In the ten years since he became an evolver, Xie Feng has never been near the sea.
"Time is a good medicine that forgets everything." This sentence is only said by people who have benefited from the medicine of time. Besides this sentence, I don't know how many people are still living day after day because they cannot forget or relieve themselves.
yearning for relief.
Xie Feng could write down her experiences, she could tell her feelings in the sea, she could speak sincerely and exaggerate... But there was no way she could make others truly feel that night in the sea, a sudden sensation in her arms
The feeling of being empty.
Both the world and herself were shattered into chaos. Before that moment, she had never known that such absolute and endless pain existed in the universe.
She forgot who she was and where she was.
The last conversation between the two, the patrol ship at sea, the mutated snake head... were all too far away from her, so far away that it seemed like an illusion. The world was blank, there was nothing, except for one thing, and that was to let Dong Luorong float up.
On the sea surface, open your eyes again.
Only then will the world exist again and Xie Feng will exist again.
Ever since the two met, it seemed that the same situation had been repeated, and that night was no exception: even after his life left him, Dong Luorong still saved Xie Feng again.
It's not that Xie Feng didn't think about this later. She had just evolved at that time, floating in the middle of the ocean, facing patrol ships and fallen species. Without Dong Luorong, she couldn't think of how she could have survived that night.
But as time passed, she felt more and more that it would have been better if she had died that night.
She followed Dong Luorong and sank to the bottom of the sea. Isn’t that the ideal ending?
Even though she still lost Dong Luorong, at least she didn't have to see or get along with her later self.
The most important thing is that you don’t have to see Dong Luorong later.
The biggest weakness and limitation of Xie Feng's ability after it had just evolved was that the time an item existed as a special item was very short. When its "special item effect" expired and disappeared, the item itself would not
disappear.
The desk lamp she used in the hotel turned back into an ordinary desk lamp after it expired and is still in the same place; but Xie Feng, who was in an extraordinary state at the time, naturally did not expect this, nor did he expect that when the target
When it is not a desk lamp but a person, that person will continue to exist in the form of an object even after "expiration" - since it is an object, of course there is no difference between life and death, only the difference between intact and damaged.
At that time, she just wanted Dong Luorong to come back.
She just couldn't understand at that time why she couldn't have Dong Luorong in her life.
So every day that Xie Feng lived afterwards seemed like he was trying to atone for the decision he made that night, but it could never be reduced even a little bit.
She wandered and struggled in the apocalyptic world with Dong Luorong. No matter what happened or what kind of situation she fell into, Xie Feng never let her skin get a scratch or let anyone touch her.
A hair. However, Dongluo Rong itself, which can exist in the storage items, is the cross that presses on her day after day and is about to crush her into pieces.
...If only she could forget her decision that night, no, if everything could disappear from her mind.
"I thought... you, like everyone else, were forcibly transformed by the shark system and had their memories deleted." Lin Sanjiu said in a low voice.
The memoirs in the entire dungeon were almost all from the owner who was plotted by the shark system but knew nothing about it; how could she have thought that Xie Feng was actually voluntary?
Whether it was the woman Ah Quan met in the alley later or the Batou De whom Peng Ping failed to attack, they were all targeted and fell into the dungeon unknowingly; even those who claimed
Yachiyanagi, who had already learned about it afterwards, did not deny the nature of the whole thing: the Sharks used copies of Ah Quan to forcibly transform one valuable evolver after another, and drove them to use them for their own purposes.
"I'm sorry." Lin Sanjiu thought for a while and found it difficult to say the next words - at least she found it difficult to say them clearly. She hesitated for a long time before hesitatingly said: "If... there is anything I can
Things that can be done..."
Xie Feng said nothing.
After she finally recovered from her uncontrollable howling, she seemed to have let out all her strength, her resentment towards Lin Sanjiu, her desire to fight, and her original stance... along with her tears. She sat on the ground,
Leaning her back against the reception desk, she looked blankly at the tiles at her feet. At first glance, it seemed as if she had become an object.
Has she not thought that even the memory that was accidentally restored today can be removed again?
