Chapter 127 Entering the boudoir in the middle of the night (6)
"Look, I can't even feel these feet. I doubt that one day, if someone secretly cuts them off while I'm sleeping, I'm afraid I won't wake up from my dream."
Qingxia said, reaching out to touch her feet, and her fingertips traced the snow-white soles. Just by looking at the dancing horse, you can feel the smooth feeling.
"It's strange. Since I said goodbye to shoes and socks, these feet have stepped on so many stones and gravel that they have become slipperier. It's as if a spell has been cast from that day on, reminding me to always remember that morning.
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When Qingxia touched her feet with her hands, her eyes were extremely clear, but Wu Ma really felt like she was being seduced, which made him even more vigilant.
"After my mother's death, I told Aye that we must find out the real cause of her death and find the real culprit, otherwise she will not be able to live in peace even if she is buried in the grave.
Aye agreed, and he invited the most powerful shaman on the grassland to examine A Niang's body, but he said that A Niang died of cold illness, and he wanted to use this as a conclusion.
But I always have a feeling in my heart that this is definitely not the truth. Every night when people are quiet, I will dream of my mother appearing in front of me, just like that morning, covered with white frost, braving the cold, pitiful
She looked at me and said, 'My daughter, my mother was killed by someone. That person was extremely vicious. You should run away as far as possible!'"
At this point, Qingxia seemed to feel that her only audience was not fully invested in the story, so she slowed down a little and looked at the dancing horse, "Do you think my dream sounds ridiculous, like it was made up off the shelf?"
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Wu Ma observed her eyes, which were still clear and translucent, "Just keep telling me, I can tell the truth from lies."
"Whether you believe it or not, I did have such a terrible and intimate dream, and more than once, the scene was extremely real and vivid. My mother-in-law looked at me like the fire of a candle that was about to be blown out by the wind. She said to me
The words he spoke were like a cry of terror amid the wind and rain, and they are still fresh in my memory.
At that time, I didn’t understand why I had such a dream. It was because I missed my grandma too much, or my grandma’s soul was worried about my poor and lonely daughter, so I refused to enter the underworld for a long time, and I had to dream about it at night.
Help me escape to a safe place.
If it was really a dream, then I still don’t understand my daughter very well. How could I just watch my mother die unjustly, while I was indifferent, let alone run away in fear."
Qingxia squeezed the wine glass again, "To be honest, I am very vengeful, not to mention the murder of my mother. I want to kill her, and I can't even wait for a quarter of an hour. When I think of the murderer and me
Breathing in the same world, I feel that the air in this world is dirty.
Because I always insisted on not finding out the truth, my mother's body could not be buried, so I was put in solitary confinement by Aye and the funeral was forcibly held.
After my mother-in-law was buried, Princess Yicheng became Kedun and became my stepmother. At first, she deliberately approached me and tried to please me. She greeted me all day long and was very caring, but I knew that she looked like this.
If you do it for Aye, you will never listen to her sweet talk.
Secretly, I still refused to give up and secretly investigated the cause of my mother's death, and finally asked a soldier on duty that night about an unknown detail -
This soldier Xu was the first witness. On the morning after my grandmother passed away, he wanted to go into the tent to complain, but found that she had not responded for a long time.
At that time, he noticed that a pool of unknown liquid seemed to flow out from under Grandma's bed. After that, he went out to call someone, and when he returned to the tent, the liquid was gone.
I then suspected that Princess Yicheng might have done something under the bed while my mother-in-law was sleeping. I followed this clue to investigate, but the results got worse and worse. First, the one who was the first witness
A soldier of the Han Dynasty disappeared mysteriously, and someone found his bloody head in the sheepfold, which was gnawed into holes by the sheep.
Immediately afterwards, someone actually entered my tent in the middle of the night, stuffed a broken blade under the pillow, and cut off a strand of my hair. The scary thing was that I was unconscious.
