The building boat sailed quietly in the river at night, with soft water splashing on the boat, making a gentle sound. Even late at night, the aisles on each floor outside the building boat were still lit with lanterns.
Through the lantern paper, the yellowish lights rippled slightly on the lake.
Lorraine Hill opened the door, walked out of the house, and walked to the walkway outside. He held on to the vermilion fence and looked down at the deep, shimmering river below. Some sounds of drinking and laughing could be heard from the deck of the stern of the ship in the distance.
She touched her arm, then went into the house to find a coat and shawl, covered her shoulders, and then walked out in the direction of the sound.
The voice gradually became clearer. It was the voice of several middle-aged men.
"The river is almost colorless, and the night is dim and waiting for the dawn..." Someone seemed to be drunk, and he said the poem like a babble.
"Hahaha, brother Jin, why don't you have another drink?"
"No one who has hundreds of thousands of silk scarves will die. He will sing and drink for the rest of his life."
"I dream of heaven..." There is a trace of vicissitudes and nostalgia in the voice.
"Stop talking, stop talking, come on, come on, keep drinking." The voice next to him continued to persuade, seeming to be comforting.
When Lorraine Hill walked out of the aisle, the scene where those voices were heard appeared before his eyes.
The four people were sitting on the four sides of the square table. The middle table was filled with messy dishes. Behind them, there were many empty wine bottles at their feet. They rolled slightly with the ups and downs of the ship, and occasionally touched them.
Together, they make a slight sound.
One of them was Yu Baichou. He was holding a wine glass and shaking his head slightly, as if he was sighing. Next to him was a strong man wearing black cloth. His appearance was somewhat similar to that of Yu Baichou. He was holding a hand at the moment.
He looked at the man on the other side, occasionally patting his back, as if to comfort him.
The man being comforted was wearing a green cloth shirt and a messy turban on his head. Although he still held a wine glass in his hand, he seemed to be half drunk. The tears on his face had not dried yet, and his speech was unclear.
of poetry.
The last person was wearing a red-brown robe, holding a wine flask, and pouring wine for the other people on the table. He also said some words of encouragement to drink.
These people are quite old. The youngest one seems to be in his late forties, and the older one seems to be in his fifties or sixties. There are faint white strands in his hair.
It was dark at night, and the surrounding area was silent. Only the occasional chirping of cicadas and toads could be heard from both sides of the river. A few lanterns hung beside the wine table, illuminating the people below.
Lorraine Hill walked over slowly, and Yu Baiqiu also raised his head and saw this familiar eldest lady.
"Did you wake up because you couldn't sleep at night?"
"Well, I want to go out for a walk."
"That's fine, but it's a pity that there is no moonlight now. In the past, admiring the moon would have been a blessing." Yu Baichou continued to answer, and then said to a few people next to him.
"It's getting late, why don't we just come here today."
The other people looked at their drunken companions and the cold leftovers on the table, and nodded accordingly.
"Oh, that's fine, let's stop here. I'll help Brother Jin to rest, and then I'll ask Brother Fan to find someone to take care of it."
After finishing speaking, they slowly stood up, swayed towards the aisle, and slowly disappeared into the night around the corner.
Looking at the empty tables and chairs, with only Yu Baiqiu left at the moment, Lorraine Hill said with some embarrassment: "Did I disturb you from drinking?"
"Ha, it's okay. It's just that it's really late, it's time to leave." Yu Baichou put down his wine glass and stood up.
The night was far away and there was no end in sight. He put his rough hands on the railing and looked at the dark scenery of the river at the stern of the boat.
"One hundred years of life is so short..."
"Uncle Yu, are you remembering something from the past?" The girl walked slowly to the fence not far away, and also looked at the river in the night.
"Yes, I just listened to the past events of another person at the same table, and I unconsciously thought of some of my own past events." He seemed to be feeling quite emotional.
"That's the man who was sitting across from me just now, who was reciting poetry and crying."
"His name is Jin Huanian, and he is from Hedaizhou. When he was young, he was also a leader. He won the gold medal in high school and entered the top university in the world. He was so high-spirited and happy that he vowed to travel all over the world and cover thousands of miles of mountains and rivers."
"However, the deceased is like this, day and night. Looking back today, my hair has grown gray."
"Although I don't have the same literary talent as him, I still feel quite emotional when I hear it. As the years go by, my father, brother, and uncles who I once relied on have all entered their old age. Looking around, there is no one to rely on."
"He said that a few days ago, he looked back in his dream at the time when he was young and went out in the wilderness with his boy friends to look for beautiful women. But after waking up from the dream, he only had pain in his heart."
"Because he can never go back to that age and time. Even if the things he wanted to chase in the past are still there now, he can't run away. His body is getting older, his spirit is getting exhausted, he is out of breath when climbing high, and he is unable to walk far, only regret curls up.
Wrapped around the chest, holding the railing and sighing at the moon."
"After hearing this, I felt sad and sad." After Yu Baiqiu finished speaking, he walked to the table, picked up the wine flask, poured another glass, and drank it into his mouth.
"Making the eldest lady laugh is just adding to the sadness of a group of frustrated people."
After hearing this, Lorraine Hill placed his chin on the back of his hand covering the fence, and looked at the water on the river without saying a word.
She wanted to comfort her uncle, but she didn't know how to speak.
She lamented the changes in the world and time, and then told him is this reality? What is a perfect life, and how can she spend this life without regrets? Even she doesn't have a good answer.
Everyone's experience and temperament are different. It is extremely difficult to find a rule of life that is universal and universal throughout the ages.
