Seeing his mother's thoughts like this, Zhou Sheng felt that his entire being was gloomy. He didn't understand. Although he didn't please them much at home, at least he still did the work he was supposed to do. But his eldest brother
If he can hide, he will hide, and if he can delay, he will delay. If he can't hide anymore, he will rely on others. In short, it is other people's fault that he doesn't work. He always has a reason and all kinds of excuses.
It allows oneself to avoid work and avoid responsibilities.
For such an elder brother, Zhou Sheng actually dislikes him from the bottom of his heart. The thought that comes to his mind every day is nothing more than to look at other people's displeasure. Of course, the most important thing is to look at Zhou Zheng. After all, in this family, he is in the same position as him.
The one with the same status is Zhou Sheng, so in the heart of Zhou Sheng’s eldest brother
Here, I always felt that Zhou Sheng was born to collect debts, and he came here specifically to collect debts. Even Zhou Sheng would directly divide his own property, so Zhou Sheng was disliked in various ways. Later, his little wife was also involved.
Fanning the wind in his ears, his eyes became colder and colder every time he saw Zhou Sheng.
Zhou Sheng saw all this, but he didn't know how to react. After all, ever since he was sensible, his eldest brother always looked at him with something else in his eyes. It seemed that he could rarely see anything from him.
Get something positive.
In addition to the obvious disgust for himself, his eldest brother also had more thoughts in his mind, that is, how to turn the things at home into his. There were even many times when Zhou Sheng even saw from his eldest brother's heart how to turn other people's things into his own.
Things become your own.
Every time at this time, Zhou Sheng is a little worried that his eldest brother will take a detour and do something wrong. Fortunately, his eldest brother still knows how to measure, and he just thinks about it secretly in his heart and does not put it into practice.
Action, at least Zhou Sheng did not see it.
So compared to his eldest brother, Zhou Sheng never felt that the things he did at home were not as good as his eldest brother. But every time he saw his mother and felt that he was not as good as his eldest brother, he felt very desperate.
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Is there something wrong with his mother's eyes? He can't see his dedication and efforts, and he can't see that he is doing his best to work at home. It's fine if he can't see these performances of his own, but she is even more...
I can't see my eldest brother being lazy and playing tricks.
My mother can't see these things either. Not only can she not see her eldest brother hiding around, she can't see him hiding things and eating them secretly, or moving them into his own house.
And often when Zhou Sheng had conflicts with his eldest brother, his mother always felt that there was something wrong with her, that she was wrong, that she was not respectful enough and did not respect his eldest brother.
But in fact, among the things that his eldest brother has done, which one can be shown off in front of others, or recognized by others, is worthy of Zhou Sheng's respect. Regarding this point, Zhou Sheng also feels that,
I guess I will never get the appreciation from my mother and eldest brother in this life.
In the past, Zhou Sheng had fantasized about whether he could get recognition and praise from his mother or others after doing well, but this idea has long since been slowly given up. No matter what he did, it always seemed wrong.
Even if he does it perfectly, others can completely ignore it, as if those things will be made by themselves, or those workers will complete them by themselves, so what he does is just superfluous.
If his father, who was drunk every day, looked at him like this, Zhou Sheng would not be too uncomfortable. After all, almost everyone is dispensable to his father. The only thing that cannot be missing is the 9 in his cup.
Whenever he doesn't have wine, he will lose his temper and do Spanish things at home. He did what he did yesterday. In short, he can calm down after knowing that he has to drink wine.
In fact, more than once, Zhou Sheng heard his mother curse his father in private, hoping that he could return to the West as soon as possible. After all, a person like him who drank every day brought a lot of burden to the family. Originally, according to their
The family has considered this situation, and there is no burden. They opened a small shop in the county town. It should be a well-off family. However, because my father is addicted to alcohol, he can't live without this drink for a day, so he owes him a lot of money.
There are so many Jiuzhaigou, so the life of the family cannot be too wealthy.
But even if you have to raise such an alcoholic, it won't be like this. It's just that what's wrong with the people in the family is that everyone is thinking about their own things and don't even think about doing anything for the family. Instead, they feel that they
The calculations made by those stupid people are actually for the good of the family, so whenever they say anything, they always think that they have contributed to the family.
He has given him so much love and reasons, but in fact, in real terms, he has done nothing. This shop is just left by his ancestors, and it is not earned by them. And they, who look after the shop, run it slowly.
They are in such a state of decline that it can only be said that they have failed to manage their business properly. The property passed down from their ancestors is almost gone. What contribution have they made to this family?
Naturally, I never feel that I have done anything for this family in my life. In fact, the best I can do is to do my best to be a helper in the family. As for shop management, etc., these determine the livelihood of the family.
, even if he wanted to intervene, he wouldn't have the chance.
But how can I put it, Zhou Sheng still knows very clearly what he has sacrificed, so although he has never accused others, and the words he said are so high-sounding, he knows in his heart that what these people say is not at all
It's unbelievable, but I have never made any great contribution to my family, so he feels that there is no essential difference between himself and those people, so naturally he will not use this to attack others.
This is also the place where Zhong Sheng is incompatible with other members of his family. He can see clearly. He seems to be able to look at the entire problem from the perspective of a third person. He can clearly realize how much he has paid and what he should do.
How much reward will he get? Do he have the right to express his opinion on this matter? Do he have the right to blame others? Because he has not done a good job, many things are weighing on his heart, but he will not say it.
go out.
Although Zhou Sheng would not use the reasons in his mind to accuse others or refute others, Zhou Sheng did not know that his eyes often betrayed himself.