Not two days later, when I was riding a horse, the usually well-behaved horse rushed into a forest and became wild, almost knocking me into a tree trunk... Finally, I jumped
I got off the horse and was slightly injured by luck, but the horse was killed by a head-on collision."
"Didn't I tell you about the plot against you?" Wu Ma asked.
"As I said, Aye was very angry. He sent more guards to me and also sent people to investigate the mastermind behind it. Of course, there was no result. The matter was settled... What else can I do? I can't tell Aye
, saying that I suspected that it was Princess Yicheng who did it. Although I was sure it was her, I had no proof.
Later, I suffered several secret attacks and almost lost my life... I knew that it was my sharpness that aroused Princess Yicheng's vigilance and suspicion. In order to survive and persist until the final victory, I chose to wait and see.
She endured it and did not investigate the cause of A Niang's death for the time being. She just stayed with Aye to keep her safe. After more than half a year of keeping a low profile like this, Princess Yicheng suddenly proposed that she would be a matchmaker for me and marry me to the Khan's court.
A high-ranking nobleman.
It's really funny. What I hate most in my life is the bad customs of marriage here. I would rather never marry than let myself fall into this situation. What's more, I found out privately that the head of the family and Princess Yicheng are married.
Those who have entered into an alliance are sure that nothing good will happen to them after they get married.
But I, Aye, was in favor of this marriage and was about to agree. So I pretended to be very happy about the marriage and coaxed the man Princess Yicheng wanted to marry me into happy... Oh, this
The man you have seen is the one who is presiding over Solchuk tonight. His name is Sunong Dalai.
After I deceived them into losing their wariness about me, I sneaked out of the Khan Court overnight, intending to avoid the limelight for a while and make long-term plans.
But I didn’t expect that I would fall into Princess Yicheng’s plan like this——
Her move is a conspiracy that can be advanced, retreated or defended. If I marry her, I will be at the mercy of others; if I refuse to give in and escape from the Khan's Court, I will lose the protection of Aye, which will make it easier to eradicate the weeds.
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On the way out of the Khan Court, I was ambushed by Princess Yicheng. Only then did I realize that she was also a very powerful Kulada. I almost lost my life, but thanks to Ah Di Gelan for saving me...
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Speaking of this, Qingxia looked at Wu Ma, her eyes dimmed slightly, "That was Tian Deping later, you know him."
Seeing Qingxia's expression at this moment, Wu Ma suddenly understood that Qingxia was not as indifferent and indifferent to Tian Deping's death as she had shown that day in the county magistrate's mansion.
After realizing this, Wu Ma's emotions began to become complicated. On the one hand, the girl in front of him was much more frank than before, which made his resistance and disgust towards her slightly lessened.
On the other hand, Wu Ma thought of another question - since Qingxia cares about Tian Deping's life and death, why did Qingxia show no concern at all in the secret room? Is it to survive under her own hands? It seems like
There is absolutely no need for this. As long as Tian Deping's curse takes effect, he will be helpless towards Qingxia.
Wu Ma couldn't think clearly, so he simply asked Qingxia for an answer.
"I have already guessed that you will definitely ask this question," Qingxia took a deep breath, "One day, I will give you a satisfactory, real and thorough answer, but at this moment, please allow me
I'll keep it a secret for now, okay?"
When he first heard it, Wu Ma found that he was unexpectedly satisfied with the answer. It was more real than nonsense, and compared to carefully woven lies and deception.
But after he thought about it for a moment, he suddenly realized that no matter what Qingxia said, she had indeed concealed very important information from herself. And this information could not be concealed by her lying. So
, Qingxia is not sincere or honest, she just doesn’t want to lose her trust by dealing with this problem.
As a result, Wu Ma became even more vigilant. He vaguely felt that in the information hidden by Qingxia, there might be the answer he came to the grassland to find this time, which was the key to breaking the curse.
Dancing Horse thought for a while and decided to put it aside temporarily to see how things will develop next. "Please continue to talk."
