There will always be someone who has liked you, right?
Well, there is, probably there is...
If I remember correctly, there seemed to be a fair-looking senior girl who confessed her love to me before.
Huang Xiaobei couldn't help but smile.
Who has not been liked by others? Even I have become everything to someone at one time.
Seeing the smile on Huang Xiaobei's lips, Karl stared at it silently for a while, then turned his gaze to the side. The magic eyes, which were emitting a faint blue light, were calm at this moment.
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If I remember correctly, she is one year older than me and is my senior sister. She likes to wear a pair of white sneakers.
In my memory, the senior sister seems very cute. She bounces around like a little rabbit. She also has a lot of baby fat on her face, and she looks good when she smiles.
Huang Xiaobei smiled.
Actually, strictly speaking, it wasn't a confession, because the day she plucked up the courage, because the day she plucked up the courage to stand in front of me, I didn't react at all.
After hearing what she said, the expression on my face seemed to make me want to laugh, but I couldn't. I wanted to nod, but I didn't know why I didn't.
I remember that when I was in physical education class, I always felt a gaze focused on me from the teaching building opposite.
When the whole school was running on the playground, she seemed to often stare at me in the queue. Her best friends next to her would tease her when they saw how absorbed she was. The senior sister smiled sheepishly, and then continued to look at me.
That kind of look makes people happy.
Huang Xiaobei looked at his hands.
But what was I doing at that time?
Pretending not to see, pretending not to know anything, as if she doesn't exist in this world at all.
Misunderstood, you all misunderstood, I just look cold on the outside, but actually I am so happy and proud inside!
Her appearance brought me unprecedented joy.
Huang Xiaobei lowered his head in disbelief.
It's just that I don't have the courage, or I don't know how to face her.
Even if everyone confessed their love to me, even if that girl did everything she could, I still couldn't even say a word when I happened to see her in school.
He walked straight over, not paying attention to the girl who was hesitant to speak but looked very expectant.
In the end, I was lying in bed alone at night, laughing, wondering if I would see her again in a corridor or on the playground the next day.
Not long after, I saw my senior holding another person’s hand and walking past me.
Huang Xiaobei nodded calmly.
It shouldn't be intentional, right? That's really bad.
By the way, who can I blame? Me? I guess so...
Yes, it just feels a bit pity, because in my mind, the person next to my senior should be me, and she should be holding my hand.
Well, I was a little angry at the time and wanted to hit someone.
Huang Xiaobei shook his head helplessly.
But after being stunned for a moment, I resumed my previous behavior of throwing coins, and walked straight over, just like Chu Zifeng now.
In the eyes of others, he was cheerful and giggling all day long, but in front of her, he always had that cold look.
She doesn’t seem to owe me anything, right? She doesn’t seem to have done anything to make me sorry, right? She seems pretty good-looking, right…
But why can't you even give me a smile? Mom, a silly smile is fine! At least give someone some response. Don't wait until she really thinks you have no interest in her and then turns around and regrets it when she falls into someone else's arms.
ah!
Huang Xiaobei stared at the guy next to him quietly. In his opinion, even though that guy had his head lowered, he still had a hateful face.
I beat you, I scold you, I look down on you, I throw stones at you, I spit on you, is it wrong?
The people next to me were trembling even more seriously.
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When I walked past her...no, when I walked past her, she didn't seem to have any reaction. She didn't look like she was startled all over and lowered her head in sadness as I imagined.
She no longer looked at me with the expectant gaze she had in the past. From the beginning to the end, she never looked at me again.
Holding that person's hand, they walked happily to where they were going.
As we passed by, I took a sneak peek and saw that she was smiling happily.
Huang Xiaobei sighed and nodded.
At that time, I should have given a blessing, "It's great that you can find someone you like. Bless you."
After saying this, it should leave some impression on her, right? Just leave a little bit to let her understand that the person you like is very generous, and he has blessed you generously...
But why does it look so pitiful?
Just like a poor guy who lost everything, he thought he was generous and said to the person who took everything away from him.
"You can take it away. I don't want it anymore. I don't like it in the first place. I want to thank you for taking it away."
Huang Xiaobei stared at his hands calmly.
"You are pitiful."
Otherwise, how about another sentence? In order not to make yourself look so pitiful, in order not to make yourself look like a loser, just tell that person directly, "Be nice to her, even though I haven't said a word to her."
Haha, not pitiful, but like a retard.
So what happened in the end? What was my reaction at the time?
it's actually really easy.
Nothing was said...
Standing in the corridor, I turned my head and looked at the two figures from behind, then lowered my head and wandered back to the classroom.
Not even yelling like a loser, or shouting "I will be a good man again in twenty years" like the people who were about to be beheaded in the past during the parade.
He said nothing and accepted everything quietly.
Silly, I walked back to the classroom and continued my silly fantasy alone, continuing to have that ridiculous daydream.
Well, she did it on purpose, to make me angry on purpose.
Tomorrow he will continue to peek at me while running like before.
It is like this, it must be like this.
Huang Xiaobei patted the head of the man next to him, "That's a piece of shit."
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I have to say that it hurts me to no longer be the center of attention.
It was a really sad time...
But he was still like that, just squatting in the corner alone, not crying or making trouble, just hugging his knees and hiding in the corner.
Sometimes I wonder if he is a normal person, even if he cries once. But he doesn't cry, he just squats in the corner with a look of death.
He looked like he was going to die, but he didn't want to die, he just stayed half-dead in the sight of the crowd.
You know? You look even more hateful like that...
Huang Xiaobei smiled bitterly, "I can't help it, this is me, this is him, he is like this, I am like this. I have been frustrated for more than 20 years, and I am almost used to it."
The earth never revolves around you, and she will never only like you.
It's just that you feel that the earth can't rotate without you, and she can't live without you.
It is like this now and it will be like this in the future.
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Huang Xiaobei looked at Karl and shook his head.
"I have never had any good memories, and I am not suitable to have any good memories. For a virtuous person like me, even good things can turn into bad things."
"Of course you don't know, you will never know what my "good memories" are."
Huang Xiaobei raised his chin proudly, "So, your plan failed. You made the grief in my heart even worse. It was you who lost." Huang Xiaobei smiled, but he looked very tired.
,Very tired......
Karl quietly stared at Huang Xiaobei in front of him.
"Senior, your smile is very contagious."
"Yes, it comes from a poor ghost, but I really don't feel bad. Recalling these, it's just a little complicated, a little complicated."
Huang Xiaobei patted his cheek and forced a smile, without any sparkle in his eyes.
"You can see me laughing, so I don't feel uncomfortable at all."
Karl was silent for a long time, and finally nodded, "Really?"