I am already used to migrating with migratory birds, but I am just a little anxious.————by Bailuo
In a warm room, a busy figure is reflected on the white wall by the afterglow of the setting sun.
The furnishings in the room all reflect the owner's care and diligence.
The woman who was cleaning suddenly coughed violently. When she put down her hand covering her mouth, a little bloodshot appeared at the corner of her mouth.
The woman didn't notice, and bent down to continue cleaning.
At night, the kitchen was filled with steam, and the aroma of food filled the whole room. Cold sweat broke out on the woman's head, she coughed from time to time, and the plates in her hands trembled.
The woman just walked out of the kitchen and coughed again. The fragrant dishes and delicate plates in her hands fell to the ground, and the plates fell into pieces.
The woman couldn't bear it anymore and leaned on the chair coughing. At this moment, a man came in from outside the door and quickly supported the weak body.
"Benro, if you don't feel comfortable, don't do it."
Bai Nuo gradually came to his senses and gently pushed him away.
"I'm fine, I just have a cough after eating too much dessert."
The man was still worried and patted Bailuo's back with his hand.
"How can I feel relieved when you call me like this? No, I will accompany you to the hospital tomorrow."
Bailuo replied decisively: "No! Xiaoyi, you have to work tomorrow, I can just go by myself."
Luo Xiaoyi became more and more nervous.
"You can do your work tomorrow, but your illness can't be delayed any longer!"
Fool, your work is not as important as yours...
"I'll just go by myself!" Bai Nuo looked at him firmly.
Luo Xiaoyi stroked Bainuo's head with a little worry.
"All right."
Bainuo smiled and looked at the thick dark circles under Luo Xiaoyi's eyes, and couldn't help but feel a touch of sadness in his eyes.
Sorry for causing trouble to you again. Thank you, Xiaoyi.
Whenever it is late at night, I can't bear to fall asleep but I am very tired. Those piecemeal persistence begins to impact under the cover of night. The most beautiful memories and the cruelest reality merge and merge. The beautiful moment is indulged in the fragments of reality and struggles.
, then is it more real when awake or more continuous in dreams... - by Bailuo
Early the next morning, Bainuo and her best friend Lan Tianhua came to the hospital together.
Benro was sitting in the hospital seat, holding a medical record tightly in his hand. There were a few words written on it - terminal lung cancer.
"Tick tock, tick tock."
"Bai Nuo... don't do this..." Lan Tianhua's heart felt like it was being twisted together.
Bai Nuo suddenly raised his head and touched his face with his hand. Only then did he realize that tears were streaming down his face.
"Then Baino, what should we do now...?"
Bailuo hurriedly stuffed the medical records into his bag, wiped his face with his two small hands, and pretended to be nonchalant and said: "What else can I do? Since God has already decided my fate, I just leave it to fate."
"This matter...don't tell Xiao Yi, okay?"
"I don't want Xiaoyi to worry about me, and I don't want him to ruin his body for me anymore."
"Maybe it's a relief to let go."
"As long as he's doing well, it doesn't matter what I give..."
Tangled and helpless, in the dark sky, in the dark heart, if there is still a chance to come back, if time goes back and becomes empty... - by Bailuo
Bainuo dragged his exhausted body home and heard concerned inquiries from Luo Xiaoyi.
Bailuo said a few casual words and closed the heavy door.
Luo Xiaoyi stood outside the door in shock, staring intently at the disappearing figure and the undried tears on the girl's face.
What's wrong with Benro?
Bai Nuo in the room had long since burst into tears. Looking at the photo of her and Xiao Yi, it was so fleeting that it was useless to miss it again.
Xiaoyi... I'm sorry, forgive me... Forgive me for hiding it from you, I may be a fool, a fool... I hope that my letting go can bring you happiness.
I just can’t ask you for advice for the rest of my life...
Time flies by, and many things disappear before I can catch them. I regret everything in my heart, but I can't go back to the beginning. It turns out that the consequences of being hesitant at the time are now unacceptable and powerless. I can only tell myself that from now on
From now on, we must decide everything decisively.——by Bailuo
After a long time, when the hour hand on the clock pointed to 12 o'clock, Bailuo walked out in a daze.
After calming down, he said to Luo Xiaoyi: "Xiaoyi, let's break up."
These words echoed in the huge room. Luo Xiaoyi couldn't react for a moment and looked at Bainuo in surprise.
Bailuo... what on earth happened to you?!
Luo Xiaoyi reluctantly pulled out a smile.
