From March to most of April, the doomsday updates basically consisted of three days of fishing and two days of drying the net, with long pauses and short updates.
Although no one talks or urges me, I am more aware than anyone else of this slowness in updating, and I know it is very irresponsible.
In addition to the reason for digging through old articles to find pitfalls, there is actually another reason that I have been unwilling to say... But I have been looking at my own updates on Shushu Lingling in the past two days, and I feel that you may be the most qualified to know
I am a group of people, so even though it is very difficult for me to open my mouth, I am still ready to tell the truth.
There is so much foreshadowing, but to put it bluntly, there is only one sentence. I experienced the first depression episode in my life in March. I was completely caught off guard and was hit. I had no power to resist. It probably lasted for two or three weeks.
, I don’t even know what’s going on with me, because I’ve never had it before and I don’t understand.
It’s not that it’s particularly hard and heartbreaking, although there are moments like this, but most of the time, all my energy seems to have been sucked dry; the second batch of Shanghai greens all died as soon as they sprouted, and both potted ferns turned yellow.
, because it is impossible for me to get up from the sofa to water water. I don’t want to eat, so I don’t sleep for a day or two in a row, and then I sleep for a day or two in a row. I am too lazy to open my mouth to speak, and I can’t concentrate. I can’t read more than two lines of words.
It's as if everything in my brain has been turned into pieces, and my brain is a chaos of constant noise, tearing, and confrontation. Even the minimum daily care for myself, such as washing my face and hair, eating and drinking water, is difficult to guarantee.
What is that feeling? My skin is my prison. Even if I am suffocated, I can’t break free. (Does this sentence sound familiar?) Everyone’s life is a hell tailor-made for them. I am in this custom-made hell.
In hell.
I don’t even know how I wrote the updates during this period, because any attempt to focus on something will be torn apart by the chaotic thoughts like a storm. I am not myself at all.
Like a blade of grass being beaten hard by distracting thoughts and darkness, it will be uprooted if you are not careful.
I don’t know what the trigger is. It may be the epidemic and subsequent effects.
In fact, some readers seemed to have discovered it, but I didn’t say anything at the time. I was very reluctant to tell it because I would feel a little ashamed, as if I had done something wrong... I also knew it.
, this idea itself is not healthy.
At present, I may have used 693 words to make you unhappy. This is not my intention. Authors who write entertainment articles make readers frustrated. Isn’t this a shame for the industry?
I have contacted the doctor several times, but since the business has not yet reopened, I have no choice but to help myself at home. I have tried many methods. It seems that it has begun to have some effect recently, and the storm in my head is starting to calm down.
What I find most helpful is meditation. Don’t laugh. I used to think that the difference between meditation and sleeping is that one has music and the other does not...
But I started with mindfulness practice, and I felt that after five minutes of practice, my mind seemed to be clearer. Then I looked at it again and realized that this is meditation? And meditation is getting longer and longer, from five minutes at the beginning to thirty minutes a day now.
After I finished it, I still felt like I was still unsatisfied and wanted to have another bowl... In the long run, I feel that it helps a lot.
So don’t worry about me. If anyone has similar problems, please feel free to chat with me privately and let’s work together. I also hope to be able to recover as soon as possible and be able to write updates.
Next I want to talk about meditation.
[The following content may cause controversy. People under the age of 21 are asked to read with caution under the guidance of parents or professionals. People over the age of 21 who have opinions are asked to give up reading.]
I am very interested in the field of human beings changing their mental states, especially things related to psychedelics, so I read the popular book "How to Change Your Mind" right away. When I was reading it, I noticed that there is
A piece of information is that the brain activities and areas of monks who are good at meditation are highly similar to the brain activities and areas of people who use psychedelics. They are all areas that are not activated in the daily human brain.
Of course I hadn't started practicing meditation at that time, but I had experience using psychedelics (I'm using it legally, I won't report anything illegal); now that I've tried both, I have to say that the user experience is
It's really close.
There is a stone ape theory, which holds that this group of apes, the ancestors of humans, was essentially no different from other apes. So why did this group of apes begin to evolve into humans? It was because they were in the process of a great migration.
I found mushrooms on the road... After eating mushrooms, brain circuits that could not be activated normally were activated, and the possibility of human evolution began to arise. (I am particularly fascinated by this theory, so I think it is true, and it doesn’t matter what others say.
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Of course, I'm not advising everyone to eat mushrooms, and I can't buy mushrooms. I mean, isn't there something healthier and better for the mind, which is meditation practice. (Yes, I'm selling it.
Amway, who can you find but me who can sell goods without spending any money these days?)
After meditating, my personal experience is that the entire spirit and brain become particularly clear and sharp, and even the field of vision seems to be sharply sharpened. It is similar to myopia wearing glasses for the first time, and the brain version of concentration becomes
It is much easier, and understanding the meaning of words becomes faster and easier. To use an analogy, it is like a computer being wound up (.
Not only for people with depression, long-term meditation has a positive effect. I think it is worth a try for people who are stressed, tired, or simply just want to have a better experience.
Although Doomsday is an entertainment novel, we all know each other because we are destined (not to mention that we spent money), so I also hope that I can share more things with you in the literary world that is not updated well, so that we can see different worlds together and experience more.
Good life experience.
(So can you forgive me for my incompetence in updating?)