"
Covering her lips with lipstick, she revealed a few soft bells. "Yan" put away the coldness in her palms, opened a Coke with one hand, raised her forehead slightly, and smacked her lips in front of the envious eyes of the young man.
"Want to drink?"
"Uh-huh!"
Lin Shuwen nodded quickly twice and stared at the shaking tin can in front of him. Yun Luoyan stopped laughing, put the can on the bedside table, and moved closer to Lin Shuwen.
"Shasha~"
The ponytail swept over the tip of the young man's nose, bringing with it a burst of fragrance. Slender arms supported the young man's broad back. Yun Luoyan helped Lin Shuwen on the hospital bed. The young man's pulled arm inadvertently rubbed a few times on the medicine waiting to be put down.
The flower buds bring out a hint of blush.
"Thank you~"
With a tap on his forehead, Lin Shuwen put away his playful smile, leaned on the pillow on his back, and his eyes returned to a calm and heavy look.
"What are you thinking about?"
Yun Luoyan covered her non-curved chest and hid the blush on her face. She raised her head, her gentle and apologetic gaze revealed the hidden veil, and put a blush on her cheeks that could easily be broken.
The morning breeze blows gently, and the fine morning light scatters in the air, decorating the eternity of this moment.
"What about her?"
Yun Luoyan hooked her side ponytail with her index finger, and the black gauze weaved in and out between her fingers, forming a web, just like her master's thoughts.
"Mo Wei went to the bathhouse, and You Ling's words..."
Lin Shuwen looked under his bed. "Yan" followed his line of sight and saw a pair of resentful pupils in the darkness.
"She was originally taking care of me. After staying up all night, I asked her to go back to rest, but she refused to leave at all, so I had to let her go back to the shadows to rest..."
"It's not because you didn't take her with you that you turned into a vegetative state. She must be so stubborn that she blames herself and wants to commit suicide."
"So I kept apologizing to her, but more and more, I felt that apologizing was too weak..."
Looking at the sleeping glutinous rice balls on his pillow, Lin Shuwen shook his head and looked at "Yan" apologetically.
"I……"
"Still thirsty?"
Interrupting Lin Shuwen's words, "Yan" brought up the Coke and shook it in front of him. His face turned slightly, hiding his warm left eye, and there was a touch of liquid in the corner of his eye, which he did not want to wipe away in front of him.
"tear".
"Speaking of which, the sun is quite comfortable today..."
Lin Shuwen turned his head, understanding the girl's strength. He closed his eyes and used pretentious art to give her time to wipe the blood from her left eye. Everyone in the room was worried about each other, and no one wanted to be the first.
A "perpetrator".
"Do you like anime?"
The rustling behind him gradually stopped. Lin Shuwen turned his head and asked Yun Luoyan, who was holding a Coke can.
"Looking at my appearance, you should understand
Bar?"
"Heiyan~ You really look like..."
Lin Shuwen saw the blindfold on "Yan"'s left eye and was about to give up this method of entry.
"And when I get home, I will ask the technical department to make me a prosthetic eye that can emit blue light. When it enters overload mode, it will turn purple! Hehehe~"
With a smile like a flower, the girl sketched the future in the morning breeze, her white calves swaying happily in the air, leaving her naughty mark on the sheets.
"Before that, let's go see the new doctor. When the payment comes in, I'll ask Lan Xin to..."
"Huh? How much did you earn this time?"
With her upper body slightly bent, Yun Luoyan held her hands on the edge of the bed, got close to Lin Shuwen's face, and inquired with a gossipy expression.
"The remuneration for the mission itself is offset by the deductions, but thanks to the relationship between the vampire head and Mo Wei, the organization has provided me with some subsidies. I now have around 100,000 yuan on my card."
The eyebrows are drawn, the smile is peaceful. The sideways face has a hint of mischief and humility, and the handsomeness is simple and clean, which speeds up the girl's heartbeat.
"Gu~ In other words..."
Yun Luoyan retracted her forward leaning body and sat on the edge of the bed again. The tip of her tongue swept across the edge of the tin can, sucking in the remaining Coke. The girl with side ponytail blinked her eyes. The beating eyelashes could not hide the cunning look in her pupils. The corners of her mouth were raised.
Smiling evilly, "Yan" asked a dangerous question.
"Are you going to use your "lover's" money to buy me pretty eyes?"
"Uh...I..."
Lin Shuwen was speechless for a moment. "Yan"'s words raised this issue to an unsightly level, and in the final analysis, can you really buy your own peace of mind with money that belongs to others?
"And it's not just me, a lot of people were injured in this battle. Is it possible that you paid all their medical bills by yourself?"
Yun Luoyan directly shattered Lin Shuwen's fantasy of seeking peace of mind. She understood this man's sentimentality, but as a "prepared" victim, she did not feel that he needed to bear all the losses.
