Nan Xiaonan was lying next to the window. Every night her eldest brother and second brother would intentionally sleep on her side, so there was a lot of space beside the bed. When Nan Xiaonan was lying next to it, she first felt that sleeping was not so crowded. Nan Xiaonan
I remember that when he went out to play in the past, there would always be someone around to sleep with him.
So actually I never sleep alone? I heard from my classmates that they all have their own small bedroom, but I don’t have an independent small bedroom?
If I sleep next to the bed today, and the eldest brother and the second brother become closer in the future, does that mean I don’t want myself anymore?
Nan Xiaonan leaned on the pillow, facing the empty bed. The dark night made him feel very insecure. He wanted to turn around, but he felt that there would be something terrible behind him, so he had to lean against his elder brother's body.
Only then will there be a sense of security.
Nan Xiaonan's eyes widened because of the various terrifying imaginations in her mind that made the whole space more and more terrifying. Nan Xiaonan could not sleep at all.
The relationship between the eldest brother and the second brother will get better and better because of his own efforts. Will one day sooner or later he will no longer be needed? What if he is afraid then? Can he still act coquettishly with the eldest brother and the second brother? The current eldest brother
Being so close to his second brother, Nan Xiaonan never wanted his eldest brother and second brother to stop loving him no matter what he thought.
Big brother's favor is his.
The second brother's favor should also be his.
Looking at the dark space, Nan Xiaonan frowned and her heart pounded.
There are no ghosts in this world. There are no ghosts in this world. There are no ghosts in this world.
No matter how she recited it silently in her heart, Nan Xiaonan could not avoid the strong thoughts that had been lingering in her mind. If she didn't want to think about it, she couldn't help but keep thinking about it. Nan Xiaonan even opened her eyes wide as if she could see a terrifying woman.
Standing by the bed and looking at him, Nan Xiaonan took a breath.
Now the eldest brother and the second brother must like him. They have always said that they like him. They will not lie to him. People who lie to others will be unlucky. The eldest brother and the second brother are not unlucky, so... so...
Nan Xiaonan swallowed her saliva, and while her two brothers were still awake, she sneaked out of the bed, walked around her eldest brother's feet and lay down again where she had been sleeping. On the right was the eldest brother, and on the left was the second brother.
His two brothers are fine now, yes, that's right, he is safe!
As long as the eldest brother and the second brother are around, they are the strongest fortress in the world!
So Nan Xiaonan took Nan Heming's hand and put it on her waist, turned around and got into Nan Qinse's arms.
Nan Qinse was already slightly awake when Nan Xiaonan made some moves. He could feel Nan Xiaonan creeping out from between them. He originally wanted to ask if he wanted to go.
In the bathroom, Nan Xiaonan unexpectedly lay down directly next to the bed.
Nan Qinse was very confused. After Xiaonan lay down for a while, she leaned her back against him. The child's hot body temperature was ironing on her skin. Nan Qinse also woke up. She didn't understand what Nan Xiaonan was doing at night.
However, for a long time, he did not hear the unique and even breathing sound of a child after a deep sleep. When he was wondering if the child had a nightmare, the child secretly lay back down and even took the initiative to shrink into his arms.
Completely confused, Nan Qinse just put her hands on the child's back and let herself fall asleep again.
Nan Xiaonan felt that things were a bit troublesome. His first 'step-off operation' failed. He could not bear the temptation of 'safety fortress' and fell back into the arms of his eldest brother and second brother. This was different from his original thoughts.
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Nan Xiaonan didn't know who to talk to about such a small thought, so he could only turn on his phone and go to the person he trusted the most.
Xiaonan: Is brother Feng Yi here?
/Wings:Huh?
Xiaonan: My plan to sleep next to the bed failed last night. I found that I couldn't give up the place that belonged to me in the middle!
/wings:haha
Xiaonan: Why are you laughing?
/Wings: Wouldn’t that be nice?
Xiaonan: I think I am hindering the emotional communication between the eldest brother and the second brother
/Wings: Well, don’t think too much
Xiaonan: I was dressed by my second brother this morning, and then I asked my second brother to help my eldest brother tie his tie.
/wings: nice idea
Xiaonan: But the second brother refused
/Wings: What's wrong?
Xiaonan: The second brother said that the eldest brother has both hands and feet and can’t tie his own tie?
/wing:……
Xiaonan: Do I have no hands or feet in the eyes of my second brother?
Feng Yi burst out laughing, looking at the chat history on his phone with a smile deep in his eyes.
/Wings: Xiaonan is still a child
Xiaonan: I decided to try again. What can I do to make the relationship between the two of us closer? Do you have any good recommendations?
/Wings: Maybe work together?
