Many readers found it a bit incredible after reading the testimonials given a few days ago.
Some readers even imagined that I am a knowledgeable and almost perfect person. Some people even thought that I was a person with strong self-confidence, but they did not expect that I am a person with extremely low self-esteem.
In the more than 30 years since I was born to today, the people I have been with day and night in real life hate me to the extreme.
The extent is about ten times the level of ostracism suffered by the heroine of "Youth". Then you can explain it.
Regardless of primary school, middle school, university, or the workplace, more than 95% of the people I spend time with all hate me. Even my parents do it just because I am their child. If not, they would probably hate me.
Very powerful.
I remember seeing a news article last year about a child who was scolded by his mother when he drove to an overpass and then jumped off the bridge. I felt the same way at the time because I was also like this. It was about a kilometer away and it took half an hour to get home.
The journey can scold me all the way home. Of course, I can't commit suicide, but I can completely understand the child's mood.
Of course, it is indeed my own fault for being treated like this. When I was a student, my emotional intelligence was extremely low, and I did many things that are so speechless when I think about it now. As a result, I was ostracized and subjected to physical and verbal violence. Although I did not have any
The subjective and malicious harm to others, but unconscious and indirect words have also offended countless people. The stupidest thing is that I actually took the initiative to report to my deskmate once. So I hate school violence in my heart.
People who have experienced school violence don't know how painful it is.
Another stupidity of mine is that I never know how to be flexible and turn around when doing things. I can only do a fixed procedure of work. Once the work needs to be changed, I am always too late to react. In addition, I once did not know how to observe the surrounding environment, or even understand the surrounding environment.
My indifference to things makes many people unable to understand why I don't know anything that is closely related to my career.
Another reason is that I have a very serious body odor (you see, I am the same as the heroine of Youth). You can imagine the rejection He Xiaoping received in the movie about this issue. Even if I clean my body and change clothes, sometimes
The odor will return throughout the day. At the same time, I also have severe allergic rhinitis, which causes me to sniff and blow my nose for a long time. The combination of these two reasons is regarded as a mobile bacterial reservoir that is hated by gods and ghosts. I
My colleagues said that being in the same place as me was like being in hell.
At work, because I don’t care about other things other than my own work, and because my work procedures are too rigid, I always make mistakes when the work process changes, resulting in a high error rate. Therefore, I am subject to the same problems in the office as when I was a student.
The leaders and colleagues hate the pain and are regarded as incompetent and incompetent at work.
When I watched "Youth", I thought that many of He Xiaoping's actions were indeed wrong, but was it too painful to be ostracized by such a collective? She finally refused the honor of dancing on stage. Apart from Liu Feng's incident, was it
Is it a kind of self-exile that completely gives up on getting good reviews from others (it’s really a pity that the solo dance scene of the heroine was deleted from the movie, I recommend everyone to watch it)?
I guess if my boss and colleagues read this article, they will say that it is insulting for the young heroine to be compared with me. Well, it will definitely be the case.
I didn't mean any subjective harm, but it still caused harm to others.
People in the workplace hate me to the point where they wish I had never been born.
My mother’s first child was a daughter. She aborted her older sister because of her studies. She took a lot of supplements to conceive me. So I often think that if my mother gave birth to a daughter, she might be a daughter.
A child who is loved by everyone like my mother will not be like me, who has never received positive comments from anyone since he was born.
I am seriously reflecting on my past, and then I really want to stop being so disgusted by others, but this is really not an easy thing. My rhinitis and odor are often difficult to control, and even if I want to
To do a good job, you are often too accustomed to rigid work routines and often make mistakes. It is really painful to really want to do something well but not be able to do it well no matter what.
Many people may say that my books are very good. But many book fans who have met me more often in real life will eventually leave me. Positive reviews that can only be built on virtual networks are not good for me.
Words are like flowers in the mirror and the moon in the water.
I only have two ideas now, and strive to transform myself in my work and life so that I can no longer be hated by others.
At the same time, I hope I can become a great god. Don’t look at everyone calling me a great god. I don’t even have a high-quality book, and I can’t even be ranked in the top 20 of the suspense 24-hour best-selling list. How can I be considered a great god?
I'm not a great god.
I'm just a loser in life.
But I want to win, I really want to win... I don’t want my life to be wasted like this. I am already thirty, and I don’t want the people who come to my memorial service to say this from time to time when I die of old age.
Thinking about how I was an alien that they hated in the past...
