Chapter 169: You give birth to me, but I am not born
In particular, this method of cultivating a sword spirit is very similar to schizophrenia or multiple personalities in reality. Due to some unavoidable reasons, another brand-new consciousness suddenly appeared in her mind, and she led her life with this consciousness.
a period of time.
After final treatment, her original consciousness returned and took over again. At this time, I am afraid everyone she knows will be happy for her!
From my standpoint and perspective, it seems that I shouldn’t think so, after all, this original her is truly unfamiliar to me.
But the fact is that when we use our own likes and dislikes to interfere and influence and control other people's lives, we are actually biased.
No matter which choice you make, it will be unfair to the other person. Maybe complete integration is the best choice!
It's like...a person has finally grown up!
Aren't the stages she experienced while growing up just like each other's consciousness?
Some will eventually be forgotten!
Some of them will definitely be unfamiliar!
Some will inevitably be lost!
The so-called pains and costs of growing up are nothing more than this!
In this way, everything that the little-tailed elf Jingjing once sensed, even if it has become a part of her memory, is probably just scratching the surface for her, no longer real, and losing its authenticity.
I really don’t know if I will see her again one day - the one who always likes to stick to me in my memory!
Faced with this knot that I couldn't get around no matter what, I felt a little overwhelmed for a moment and decided to change the topic. After all, there was still a problem that had been bothering me for a longer time.
"Tell me about my father!" I said, completely giving up on the issue, which had always made me feel a little heavy.
"this……"
Suddenly, Yan Jing stopped laughing, but instantly became serious, and said seriously: "Actually, I have never really seen him!"
"What!" Yan Jing's words always shock people, and this statement gave me another surprise.
You know, when I asked the castle owner more than once, he said the same thing, that he had never really met my father.
"He doesn't talk much. Every time he appears, he is wrapped in a hazy layer of divine brilliance. It's hard to see through or see through. It's so helpless!"
Jingjing sighed: "I also want to see his true face."
"He is very powerful, and the demon ancestor outside is not even worthy of carrying his shoes! Don't listen to what it says about the contract. In your father's eyes, it may just be a useful one because of some special places unknown to us.
It’s just a chess piece.”
"Before you gave birth to me, you were gone before I gave birth to you. I wish I could not have been born at the same time, but I will be happy with you every day!"
Suddenly, Yan Jing began to recite a poem for no apparent reason. Her expression and tone made her feel as if she really had a lover who couldn't be together and was heartbroken.
If I didn't know her nature, I would have been deceived by her, it's so true.
"Brother Xiaotian, you don't know that your father is so good! If possible, I believe that every woman who sees him will want to be his lover. Even me, who has always been stoic, is inexplicably moved.
Got this ordinary heart.”
Jingjing acted with an exaggerated expression. When she saw my face getting darker and darker, she smiled and said: "Xiaotian, don't be angry! We all have our own affairs. You call me mom, and I call you brother."
!”
"Oh, please don't do anything! Brother Xiaotian has loved Yanjing the most since he was a child... Wuwuwu..."
Seeing that I was about to go berserk, Yan Jing hurriedly changed her words: "Besides, isn't it true? I was just joking!"
"But your father is so outstanding. He is already so heart-warming even before he has actually met him. If he really met him, he would probably fall to the ground."
"Tell me the important point!" I said impatiently as I saw such exaggerated words coming out of her mouth.
"Back then, when he retrieved the damaged Blood-devouring Madness and set about setting up the sword-raising pond, I wasn't even born yet."
"Back then, when I was finally born with spiritual wisdom, he only sent you, and he didn't show up right away!"
"Back then, when he finally appeared, I was already asleep, and another me was being born! At that time, it should have been the moment when Dongfang won and I committed suicide."
"It seems that there is only one person who has really seen him, and that is Yaoyao!"
"But Yaoyao was just a baby not much older than you at that time, and she doesn't even remember what happened back then!"
"Hahaha..." Jingjing said and laughed, as if teasing me like this was really a happy thing.
But then she felt something was wrong, and hurriedly reached out to cover her mouth, looking at me in surprise.
My performance was so calm, as if I knew the result in advance.
I don’t know why I have such an attitude, maybe it’s because deep down in my heart I no longer have any expectations for my so-called father who is so arrogant and powerful!
In fact, I know that I have resentment in my heart! I always have!
I really can't understand, even if I am left here alone and left to fend for myself, I will accept it.
But with his method, is it so difficult that he really can't leave even a few warm words or a few seconds of tender images?
What is he worried about? Is the enemy really so powerful that he needs to be so cautious?
At this moment, I felt particularly lonely. I couldn't help but look back at Yaoyao, only to find that she still claimed that she had not come out of the purple peach blossom.
I'm thinking that until now, she is probably the only person in the world who can make me feel warm!
Fortunately she didn't wake up just now, otherwise how sad it would be for her to know the truth about the identity of the castle owner!
"Xiaotian, Xiaotian, brother Xiaotian...you're ignoring me again!" Suddenly, Linjing stretched out her hand and waved it in front of my eyes, saying, "Are you worried about Yaoyao? Don't worry, as a swordsman
Ling I can feel her state after swallowing the purple fruit, Yaoyao is fine."
"Thank you! Jingjing!" I smiled.
At this moment, my heart felt relaxed, as if I had let go of everything in this moment, no longer entangled in the past, no longer obsessed with the past.
"What? Did I hear you correctly? You said thank you to me? Brother Xiaotian actually said thank you to me?"
Jingjing suddenly jumped up and squatted in front of me, looking at me curiously.
"Yes! Thank you!" I smiled and nodded.
I believe that I must be particularly good-looking, handsome and full of elegance at this moment.
I think I can keep this action and expression forever.
But as soon as I finished speaking, I quickly turned my head away and covered my face...
"Okay! I said what's going on! Brother Xiaotian, you are playing tricks on me, and you actually start to dislike me!" Jingjing feigned anger, and was very dissatisfied with my behavior just now, like I was avoiding snakes and scorpions.
But...how can I express the real pain in my heart right now to her face? (To be continued)