It was already three or four o'clock in the night.
Yang Jianguang was also tired of crying, so he returned to his little bed, wrapped in a thin quilt, and curled up into a ball.
Listening to the sound of water dripping from the eaves outside, Yang Jianguang did not feel sleepy at all.
If possible, he wished he could go through this painful time as soon as he closed his eyes and return to the house he finally bought.
There is his wife Zhang Juan, who loves him deeply, and his son, who is smart and cute and has already entered junior high school with good grades.
The night wind whistling outside the window seemed to tell him the fact that he could never go back. Those who loved him and those he loved deeply could not go back.
This goddamn bitch, it wasn't enough that he had harmed him for decades. After he finally climbed out of the quagmire of poverty, he still wanted to drag him down with shamelessness.
Thinking of this, Yang Jianguang burst into tears at some point.
For most people, rebirth is wonderful, it can make up for regrets, pick up the flowers in the morning and regain the beauty of childhood.
But for Yang Jianguang, going back to the past is not good at all. It will undoubtedly give up the beautiful and warm days that he has worked so hard for, and let him go back to this kind of torment all over again.
He is now 17 years old and studying in high school. His family is heavily in debt and cannot even pay for his tuition fees for the next semester.
Perhaps because of his poverty, Yang Jianguang studied extremely hard. In the end, to everyone's surprise, he managed to get into the key No. 1 middle school in the county.
Then came the expensive tuition fees. He was about to enter his senior year of high school, and 2,000 yuan a semester was already an astronomical figure for this family.
And it was precisely because the mother could not come up with the money that she was so anxious that she quarreled with the father, which led to a physical fight.
Thinking of this, Yang Jianguang huddled together in pain.
This kind of pain was so painful that he couldn't change it, and he had to go through it again even though he was lingering on his last breath.
And Yang Jianguang knew that the Yang family's embarrassment was not the end.
In order to support her schooling, the family contracted several times the amount of paddy fields. Perhaps my mother's health was weakened during this period of time when she went out early and came back late.
Then in the next few years, my mother became pregnant unexpectedly, and her body was exhausted when she gave birth to a younger brother who suffered heavy bleeding. After the birth, her body could no longer bear the burden, and her liver shrank to the size of a fist.
The family had no money for treatment, let alone the cost of surgery, which cost hundreds of thousands. My father had begged all his relatives but could not get over the huge problem.
In the end, the doctor has concluded that if the mother does not undergo surgery, the hepatitis B will soon become advanced and she will not live more than two years.
But like a miracle, my mother suffered from heavy bleeding every three days and lost weight from 120 pounds to 80 pounds, but she still survived and even worked hard for the family every day.
Others said that God opened his eyes, but only Yang Jianguang understood. This was not a miracle. It was because my mother did not dare to die at all. It was her mother's strong willpower that defeated death.
The mother was worried that if she left, he, who was still in college, and his little brother who was still waiting for food would not be able to survive. So she couldn't die, she didn't dare to die!
In order to prevent their brothers from seeing her miserable state, her mother would rather turn her face sallow, hide in the corner and cry bitterly rather than die like this.
Even when Yang Jianguang was studying in college abroad, his mother was seriously ill and hospitalized several times without notifying him.
Unfortunately, by the time Yang Jianguang worked hard to earn money and gained the ability, his mother's illness had already reached an advanced stage and there was no treatment at all!
He could only watch his mother suffer day and night, escaping from this reality and sending some supplements that had no effect in vain, but there was no way to help his mother at all!
Thinking of this, Yang Jianguang's tears once again streaked across his face. He was ashamed to be the son of a human being.
Even though she criticized her father a lot, her mother had never done anything wrong with this family her whole life.
But as a son, he could only watch his mother live in pain all her life.
No, he must change everything.
For the sake of his mother, for the mother who lived in such pain in her previous life to enjoy herself, how could he be so cowardly to escape from all this!
Recalling how his mother was treated as a plague god by the villagers, Yang Jianguang clenched his fists and dug his nails into his flesh without even realizing it.
God sent him back to this era. He must change and let his mother live a good life!
Thinking of this, Yang Jianguang smiled bitterly.
Is it possible that God gave me a new life just to make up for the guilt of my parents?
That night, Yang Jianguang thought a lot.
Whenever the beautiful and gentle appearance of his wife and the increasingly steady face of his son flashed through his mind, Yang Jianguang's heart couldn't help but feel severe pain.
I don’t know when my face burst into tears.
Juan'er, Xiaoyu, I'm sorry, I can't stay with you anymore.
I don't know how much time passed, but the crow of chickens started to sound outside, and the sky started to get brighter outside.
About four or five o'clock.
There was a rustling sound outside, and with a creak, the parents' room was opened.
Yang Jianguang got up from the bed and put on a pair of yellow slippers with a row of black characters "happiness 668" printed on them, shining in the bright sky.
After groping his way to the corner according to his memory, Yang Jianguang pulled open the nylon rope. With a click, the dazzling yellow light suddenly turned on.
His eyes, which had not slept all night, were so irritated that they almost shed tears. Yang Jianguang hurriedly stretched out his hand to block his eyes.
, pushed open the door to the room, and saw his father picking up a shovel from the corner and getting ready to go out.