"You did cause a lot of trouble, but in fact, if you hadn't intervened, we would have fought with the Shadow Clan. We were originally here to deal with this matter, and we were prepared to sacrifice. It's just that
Things just didn't develop as expected. And as a senior, I can tell you responsibly."
The petite girl stretched out her finger and flicked the boy's forehead. A relieved smile appeared in his eyes.
"For what has already happened, the existing result is the best result."
There is no need for ifs and possibilities. Instead of dwelling on the illusions of self-trouble, it would be better to lie drunk on the bones.
Lin Shuwen stared blankly at Yun Luoyan, who exuded a mature aura, and the corners of his eyes were a little moist. For the past three days, he had been blaming himself, using the writer's unique imagination to infer other possibilities, but every time, every time
The inference of minimal casualties was restrained by his selfishness.
He wants to be a "hero", but he is destined not to be a "hero".
"Hey~yo~"
Yun Luoyan stretched out and moved her remaining pupil closer to her left eye. Sadness filled her nasal cavity. She could no longer observe the world with her human left eye.
"I will definitely be reviled by many people... my self-righteous actions, killing or causing many people to die for my own selfish desires..."
"Isn't this normal?"
Yun Luoyan retracted his arms, moved his slightly stiff fingers, took out a napkin from his pocket, and wiped the blood that flowed from the eye mask.
"You will never be able to make everyone praise you. Even if you explode this time and kill the Xiuying clan in one breath, some people will say that you are a giant baby who only relies on plug-ins. People need a support for them all the time.
The person to vent to is just that you happen to be standing in the most conspicuous position."
"Hmm~"
Mei'er woke up from her sleep and jumped on her master's chest, grabbing the sheets with her little claws, trying to attract her master's attention. "Yan" crumpled the blood-red tissue into a ball and threw it into the trash can.
He cautiously stretched out his hand towards Mei'er and touched her body.
"As for selfishness, if it were me, if I saw the lover of my dreams being hunted, I would protect him at all costs. What's more, you have the ability to protect her, right?"
"Um."
Staring at Mei'er who was looking over, Lin Shuwen felt a sense of peace of mind that he had not seen for a long time. He once lost her because of his incompetence, but now he has the ability...
"I have been thinking about it, even in my dreams, trying to find some high-sounding reasons to numb myself, telling myself that I am doing this for a "great cause". But in the end, I found that I was just doing it for her, to "take her away"
"This is just a selfish reason. I have even fallen into insanity and craziness, desperate for her, just for her."
"You don't even care about your own life, will you still feel sorry for other people? Or in your heart, everything you do is for them? Are all your principles of action "for them"?"
"We are not guardians..."
"Protect what you want to protect."
"Including your selfish desires..."
Lin Shuwen murmured softly, feeling that he was getting smaller and smaller, as if falling from the sky to the ground, only having the reality of the size of dust.
"Don't think about how great you are, just for the sake of the happiness of all mankind, who are you trying to fool?"
With her toes touching the sheets, "Homura" who took off his boots put his right arm on the curled-up right knee. He held the Coke can between his hanging fingers and shook it on his flat chest, making a clanging sound.
"What more light? In fact, we are just protecting those worlds that cherish the light."
With his cheek pressed against his thigh, "Yan" looked at the dangling Coke can and thought of the hand that once reached out to him, those people who were chosen to replace more lives lost.
"We are all chosen people to replace more lives lost."
"Let us die in peace, shall we? It will be rare for strangers to disturb our graves."
He pulled out a wry smile, and his half-smiling expression hurt Lin Shuwen's heart. He was not worthy of shedding tears for the deceased. The deceased had already slept forever and did not need to be disturbed by irrelevant people.
Everyone's death belongs to themselves. The helplessness and coercion seen in others' eyes are just their own necessity. And there is no need to shed tears for those who don't even understand the true cause.
"Thanks……"
"No, I just talked nonsense."
Yun Luoyan shook her head, raised her neck, and drank the last sip of Coke.
"You are really a good person. You didn't choose to contact us when you were being hunted. From the beginning to the end, you acted as if you were the one doing things and the other was responsible. So I don't think you have anything to blame yourself for, even though it seems like we were
You fought this fight because you wanted to save her, but who cares about you? They caused trouble and killed so many humans, and we had to kill them at all costs!"
The girl put down her legs and clenched her small fists. Her innocence made the young man feel extremely at ease. It was the light he wanted to protect.
"Can you be my friend, "Homura"?"
"ah?!"
After being stunned for a few seconds, "Yan" closed his eyes with a smile, took out another can of Coke from his coat pocket, opened the ring, and stretched it in front of Lin Shuwen. The girl's cheeks covered by the bottle were slightly red, and she turned to the side.