As I said, at that time my adoptive mother and I lived alone in the remains of our old house.
There was no radio, no TV, no mobile phone signal; she couldn't walk, so when the whole city was abandoned and fled, we still lived in isolation among the ruins.
Because of this, I had no idea what was happening to me.
When I was at a loss and still running for survival day by day, no one told me that the previous social rules had collapsed and another completely different rule and order had come.
From the ruins of the old world, a new world emerged that I was at a loss for at first.
I didn’t tell my adoptive mother about my changes. What can I say? I suddenly could see more clearly and further, my strength became stronger, my speed became faster, and I also developed wonderful abilities? “Superman fantasy” is a kind of mental illness
Typical symptoms of the disease - to be honest, at that time, I didn't really believe that I was still sane.
After evolution, nothing changes for a while.
As before, I get up at four or five in the morning every day and cook a little breakfast on the camping stove. Sometimes it’s expired canned beans I find (even I won’t find it unpalatable anymore), and sometimes it’s just
You can soak compressed biscuits in water and cook them into a small pot of Hu Hu. I eat half of it, and the rest is my adoptive mother's daily ration - until I come back, or never come back.
No matter how early I left home, my adoptive mother would always wake up early and watch me pack my bags and prepare to leave. I have seen countless human emotions, subtle and strong, but since then, I have never
I have seen the forbearing, worrying, complicated fears and hopes just like in the eyes of my adoptive mother.
"I'm afraid that you will get hurt in an accident outside, and no one will care about you or help you; I'm afraid that you will suddenly think that you can actually leave me as a burden and walk away; I'm afraid that I will never see you again, but I will never see you again.
I don’t know what happened to you.”
If my adoptive mother had had the chance to tell me, I think this is what she would have said.
I am 80% sure that these were her emotions and thoughts at the time; the reason why I vaguely knew it was because this indescribable complex mood was tormenting her and causing her long-term, chronic pain.
You see, I've never told anyone about my evolutionary abilities.
Since I evolved, my chances of success when I go out to look for supplies have been greatly reduced. This is really a nasty and unexpected turn, right? I thought that now that I have better eyesight, I will be more capable.
After gaining agility, survival will become easier... The results are really shocking.
Unlike your evolutionary ability, which has clearly written rules and usage, my initial ability is just a feeling of imitation. In the beginning, I was always divided by this feeling.
However, the original goal was not achieved.
That day was different.
That day, I rode a bicycle I found on the road for more than two hours to a large hospital on the other side of the city. This was the first time I had run such a long distance since the war; but it was huge, and I
I thought that no matter what, there should be some stored medicine left - the adoptive mother's medicine had been discontinued for a while, and every day for her seemed to be becoming more difficult.
It wasn't until I got out of the car that I realized what the other reason was that called me from afar.
It's so painful.
This hospital condenses such a huge amount of human tragedies, the despair and unwillingness to lose physical functions, the fear and powerlessness of dying; separation and death are a kind of pain, and being abandoned by relatives is another kind of pain...
All the misery and tragedy that happened in this hospital area were like scenes in an open-air movie, with one audience.
However, for me, it is like watching a documentary. Although it is good to have it, it is not unique and fresh food; after all, the hospital has been empty for who knows how long.
I threw down my bicycle, followed the pulse radiating from the hospital, and walked into the half-collapsed corridor. I walked through the hall, passed by the consulting room, and saw the drug room that had been looted. The adoptive mother's medicine had long been gone;
I thought about it and decided to try my luck in the inpatient department again.
The inpatient department is the stronghold of three men.
Three men, and a woman they captured at some point.
You see, I always thought that I came to the conclusion out of reason and logic, that I should go to the inpatient ward where medicines might be hidden; but in addition to reason and logic, it turns out that my evolutionary ability has also been whispering to me.
, let me follow some potential possibility and go in that direction.
I looked across a corridor and looked at the half-open door. Except for some shaking figures and interlaced bodies, I couldn't actually see anything. The sounds coming from inside the door were not even remotely human-like.
——The woman's howling and crying didn't last long, and turned into dying.
Having just evolved, I was still very cautious and felt that I might not be able to fight against three men at the same time, so I waited until they had finished everything and they had left for the time being before quietly walking into the smelly room.
I have said that I have an aesthetic dislike for primitive, simple, crude and inferior physical torture.
That woman—let’s call her a woman, it’s really hard to see the human form. After all, you would think that the human body has limits and is not allowed to be bent and opened into a certain shape—it took several seconds to realize that I was not that person.
One of three people.
"Kill...kill me," she whispered, "please."
"I'm sorry," I replied, "I can't kill people."
The despair she suddenly felt at that moment surprised me a bit. Although it was not my intention to make her despair - "no killing" is one of the most unforgiving rules of my adoptive mother - but I was not satisfied with that despair.