"After being ambushed by Princess Yicheng, I quickly fell into a coma. It felt like my soul had been shattered and was floating in the air. As long as a gust of wind blew over, I would definitely be blown away and never come back.
I have some vague impressions of what's happening in the outside world, but I can't perceive it very clearly. I only know roughly that Adi Gelan seems to have lit an oil lamp. My soul can see the oil lamp, and it seems that I have found the direction.
, gather near the oil lamp, and my soul will be preserved.
Later on, Athu Gelan seemed to put my body in a carriage and took me around, always looking for a way to wake me up. You must also know what happened next..."
"He has indeed found it," Wu Ma said quietly, "and offered a sacrifice to the Black Wind Mountain God. The sacrifice is me."
"In order to save my life, he dealt with the unpredictable evil god and embarked on the most dangerous path, even sacrificing the lives of more than a hundred innocent people." Qingxia sighed sadly, "I understand him
It was a big mistake, but I am still extremely grateful."
"I may not be able to relate to this feeling." Wu Ma said coldly.
"I totally understand,"
Qingxia's eyes suddenly darkened when she looked at him, her body seemed to stiffen suddenly, and her words became less fluent, "To be honest... this story... I really don't want to mention it, for fear of causing your anger."
They are disgusted and contradictory, so much so that the peaceful and friendly agreement just now will be invalidated."
"I still said what I just said,"
Wu Ma said expressionlessly: "As long as you are sincere, I will reciprocate honestly. If you hide something, or if you are honest on the surface but have deception or other intentions, I am confident that I am not easy to deceive.
As for what happened in the secret room, I can also give you an answer——
For me, things like sacrifice are not painful at all, and even after a long time, they cannot leave a deep impression in my memory. Because those pains are only imposed on the physical body and are superficial.
And at that time, my opponents, whether they were Wang Wei, Tian Deping, Gao Junya, the soldiers in the magistrate's mansion, or you lying in the reception platform, had nothing to do with me and were completely indifferent strangers.
No matter what these people do, no matter how cruel and bloodthirsty they are, I can never cause any psychological harm to them. You may not believe it, but during the whole process of surviving in the County and Cheng Mansion, I could hardly express any hatred for you.
My resistance was just out of survival instinct. I just kept thinking about what to do to survive.
Since we are talking about cooperation, let's open the skylight and speak openly - regarding that story and grudges, except for the curse that will affect me at this moment, I don't care about the rest at all, and I have no intention of pursuing them."
"The curse will definitely be resolved satisfactorily," Qingxia gave him a confident and friendly smile, "However, what you said makes me very curious about what happened to you."
"On me?"
"I'm referring to what happened when you came to the Juncheng Mansion and lay down in front of the altar in the secret room," Qingxia said: "What experiences did you have before that made you become like this...
Different.”
She looked at Dancing Horse's face, as if she wanted to learn something from his face, or like an archaeologist, she wanted to understand the ins and outs of every facial feature and every pore.
"When I got along with you in Jinyang City, I often felt that you were aloof, cold and unique, and even...a bit like someone who didn't belong to this world at all."
Wu Ma had an indifferent face and said, "I think our relationship has not reached the point where we can say these things."
Qingxia laughed at herself. Faced with similar sarcastic comments, Qingxia always seemed to be able to deal with them with ease.
"After you discovered my identity," Qingxia continued, "I guessed that the Turkic army was going to be defeated in Jinyang. I have no intention of staying here to fight against you. I only want to return to the Khan's court to take revenge.
After I went back, I really realized how hot that woman was.
In the few years since I left, my grandma’s direct relatives, my grandpa, grandma, my grandma’s brothers and sisters, and their descendants have all suffered from various reasons such as illness, war, and feud.
All of them went with my mother-in-law. I want to talk about my grandpa in particular——
He died in a bizarre fire. I heard someone say that it was obviously the rainy season on the grassland, and the flowers, grass and ground were all wet, but somehow my grandpa’s tent caught fire and it couldn’t be extinguished no matter how much water was poured on it.
