After hitting the wall a few times, the expresser felt a little disheartened. He really didn't expect that he couldn't reach the big world, and he couldn't even reach such a small family. Master Jia once doubted his life.
I don’t know what the point of working hard and fighting for so long is.
Is it just to be able to get a false name and take some tests to prove an unfounded fame? With this title more than ten years ago, it should not be said that a few years ago, one could directly become an official. However, now that he has become a citizen, he
But he can only remain on the bench, unable to hold any official position.
It was a holiday, and of course I was really depressed, so I had no choice but to go to a temple outside the city to burn incense. Of course, the depressed family didn’t want to go to the bustling scenes of ordinary people and make themselves even more upset.
He walked directly to the mountain behind the temple and quietly looked at the scenery in front of him in a quiet place in the bamboo forest. So he looked at the quiet scenery in front of him, but in fact, Fanfan in his heart did not diminish at all, and he was still thinking about himself.
Where is the way out?
That is when the Canadian man is full of thoughts and no one can explain his sorrow, but the expression of life comes faintly. The man originally wanted to avoid these lives, but now he feels that he is simply a loser in life. He
He doesn't know where his way out is. He feels that all his efforts have been in vain, so what he hates most now is meeting other people. He always feels that they are looking at him.
He always had that strange look in his eyes, the look that looked at him was like the contemptuous look of someone who was a loser. He really couldn't stand that look, so when he heard someone's voice coming, he
Instinctively, I wanted to go around the woods to escape, and I was even more depressed. It was too much to hide in such a remote place, and still encounter people.
His family felt even more uncomfortable. When he was at home, his father and mother treated him with groans. Judging from his sad face, it seemed that his son was not bringing glory to them, not bringing glory to their ancestors, but finding them a son.
Big trouble.
This can’t be blamed on Mr. Jia’s parents. After all, in their opinion, their sons are so diligent and talented, which has provided them with a way to change their social origins, allowing them to truly get rid of the lowly and lowly status of businessmen.
, but their son was unable to obtain an official position because of what he was doing, which made them feel a lifelong regret.
This is how people get to Longwangshu, and what they get is always something they don't cherish. In fact, when they learned that Mr. Jia passed the exam, his father and mother felt that they could go to death in history. They were so happy that they felt that they
It is like cultivating a genius. They are worthy of their ancestors. Now if they go to the underground to meet their parents and ancestors, they will answer with their chests and heads held high. They are worthy of everyone.
But gradually, as the joy slowly subsided, the couple felt that it was too depressing for their son, who was so outstanding, to be unable to show off his power and talents in the officialdom. This was like having a smooth future.
Qiancheng believers wanted to worship Buddha at the foot of the mountain. They climbed up step by step from the foot of the mountain until they reached the door of the Big Bear Hall. However, they stopped at the last step and could not go any further. The feeling was simply oppressive.
To die.
So today, the mentality of the old couple has undergone a complete change. From the beginning, they were purely happy. They were extremely happy, and gradually, they turned into aggrieved, a little aggrieved, and gradually their hearts were filled with aggrievedness.
Qu, so they watch it at home now
When they see their own son, when they see their outstanding son, they all feel very uncomfortable and depressed, so the faces of the two of them are naturally not much better. Faced with such parents' faces, of course the fake adults are there.
I can't stay at home.
He felt very uncomfortable in his heart. He had completely put down his self-esteem and dignity. He had no principles. It could be said that he had given up on himself and all the things he respected and cherished the most. Then he could be said to have burned his boat.
Every city, every generation
Post a post at the door of his home, say good things in the 3rd way, let those vulgar servants, the 4th ones he once completely despised, step on his head, let those servants look at him with contempt and endure it, so
What a humiliation, but in the end I didn't earn a way out for myself.
It can be said that such a blow almost destroyed all Mr. Jia's long-held beliefs. He knew that staying at home would not do any good. Seeing the appearance of his parents, he didn't know what to say. Now
He was already miserable enough, but when he saw the long expressions on his parents' faces, he felt like he was
It seemed that he had done something terribly wrong. He had no choice but to escape from home, and there was no other place. If he drank with his classmates, he would probably be more worried than ever. After all, his compatriots
They were all in a similar situation to him. Everyone was full of complaints and had nowhere to vent their frustrations.
So what is Mr. Jia most worried about now? Of course he sees other people. He doesn't want those people to see his frustrated look. Although he tries his best to hide it, no one knows what is happening in front of him.
The situation, even ordinary people know, it is useless to study now. Anyway, you may not be able to become an official after you study. It doesn't matter. In fact, you have no way to enter the officialdom. Under such circumstances, it can be said that in those years
The writing style was at its lowest.
So when Mr. Jia, who rarely went out and wanted to relax, heard someone's voice coming from him, his first instinct was of course to avoid it. But the voice came faster than he expected. There was nothing he could do about it, and the Canadians also
He could only barely hide behind the dense bamboos.
It was discovered that the group of people who conveyed the voice had appeared outside the bamboo forest, and it was difficult for him to move again at this time. If he made any movement, it would be heard as if he was shady.
From the perspective of Mr. Jia, who is currently sensitive, he does not want to be consulted by anyone.
In fact, Mr. Jia tried to avoid it but failed, but it was the biggest opportunity in his life. It was by relying on this chance encounter that he found a smooth road to officialdom. This is also the reason Mr. Jia has always