No matter how unwelcome it may be, there is none.
After briefly feeling such fresh and rich despair (I need to explain that most of her pain was not caused by me, so only the little despair caused by my answer was to me
Direct and strong), I remembered what my adoptive mother told me: when you can, you should help others according to the situation.
At that time, my ability to evolve was also whispering to me.
"I'm going to leave first, you take care of yourself." I said politely to the woman, "I hope those three people won't come again."
The woman's faint wails and cries accompanied me throughout the entire corridor.
I followed the traces of those people and found them in the hospital cafeteria. They must have killed a lot of people here. There were blood stains and the smell of pain everywhere that became more fresh over time; at first sight,
When I arrived, several people jumped up and took their weapons in their hands.
"I'm sorry, I don't mean any harm." I said politely, "I'm just too hungry and wanted to ask if you have any food you can share with me."
As expected, they laughed at me and insulted me; there is nothing new about this kind of people. Before they came up to take action, I said: "I am willing to trade my girlfriend."
...I am still surprised that such a stupid and manipulative person is the same human being as my adoptive mother.
"Where?" The clear hunger and greed on the leader's face became even more intense after he realized that I was indeed the type of woman that women would like. "You pretty boy are quite open-minded.
Come on, take us to see it."
I led them into the lobby on the first floor. Through the window, I pointed at the bicycle I threw on the ground and said, "Look, that's the bicycle we rode when we came here."
I thought that if I didn't actually have any ability and everything was just my illusion, then I would be in trouble. However, I was not afraid at all at the time, and pointed to the open space in the sun and said:
"That's Lily."
The three men looked at my finger and were stunned for a moment. Soon they all showed the expressions and reactions I expected. "It's been a long time since I saw someone so clean and beautiful," one of them didn't even bother to look at me.
, hurriedly walked out, "We'll give you something to eat when we catch her."
Of course they didn't intend to give me anything to eat, so I nodded gratefully.
You see, I neither did any research nor planned well at the time. Everything that happened one after another was an accident to me, something I didn't know intellectually was about to happen; however, in evolution
Under the influence of my ability, I am like a ferocious beast that is part of the natural environment. I don't need to think, I just need to follow the rhythm of the environment and climate to catch prey.
I wasn't even sure whether they could see the illusion of "Lily", and I didn't even know about the existence of the fallen species, but everything was completed smoothly.
When the three of them formed a circle and surrounded the open space next to the bicycle, I stood behind the window in the corridor and looked at the giant flesh-colored shadow gradually protruding from their heads. I was very surprised, but not surprised at the same time.
.
It was as if I had made an agreement with my destiny before I was born, and I just temporarily forgot about it after I was born.
That was my first "hunt" in the apocalyptic world.
Every drop of their greed, violence and desire, after the illusion was shattered and they finally realized what fate they were facing, turned into fear, regret and pain dozens of times stronger (you see, they actually regret it)
, indicating that they are not the same person as me). I even couldn't help but open the window, risking myself being discovered by the fallen species, and almost enjoying the living human hell in front of me.
After everything was over, the two fallen species looked at each other.
I smiled at them.
It turns out that my evolutionary ability allows me to sense the tragedy and pain that is happening to mankind, and allows me to "hunt" mankind by following various subtle hints in the universe.
The two degenerates paused for a moment, perhaps because they were full, or perhaps for some other reason, then turned around and left.
I didn't kill anyone, so I didn't break the rules of my adoptive mother. I could only take advantage of a loophole. Besides, I also helped the woman in the inpatient department. My adoptive mother probably wouldn't be unhappy after hearing this.
That day was very special. Even though it was a long time coming, the strong sense of satisfaction did not make me forget the purpose of this trip. I found a lot of food and some weapons from their lair, but unfortunately, no medicine was found. I
He put some things into the basket of the bicycle and tied some things to the back seat. As he walked, he thought about how to tell his adoptive mother everything about today.
She must have thought I was crazy at first. Unfortunately, I couldn't take a photo of the fallen species (I didn't know they were called fallen species at the time) as proof. What exactly those things are and what their habits are, will have to be spent.
It will take time to figure it out; apart from a flimsy entrance door, there is almost no barrier that can stop them. I have to find boards tomorrow to seal up the windows and loopholes...
I saw several pharmacies on the road and took the time to search each one.
Basically every store was empty, but I noticed that the last pharmacy was connected to the apartment on the second floor, which was probably the residence of the pharmacy owner; I walked in with a sense of luck, and sure enough, I was hit by a shell.
Stockpiles, including painkillers and inhalants, were found in the open-roofed residence.
Although it was a bit unexpected, from all aspects, it was a day of great achievements.
It was already very late when I got home, two hours later than usual. Before I even approached the door, I felt——
The intense pain going on in the adoptive mother's heart.