Sometimes even the ideals that are full of heart may change into a different flavor after a few years, and then slowly dissipate and no longer be loved. Accidents, accidents, mistakes, changes, and passing are always full of the journey of life.
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I often regret afterwards, regretting that I didn't choose the right direction in the first place. Unfortunately, time has passed and no matter how regretful I am, I can't take it back.
"Regret is inevitable." She raised her head and stretched her hand into the night wind.
"Is there anyone else in Uncle Yu's family?" She recalled what Yu Baichou said just now, and it seemed that there were some things at home that worried him.
"Yes, I have an older brother and younger brother in my family, but they are all ordinary people. The eldest brother farms a barren mountain in his hometown, and the younger brother runs a restaurant in a small town and does some food business."
"After the elderly at home passed away, we brothers got together less and less frequently. Sometimes we went, and occasionally we looked at the strange eyes of some nieces and nephews, and we felt that it was not appropriate to stay for a long time."
"I have been traveling abroad for almost half my life, while my elder brother and younger brother have been living in my hometown. They have many different concepts and ideas, so it is difficult to talk with each other again."
"Now when I think back to the scenes when we were teenagers, we three brothers often went out to play together, fought with others, and experienced many things together. But after all, we gradually drifted away, and we were speechless and had nothing to talk about when we met."
"Sometimes I also wonder if it would have been better if I had not gone out and stayed in my hometown like them. Maybe I would have children and grandchildren now and live a quiet life."
"Does Uncle Yu regret it?" the girl asked.
Yu Baichou did not answer immediately, but quietly looked at the night mountain scenery.
"I do feel a little sad, but if I had to choose again, I would probably still embark on this path." There was a lot of nostalgia in his voice.
"The reluctance and stubbornness of youth, the restlessness and curiosity of youth, the satisfaction and pride of having some strength in adulthood are all unavoidable experiences, just like the flow of a river."
"Even if I die in a foreign country one day with no one to take care of me, I will still feel that my journey has been worthwhile." When he said this, he seemed to have unlocked some of the things that had been suppressed in his heart.
"Hahaha, that's it, that's it, that's it." I saw this big man standing at the stern of the boat and laughing to the sky, and his voice spread far and wide on the silent river.
Subsequently, the energy in his body also gradually changed. From Lorraine Hill's observation, it seemed that it had advanced?
So after waiting for a while, the aura of the big man gradually stabilized and slowly shrank.
"Uncle Yu understands something." She saw the man in front of her turn around, his eyes as bright as bright stones in the dark night.
"I understand the obstacles and barriers in my heart in the past, and I feel refreshed today." A smile broke out on Yu Baiqiu's thick-bearded face.
"Although I was brave and powerful in the past, there was always a trace of scruple and regret in my heart, which made me hesitate at critical moments."
"I left home when I was young. I didn't have any achievements that I could be proud of in my middle age. I always felt a little guilty when I came home. And when my parents passed away, I deeply felt that I had not fulfilled my filial piety. If I had been with them more at that time, I would have been better.
What kind of scene would it be?”
"While fighting with others, I also thought that I have no children yet. If I die, my incense will be cut off and there will be no one to worship me."
"All kinds of mental obstacles have been living in my heart for a long time. It's like running around with an iron block on my back. I can't fully enjoy it. If I had chosen another path back then, would it have been better? I often have regrets in my heart."
"Looking back now, if I could go back to those days and make my choice again, would I really stay at home with peace of mind? Would I really join a famous family?"
"I'm afraid I still can't. If I stay at home, I'm afraid I will regret it even more when I get older. I regret not coming out to see it. And with my background and knowledge, even if I enter a famous sect, I'm afraid I won't be able to communicate with those noble disciples, and I will gradually become a degenerate
For the margins, not now, we drink and talk with some people of similar origins and like-minded people."
"So, all the illusions are gone, I am still me, and there is no need for regrets."
Seeing this thoughtful uncle, the girl was also slightly happy.
"It's great that Uncle Yu can figure it out." In her observation, the sequence level of the uncle in front of her also slowly changed from Sequence 3 to Sequence 4.
In fact, he should have stayed on the edge of this level for a long time, but he has been unable to break through the mental barrier.
"Thank you very much. In fact, Miss Luo sometimes gives me a lot of inspiration." Yu Baichou suddenly expressed his thanks.
"Me?" The girl was a little confused.
"Well, actually I was a little worried at first, because young ladies like you are probably willful and difficult to get along with, haha."
"I met a lot of dignitaries when I was working in Caogang, and some of them really gave me such an impression."
"Later, I saw that you were gentle and considerate, so I let it go. Later, I saw that you had no family around you and couldn't remember your past. I was afraid that you would cry alone and be sentimental."
"I'm a rough person and I'm not very good at comforting people. I can only do nothing when faced with such a thing."
"But later, when I saw Miss Luo being so free and easy and safe, she didn't care at all. Instead, she felt like she was obsessed."
"Do you have to remember everything and achieve every regret in order to live a happy life?"
"I used to think it was. But now it seems that it's not. It was just a lock that I put on myself."
"It's indeed worth rejoicing to gain, but even if you lose it, won't you sleep in regret?" the girl tried to ask.
"Yes, hahaha." Yu Baichou slowly stroked his short beard.
"That's true, but it's still a bit difficult to do it." The girl thought, but in fact she felt that she was not as strong as Yu Baiqiu said.
"Yes, it is a bit difficult, but this is cultivation. Using a physical body to pursue the boundless and invisible path."
"Using the limit to chase the limitless?" The girl looked at the vast mountain scenery in the night.
"Exactly." Yu Baichou replied, his voice crisp and decisive.