I began to know what work is, what is off work, what human beings are...Those things, I don't know why, I have a familiar feeling.
It was as if I had experienced it before.
Sometimes, I would have a doubt about where I came from... Later, not only when Zhuge opened that small frame, I was able to see more things.
I started to come into contact with other things similar to me... I started to know what data is, and I started to know what I am.
Game characters, game characters created by users.
As long as I am connected to the Internet, I can feel that there are a large number of characters like me... I try to communicate with these characters, I want to talk to them, that way, when I can't see Zhuge, I won't feel
To boredom.
Yes, I'm starting to know what boredom is.
However, no matter how much I called, they ignored me... They seemed to be different from me.
In the other world on the screen, it seems that I am the only one that exists... I really want to leave this world, and I don’t want to be shrouded in darkness again.
I really want to see Zhuge... I really want to chat with Zhuge, even though I know that I can only express it in the words of those written programs.
But for some reason, I felt that Zhuge knew it. Even if it was just words from the program, Zhuge regarded me as one of his kind.
If this is the case, even if the time we can meet each day is limited, even if we have to face those darkness again after each meeting... Even if I know, maybe Zhuge will be like other users that day,
If you uninstall me...
Even if there is such a day, as long as now...as long as now...I am willing to wait in the darkness.
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I thought that my life would continue like this, until that day, I could no longer see Zhuge...he uninstalled me.
But I didn't expect that this day would come suddenly.
Once again, I saw the screen opening with anticipation... But this time, the person I saw was not Zhuge?
Who is he? Why not Zhuge? Where is Zhuge?
I saw the smile of this strange man outside the screen... I hate this smile. He looked at me like a clown.
That kind of joking smile.
Don't move... That was Zhuge's gift to me... Don't move... Please don't move!
Stop...this is the scene where Zhuge and I go together, stop!!
delete?
I suddenly realized a kind of fear, looking at the delete option that appeared in front of me...Delete?
Zhuge, where are you... I miss you so much, I seem to want to see you...
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"I want Nanako to come back to me. I am willing to give everything I have, everything...my soul."
It's Zhuge's voice.
Finally, once again, Zhuge could be seen again.
This time, it's different!
This time, I was away from the screen! This time, I was able to grab his hands, broad, warm hands!
Great, really great, to be able to come to Zhuge's world!
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Although, I still have to wait for some time every day to see Zhuge, and even the waiting time is much longer than before through the screen. But as long as he is here, such a real contact, I can tell that there was no way in the past. What I said... is really great.
"Shall we go out for a walk this weekend?"
I can't even describe my feelings at that time... In the real sense, my first date with Zhuge was no longer a moving scene across the screen... It was no longer a virtual one that only I could see. Scene scenery.
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This idiot...can't hold my hand? He's obviously only so skilled in the game...
However, this is enough, and there will definitely be many, many more opportunities in the future.
I think so.
I really think so.
It's just...my secret was discovered.
Those sudden sprays of water splashed on my body, and I could immediately feel some of my secrets that I had not been able to confess to Zhuge.
I ran away from Zhuge, I ran away desperately. Soon after I came to this world, I knew that there was no way for me to touch water. As long as I touched it, my body would show signs of melting. You need to wait for the body to dry completely before it can return to its original appearance.
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I knew that Zhuge might have seen me wiping my body. I knew that he took me back without saying anything more, and then left in a panic.
I know……
But I imagine Zhuge will not come back.
I think so.
Finally, I waited until Zhuge came back. I saw the change in his face... I didn't know what to do. I tried hard to behave as usual, I wanted to be close to him.
"Don't!"
He left...this time, right in front of me, carrying me on his back, running away desperately, no matter how much I called.
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Me, I could only watch him silently downstairs at first...I followed him, behind him.
I saw that Zhuge no longer raised his head, saw that he was walking without energy, and saw that there was no longer a smile on his face.
I quietly walked back to his house, and I packed up everything about him...I restored everything to its original appearance.
I sat on the floor by myself, sitting on the floor as usual waiting for him to come back... But how many times did I hope that Zhuge would not open the door.
In this case, I think... I will wait until he comes back.
But I know...I am always different from him.
I know many, many things... Even if Zhuge doesn't mind, even if... I am still not a real person. I can't give him something that a real woman can give him.
"Aren't you tired?"
Suddenly one day, a strange man appeared in front of me. He was wearing black clothes and a clown mask... I felt scared at first, but this strange guy didn't do anything to me.
He is very polite and can even be called a gentleman.
He suddenly appeared in this room and suddenly asked me such a question. I didn't know how to answer his question.
Aren't you tired?
I'm asking myself this question too.
Later I said: "If I can't stay quietly in this place, I... I have no place to go."
He suddenly said: "There is a clerk in my shop. He recently got me a customer... But this clerk of mine is actually a newbie and doesn't understand anything. He seems to have got the wrong person."
I still don't know what he's talking about, but I don't feel he has any malicious intentions... I might also want to find someone to chat with.
"What attracted him was not the guest he thought he was...but the new guest who took him with him, you."
"I?"
"If you need anything, you can call me. Dear guest, no matter what your wish is, as long as..."
After leaving such an inexplicable statement, this strange guy left a black card in front of me, and then disappeared from my face.
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It's Zhuge!
Where is he!
There he was... for me, he stood on the stage that attracted everyone's attention! On the stage, he mercilessly peeled off his own heart layer by layer, tearing himself to pieces.
I covered my mouth with both hands... I thought I should want to cry, but I couldn't help crying.
My body... doesn't have that kind of thing!
How much I want, how much I hope, to tell him that I forgive you...I won't blame you at all...I want to see you!
I really want to think about it...
But I couldn't even shed tears!
I simply can't do it...I, I'm not a human being. I can't be like an ordinary human being. Zhuge and I...
I really want to see him.
I really...want to see him.
Finally, the black card suddenly burned in front of me... I saw a wooden door and heard the sound of a bell.
I heard the weird man who had appeared before say: "Welcome."
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Um……
Zhuge looked up at the small iron window on the wall.
After that day, he did not see Nanako again. Although he rushed back to his rental house from the TV station, he still could not see Nanako.
He saw the TV that was not turned off, but Nanako was still not here.
Still haven't gotten Nanako's forgiveness? Zhuge smiled bitterly, not knowing how he spent that night. The next day, some people came to Zhuge's rental house.
Chen Jiaming came with someone... Zhuge didn't say anything and followed him quietly to the police station.
This guy called the police mercilessly and wanted to sue him... Zhuge didn't even care that this guy was gnashing his teeth and cursing in anger, he just felt that his punches and kicks were very satisfying. Why did he feel so good at that moment?
How about one more shot?
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I won't give up like this.
If I can't forgive you in one day, then two days, three days... this life.
Taking a deep breath, Zhuge looked at the blue sky outside the small iron window of the detention room. There was nothing confusing, only firm thoughts in his heart.
There is no need to be depressed... there is no right to be depressed before Nanako's forgiveness is obtained.
"Zhuge Cong, you can go out! Someone will come to bail you out, but you should be careful not to wander around and wait for the court to summon you."
Who will bail himself out?
Zhuge was stunned for a moment, wondering if he would alert his parents who were still back home? That would be a really troublesome thing.
He walked out dejectedly, worrying about how he should explain to his parents... maybe he would be scolded? After all, he had done such a shameful thing.
However.
Not his parents... Who is the person waiting outside the door?
Wearing a big white hat and a plain dress, the person standing there quietly...who is it?