Lin Sanjiu wanted to propose this method as a remedy, but for some reason, she felt that she couldn't say it. Besides, she was also afraid of shocking Xie Feng, who had finally regained some mental balance. After all, the real problem was not with Xie Feng.
Whether Feng remembers it is just a way to escape; the real question is whether Xie Feng can forgive himself.
When she finally helped Xie Feng up from the floor, she suffered a few injuries. Fortunately, Xie Feng was in a state of confusion and was not very lethal. After thinking about it, she was beside him.
He sat down not far away and continued to bandage the wound silently without saying anything.
It took only half a day to sit here; the sunlight outside the rental shop changed from strong to dark, the shadows changed from short to long, and the sky was gradually filled with a faint orange color. I don’t know when it started, Xie Fenghui suddenly murmured:
A few words without beginning or end.
Lin Sanjiu will also respond as best she can.
"...I can't die because she will be left alone. But I really can't live anymore. I don't know how that woman found out about my situation...I have never been as desperate as that day. When she asked
When I was willing to walk into the dungeon and forget everything, I immediately agreed."
Lin Sanjiu straightened her back. The first "she" naturally refers to Dong Luorong; but who is "that woman"?
"A shark-type person?" she asked, although she didn't think she would get the answer. "The person who transformed you with a copy of Ah Quan is a woman?"
In the past half day, Lin Sanjiu had been talking to Xie Feng frequently, but Xie Feng had never spoken to Lin Sanjiu, and he almost did not answer her questions - the occasional soft explanations and fragmentary memories of the past were all more...
It was as if he was talking to himself; Xie Feng still seemed to be resisting Lin Sanjiu, but after losing all his strength, this resistance turned into ignoring him, as if as long as he didn't ignore it, the latter would not exist.
However, this time, she surprised Lin Sanjiu.
Xie Feng still didn't look at the woman next to him, he just asked his hands: "Do you know why I didn't kill you?"
This is not an exaggeration; if she wanted to risk her own life and die together, then Lin Sanjiu would not be able to leave this rental company.
Lin Sanjiu shook his head hesitantly.
"Because I remembered everything." Xie Feng still looked at his hands and said: "I not only remembered the past... I also remembered the mood when I decided to delete the memory, and the first thing I saw after walking out of the dungeon.
The feeling of world time.”
She suddenly fell silent.
Lin Sanjiu just waited for her to slowly collect her thoughts.
"It's not... the relief after relief." Xie Feng frowned and his voice was as soft as a sigh. "That's right, I don't remember what I was carrying before, so when it disappears, I will naturally not be relieved.
Because of this, I didn't feel relaxed and happy. I was still me, but it seemed like a piece was missing, and it was empty. I stood there for a long time, not knowing where to go.
"Before that, I felt that my life was too painful to bear. But after that, my life became..." Xie Feng frowned, as if he didn't know how to describe it. "It became an insignificant person.
, it’s meaningless, it’s something that makes no difference. It’s true that it’s not painful anymore, but now that I look back and make comparisons, I realize...’not painful’ itself is not as important as I thought.”
Lin Sanjiu knew that she was just a person who happened to be here, and happened to hear Xie Feng's words - if it were someone else, or if it were a cat or a dog sitting here, Xie Feng would probably behave in the same way.
But since she heard it and had feelings, she naturally expressed her feelings.
"Although it was painful... your life at that time was still closely related to her, right? Every minute and every second was because of her, she was there." Lin Sanjiu said softly: "I
I understand. When you lose your memory, you also lose contact. So what is the difference between yourself and a speck of dust floating in the infinite universe... There is no source, no destination, and no place to stay."
After a few seconds, Xie Feng finally turned his head and took a long look at her, as if it was the first time he saw her existence. "...Yes."
"So, I didn't do anything to you, and you don't expect me to be grateful to you." Xie Feng said in a hoarse voice: "However, now that I think about it, I'm not sure whether she...that woman deliberately took advantage of her, or even
It promoted my mental state that day. If you want to find the shark department, I will not stop you, and I will not help you."
She paused and then said: "No matter what, it was that woman who found her final destination. What's more, what the Sharks are doing now, I believe is right. Even if you have no choice but to feel sorry for others,
I also think it’s heading in the right direction.”