Grandpa was burned alive, his whole body turned into charcoal.
When I think of that scene, I can't muster up the courage to go to my grandpa's grave to pay my respects. I'm sorry for my grandpa. Among all my brothers and sisters of the same generation, he loves me the most. I spent most of my childhood riding on him.
I spent the time lying in his arms on horseback, and I still have countless stories in my mind that he told me."
It was a quiet night, and the bright yellow light from the oil lamp shone on Qingxia's face, making it even more charming.
Wu Ma gradually realized that Qingxia seemed to be letting her guard down in her own way.
So, he frowned and said: "Ashnayan, I don't want to know too much about your family's affairs. If it is related to our cooperation, it is best to be concise and to the point."
"Feel sorry,"
Qingxia was surprised for a moment, and then quickly recovered from the sadness and loss. "After returning to the grassland, I soon discovered that there seemed to be an invisible hand hidden behind the death of each of my relatives. I
I tried to trace the truth behind it, but found that Princess Yicheng had already made arrangements, but I seemed to be trapped in an airtight net, blocked everywhere, but found nothing."
"Dancer-kun,"
Qingxia stared at the dancing horse, "To be honest, there is no deep hatred between us. When my Aniang tribe was wiped out, my soul was scattered and I lived in Jinyang. It also caused the death of Ah Di Gelan, and even my grandfather was killed outside Jinyang City.
Burned to death in the fire, in the final analysis, it was all caused by Princess Yicheng.
There is only one enemy in my heart now, Princess Yicheng, and the only thing I can do is seek revenge against her. But since I returned to the grassland, I have been targeted by Princess Yicheng. I have been away from the Khan Court for many years, and the roots of my trees here have been
Being uprooted, helpless, and alone, it was really difficult to fight against her.
I will never give up, so I thought about it and considered all the possibilities. I feel that the only person who can help me turn the tide in this crisis is Mr. Wulang... You may be confused about this matter, and I also say
I can’t tell you the specific reason, but I just believe you can do it.”
After hearing these words, Wu Ma finally understood why Tian Deping's curse was always about to take effect when he was in Jinyang City - this was clearly a sign that Qingxia's life was in danger at all times in the Khan's Court.
In response to Qingxia's request, although Wu Ma felt that this was the best way to survive for her, her face quickly darkened, "I understand, it was you who was the one who got in the way and asked Shibi to ask for me by name.
Come to the Khan's court to negotiate peace."
"I did play tricks on the peace talks."
"Since you can influence the beginning and end of the decision, how dare you say that you are alone."
"I just tampered with the letter Aye sent to Duke Tang. Of course, if you, as the special envoy of Duke Tang, don't say anything about this, no one here will know about it."
"Very interesting?" Wu Ma knocked the table hard, guessing that his face should have turned into a piece of black coal, "You are playing with fire."
"Do you think I've put you in danger?"
"if not."
"Wu Langjun," Qingxia shook her head, "when I left Jinyang, I understood one thing: when dealing with you, instead of thinking about conspiracy and tricks, it is better to adapt to your rhythm and leave everything to you.
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Based on this, I want to tell you all my considerations - first, for you, it may seem dangerous to go north to negotiate peace, but as long as you can come to the Khan Court safely, I, Aye, will be your most powerful protector.
Second, actually,”
At this point, she pointed to the top of her head, "You also want to come to the grassland to find me... lift the curse.
Third, if I really murder Princess Yicheng and die on the grassland, Mr. Wulang may also face the danger of a knife falling from above his head. Are you really sure that you can survive the backlash of the curse?
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Wu Ma suddenly understood that all Qingxia's plans were conspiracy. Qingxia had already asked him for help. If he did not take action and Qingxia died in the end, this would also meet the conditions of Tian Deping's curse - Qingxia died because of this person.
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Yes, you have to dance on the horse, you have to dance, you have to dance, you don't have to choose.
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