Old readers who have read my books all know that more than half of the characters in "The God of Law" I wrote back then actually have prototypes.
Among them, Autumn Leaves Shang and Fingertip Button.
He was my best friend in junior high school and one of the few brothers I have in real life.
It's quite funny to say.
I actually don’t want to recall my junior high school life at all, because it was the shadow of my youth.
When I was young, I was rebellious and felt that I was the center of the world.
In today's terms, it's the second grade.
Therefore, I, who did not listen to the teacher and had poor grades, naturally became a bad student in the eyes of the teacher. So much so that I was isolated by the whole class. When I was being bullied, the teacher even felt that my classmates were doing something wrong.
Very good, you shouldn't have anything to do with me.
Only Qiu Ye Shang would be willing to play with me.
I still remember that just because Qiu Ye Shang was willing to play with me, my class teacher, a woman named Cai, called Qiu Ye Shang’s mother and said that I was a poor student and that no one in the class was willing to play with me.
, only he will play with me, let Auntie take good care of Qiu Ye Shang, and don’t have any contact with me anymore.
I am very grateful that Qiu Ye Shang's parents are very reasonable people.
It was they who didn't take my class teacher's words to heart. It was they who told Qiu Ye Shang: We believe in your vision. If you think the other person is a friend worth making, then go ahead and make friends. Don't care about the rumors behind other people's backs.
Then, Qiu Ye Shang and I became best friends, and he naturally became a bad student in the eyes of the teacher.
I still remember.
In one exam, he clearly got a question right, but because it was our old classmate who was grading the paper, and I don’t know whether she was careless or for other reasons, she made a mistake, and Qiu Ye Shang didn’t get a mark for the question.
He fell from the top ten in the class to outside the twenty. He went to see his old classmate, but his old classmate did not admit his mistake and did not give him the correct score.
That time, we understood that not everything in this world is fair and just.
We all know why Laoban did this.
Because Qiu Ye Shang challenged her authority.
But Qiu Ye is sad, but still has no hesitation.
He said: You are a very good friend, but those dogs are blind. We will be good brothers for life.
Then from junior high school to high school, from high school to college, from college to society, and now.
I really feel that he and I will know each other for a lifetime, and then the children of the two families will continue to do so and become family friends.
I really think so, and I really hope so.
But.
Why did he just leave like that?
In the early morning of August 30, he jumped off the building.
I didn't know the news until early last night.
I asked like crazy, logged into Weibo, which I haven't been on for a while, and looked at his messages.
Then I realized that I hadn't contacted him for almost a year.
It's been almost a year.
It turns out that he also suffered from depression.
It turns out that he also broke up with his girlfriend.
It turns out that he has been suffering for so long.
Ten years ago, he met his first love.
At that time, he had just graduated and had a job with a monthly salary of 6k. Although he had to travel abroad on business, with his thrifty nature, he could save at least 4k every month.
He even told me that he had already prepared what his future wedding would be like.
Then, his girlfriend couldn't stand the long-distance relationship and threatened to break up with him and return to his hometown. He had no choice but to give up the job and returned to his hometown to find a job with a monthly salary of less than 3k.
He told me: Although it was a bit hard and tiring, it was just that the plan was to be extended for three more years, so there was no problem.
But he could never have imagined that two years later, his girlfriend, who asked him to return to his hometown to be with her and said she would rather have a smaller salary, was willing to work hard with him and build a better future for them both.
When his parents started talking about marriage, they thought he had no savings, thought the wedding room he prepared was only 60 square meters, and thought his salary was too low, so they chose to break up with him.
This is probably life?
Fuck life!
I saw him being passive and silent, and seeing him living in a hazy state, but I felt a sense of powerlessness.
He went from Hebei to Hubei, then from Hubei to Guangdong, then from Guangdong to Shanghai, and finally from Shanghai to Beijing.
Stop and go along the way.
It was a confusing journey.
Then, he told me in Beijing: He is fine. He has found a woman who treats him well.
Three years?
Or four years?
That would be about one or six years, right?
It turns out that he has been in Beijing for four years.
He said: He definitely couldn't afford a house in Beijing, but she didn't ask him to buy a house. She even said that he didn't even need to hold a wedding and just lived a simple life for the two of them.
He said: I will definitely not let her feel wronged. I can't afford a house in Beijing, and she is unwilling to return to her hometown, but I will definitely give her a luxurious wedding that she will never forget in her life.
I still smiled and said: OK, if you don’t have enough money then, come to me.
Four years have passed in a flash.
Their relationship has always been quite stable.
I think so.
He thinks so too.
Then.
August 4th is his birthday.
The woman who Qiu Ye Shang thought would accompany him for the rest of his life broke up with him.
On your birthday?
Say you found true love, so you want to break up?
I don't want to say anything about emotional matters.
But at the very least, can you pick a better time?
I'm a fool, I was cheated on, it's because that woman never really liked me.
But, you have been together for four years, right?
We stay together when we go home during the Chinese New Year.
Qiu Ye Shang's mother didn't treat you badly, right?
Can't you change the time?
Even if it doesn't work, can you at least tell us friends, Qiu Ye Shang's brother?
Looking at the last text Qiu Ye Shang wrote on Weibo.
“I thought that as long as we respect each other’s ideas and understand each other’s character
At least we can avoid hurting each other, but I'm the only one who won't hurt each other
I don't understand why I have to bear the pain caused by others
I also don’t want to pass on this pain to irrelevant people in the future.
I also thought that as long as life would end abruptly, there would be hope while living.
But if you struggle to the death, you will be laughed at. Those who push you into the cliff will worry about you.
Don’t be sad, I won’t be sad again.”
Yeah, you won't fucking feel sad anymore.
But what about me?
Where are your parents?
Where is your brother?
Where are your friends?
When I wanted to commit suicide, it was you who persuaded me, told me a lot, and chatted all night long, making me think more about my parents and family, you, and the beauty of the world.
But why when it's your turn, you can only talk but can't do it?