"Benro, stop joking, this is not funny. Are you unhappy? How about I make you a cake? Hey, you still remember when you were unhappy in the past, and you would get angry as soon as you ate the cake I made.
Are you laughing? You were really..."cute" at that time.
"That's enough! Don't you understand what I said?!" Baino shouted this sentence with all his strength, extinguishing Luo Xiaoyi's weak hope.
Luo Xiaoyi couldn't bear it any longer, and tears poured out unbridled.
"Bainuo... Is there something I didn't do well? Why do we have to break up?! I treat you with all my heart and give you the best. I promise you whatever you say and I am willing to do it for you! Why?
We still want to break up... If you say there is something wrong with me, why don't I change it? If you still hate me, Beno, how about you hit me?! You can kill me! As long as you are happy... you want
It doesn’t matter what happens to me?!”
I'm sorry... It's my fault, it's all my fault... I'm sorry Xiaoyi, I can't be so selfish... I can't let you give up your own happiness for myself... I'm sorry, I don't pray that you can
Forgive me, I just hope you forget me, forget the past, and start a new life without me...
Bailuo took off the necklace around her neck - it was bought by Luo Xiaoyi with all his salary and given to her on her birthday.
Baino put the "life" that originally belonged to her into Luo Xiaoyi's broad palm.
"I'll give this back to you. Thank you for accompanying me in the past. I will go on my own in the future."
Luo Xiaoyi looked at the necklace in his hand and suddenly threw it out of the window.
Bai Nuo looked at it helplessly, feeling as if his heart had been cut into pieces by a thousand knives.
Why blame others? You are asking for it.
Luo Xiaoyi was disheartened and stared at the "cold-blooded and ruthless" Bai Nuo in front of him as if with hatred.
The relationship that lasted for several years, oh, just break up, the world... there is always a banquet that never ends.
…
The next day, Bailuo dragged his luggage and left. Luo Xiaoyi did not stop him, but instead fell in love with his "new love".
As long as you are happy.
Bailuo thought silently in his heart.
A few days later, Bailuo saw him - the old friend - on the street.
When he saw Luo Xiaoyi helping Xinhuan put on the ring, Bainuo smiled reassuringly, turned around and turned a blind eye.
After several violent coughs, red liquid appeared on the handkerchief Benro used to cover his mouth.
Bitter tears flowed down his cheeks, moistening the corners of his mouth that were still stained with blood.
It turns out that letting go is a painful thing, but... I don't regret it.
Letting go for the one you like is also a happy thing...
Lingering in the smoke and dust of yesterday, the smoky memory grows old with time and is annihilated in the fog of memory. The withered flowers will bloom again in the coming year, and the flowers will still bloom and be fragrant, but I will never be a teenager again.
, and the fallen leaves have chosen to fall in this season with the most beautiful gesture. When the past memories turn into the breeze on the fingertips, and slowly float by, the only thing that is still remembered is the tenderness that accompanied them for a short time. - by Bailuo
A few months later, Luo Xiaoyi's career was booming. When moving, Luo Xiaoyi found a medical record from the drawer - late stage lung cancer.
On the first page of the medical record, there is another piece of paper: For you, I am willing.
Luo Xiaoyi missed the person who passed away while crying silently...
How ironic that the person who has been resentful and longing for so long is the one who sacrificed for himself...
It is undeniable that until now... I still love that careful and hard-working woman...
Bailuo, I haven't told you yet, the secret I want to tell you: the so-called "new love" is actually my sister.
Three weeks later, at Bailuo's funeral, Lan Tianhua, dressed in black, stood in front of Bailuo's photo, and the memories of his youth emerged in his mind.
The sour liquid soaked the collar, and the past... still passed.
Luo Xiaoyi was also invited and put on the necklace for Baino again in front of Baino's body.
What a...fool!
From then on, there was no longer Baino in Luo Xiaoyi's world, and there would never be... Luo Xiaoyi again.
On the third day after Bainuo's death, someone discovered Luo Xiaoyi's body and last words in Luo Xiaoyi's new home. (In fact, it was Luo Xiaoyi who committed suicide and wanted to die in love with Bainuo)
His last words were just one sentence: I will be with you until the end of your life.
Life is always reincarnated in the joys and sorrows of separation and separation. When thousands of sails pass by, a piece of paper is filled with tenderness, like a beautiful flower, and its petals are full of ties. On the plain paper of life, the beautiful picture of an adult is smeared for the first time.
——by Luo Xiaoyi
ps: I would like to thank the master for his great help in plotting this chapter. (To be continued)