"Dad, why don't you sleep more?" Standing at the door of the room, Yang Jianguang shouted in a hoarse voice.
"No more sleep."
Perhaps because he felt guilty about what happened last night, his father smiled at Yang Jianguang and put the shovel on his shoulder.
"Your mother hasn't woken up yet. If it's any later, the water in the ditch will be snatched by others. Go to bed quickly."
With that said, my father walked out.
Seeing this, Yang Jianguang also returned to the room, picked up the red vest from the bed and put it on. He picked up the dirty green-soled rubber shoes from the bottom of the bed and put them on his feet. He stamped his feet on the spot to get used to the hard feeling.
, then stood up and walked outside.
Yang Jianguang walked out of the yard and searched for a shovel for a long time but couldn't find it. Finally he gave up and picked up a hoe that his mother usually used, put it on his shoulder and walked out.
In the 1990s, most of the rural areas were still one-story brick houses. Because of the rain last night, the roads became extremely messy.
Yang Jianguang stepped on the mud and walked towards the location of his farm in his memory.
Along the way, Yang Jianguang had to admit that he had become unfamiliar with this road that would be paved with cement in the future. Before walking very far, a thick piece of yellow mud had already stuck to his green rubber shoes.
Standing on the ridge of the field, Yang Jianguang looked towards the endless fields in front of him.
The endless paddy field has just been planted with green seedlings, but there is not much water in the field.
In the distance, Yang Jianguang's father was shoveling away the soil on the field ridge and blocking the ditch until the water in the ditch was completely blocked near his paddy field. His father carried the shovel and walked all the way to the front of the ditch, stopping from time to time.
Take a step forward and dig out the mud blocking other people's houses.
Farming depends on the weather, especially for crops like rice, which cannot survive without water.
There are no big reservoirs near Yangcun, but paddy fields are the most abundant in the nearby villages.
As a result, there is usually a serious water shortage in the fields. Sometimes, when the competition for water becomes fierce, fights will break out.
After a hard rain last night, there was not much water left in the ditch in the early morning, and it still couldn't feed so many seedlings.
The seedlings in the fields are the lifeblood of the family and are much more valuable than money.
Yang Jianguang was silent for a while, looked around, dropped the hoe on his back, picked up the water spoon on the field ridge not far away, then took off his green rubber shoes and jumped into the ditch behind.
The water spoon is a common tool in rural areas. It has a long handle and the end is like a half-cut cylinder. When the fields were short of water when he was a child, Yang Jianguang often used the water spoon to scoop water from the fields.
Sometimes when there is no water in the ditch, I have to scoop water from the ditch with water to the ditch in my field all night long.
Yang Jianguang stepped hard on the mud in the ditch. He put his left hand in front of him and held the back end of the long water spoon handle with his right hand. Then he laboriously scooped the water in the ditch into the fields one ladle at a time.
It was not until 8 or 9 o'clock in the morning that the water in the more than one acre field was almost full. Yang Jianguang threw the water spoon on the field ridge, grabbed a handful of grass and stepped onto the field ridge.
After leaving the ditch, Yang Jianguang discovered a bulging leech on his thigh.
Looking at this leech that still refused to let go after drinking a lot of his own blood, Yang Jianguang smiled inexplicably.
According to the local dialect of Yang Jianguang, leeches are called mama level, and they are extremely common in rural areas in the south. They look disgusting, and they bite on the soles of feet when people are not paying attention while doing farm work in the fields.
In his memory, his mother scared him and even told a story. So-and-so was playing in the field without good hygiene, and a leech got into his stomach. Then one day, he complained that his head was itchy, and he washed his hair more and more.
The itchier became more and more. His mother came over curiously and scratched her hair. There was already a dense mass of leeches under her hair.
This story is so horrifying that Yang Jianguang would get goosebumps every time he saw leeches when he was a child. He was deeply afraid that a leech would crawl into his mouth while he was not paying attention and drink blood from his stomach.
A bellyful of leeches proliferated.
Looking back on this story now, Yang Jianguang realized that his mother probably made it up to scare him because she disliked him for sitting on the edge of the field and being unable to wash himself in the mud every time after planting rice seedlings.
Shaking his head, Yang Jianguang stretched out his hand and patted the leech repeatedly. The black and fat leech was shaken off and fell to the field ridge.
When a leech bites you, you can't pull it out, you can only slap the flesh on it to shake it off.
Because the part of the body where the leech is sucked into the flesh cannot be pulled out, but it will easily break into two parts.
Although I don’t know if leaving a piece of it in the flesh will lead to a belly full of leeches as my mother said, it is always a disgusting thing to leave a piece of leech body in your body.
After doing all this, when Yang Jianguang left, he pulled out a piece of grass, picked up the squirming leech on the field ridge, and threw it on a large rock that was exposed to the sun. Then he left with satisfaction.
His feet were too wet to wear shoes, so Yang Jianguang walked toward home with his green rubber shoes in one hand and a hoe in the other.
Just when I was about to get home, there was a burst of rapid swearing from the door of my house.
Yang Jianguang was stunned in his steps, and listened with his ears tilted. When he heard his mother's voice, his eyes instantly turned red, and he rushed home without risking his life, carrying a hoe.