Xiaonan: My eldest brother has already gone to the company early. He seems to be very busy recently.
Feng Yi stroked his chin and thought seriously, then closed the webpage he was working on and entered "a way to make two people closer" in the input box, preparing to seek foreign help.
/Wings: The most important thing is that two people need to spend time together
Xiaonan thought carefully.
Xiaonan: I understand.
Feng Yi raised his eyebrows, what do you understand?
Nan Xiaonan thought it might be because of herself that the two of them rarely spent time alone together. Thinking about it carefully, it seems that in the past, when the eldest brother and the second brother were still in school, they would do homework together. At that time, he had no homework, so he just
When they ran out to play, was it that time when the eldest brother and the second brother were in close communication with each other?
But now they don't seem to do homework together anymore. The eldest brother rarely has homework in college and spends most of his time at work.
Nan Xiaonan turned on her phone and sent a message to Nan Qinse: Brother, shall we do homework together tonight?
Nan Qinse replied three minutes later: OK.
After receiving the invitation from her younger brother, Nan Qinse sorted out her entire day's work and was going to get off work early today.
Nan Xiaonan then turned to Yi Heng and said, "Shall I go to your house to play tonight? Can you take me back tonight?"
Yu Yiheng's eyes suddenly lit up: "Okay!"
"Hey!" Give the eldest brother and the second brother a chance to be alone together!
Nan Xiaonan was quite happy when she took the first class.
Nan Xiaonan is still looking forward to the second class.
In the third period of class, Nan Xiaonan suddenly realized that this was a rare opportunity to do homework with her brothers. They had not done homework for a long time.
The fourth lesson...
He wants to do homework with his eldest brother and his second brother.
Nan Xiaonan was very confused. It had been a long time since the three of them had done homework together. It had been too long. He was actually looking forward to it, but he had agreed to create opportunities for the eldest brother and the second brother to get along with each other.
But the second brother is very smart and does not need the help of the eldest brother at all. Without him, the eldest brother and the second brother would have no legitimate reason to do homework together, so Nan Xiaonan can do homework with the eldest brother and the second brother.
Anyway, he never has much homework. The second brother's homework is so complicated. After he finishes it together, then go to the housekeeper to play, and then give them private time!
"Slug, I'm not going today." After class, Nan Xiaonan suddenly said to Yi Heng, "I want to go home today."
Yu Yiheng experienced ups and downs, and stared blankly at the suddenly willful Nan Xiaonan. In the end, he just nodded without saying anything.
Xiaonan: Is brother Feng Yi here?
/wings:on
Xiaonan: I failed again
Feng Yi, who was reading at night, put down his book. Once he chatted with Nan Xiaonan, he couldn't devote himself to other things. When he saw this sentence, Feng Yi couldn't help but cover his mouth, but suddenly thought that he was the only one now.
Now that I'm here, I just let myself laugh out loud.
/Wings: What's wrong?
Seeing Nan Xiaonan truthfully report today's 'action', Feng Yi laughed while watching, which was really interesting.
/Wings: Do they have time alone together now?
Xiaonan: I have a lot of homework today. My second brother finished it before me.
/Wings: It’s really a pity
Xiaonan: That’s right
Xiaonan: I don’t know why the teacher assigned so many homework today.
/Wings: It’s okay, we can keep up the good work
Xiaonan: I will work hard/make a fist
Feng Yi leaned back on the chair and pinched his eyebrows. He was in a good mood. He might have a lovely dream today.
Nan Qinse and Nan Heming felt together that Xiao Nan had become clingy recently.
The specific manifestation is that he always sticks to two people and makes some weird little requests, such as holding hands when walking. If you buy something for him, all three people must have it. He will be with Nan Qinse.
When discussing things with Nan Heming, he suddenly jumped out and got into the middle, raising his head to get into their conversation.
Although it was a good thing, Nan Heming was still a little worried because he didn't understand the cause of the matter.
What happened to make it become like this?
Nan Heming was leaning on the chair and reading a book. Nan Xiaonan was sitting next to him and still doing homework. He turned his head and kissed Nan Xiaonan on the forehead: "Do primary school students have so much homework recently?"
"Actually, it's not much. It's just that I'm stupid."
Nan Heming took out the notebook Nan Xiaonan used to record homework, looked down at it, and raised his eyebrows. It is true that a single subject does not seem to be much, but it does add up to a certain amount. Although the high school courses are tight,
There are also many practice questions. Although Nan Heming doesn't like studying, it doesn't mean he can't study. The questions are not difficult for him. He was always unwilling to get results in his previous life because he didn't want to get Nan Yun's wish.
Give up on yourself.
"Xiaonan, has anything happened to you recently?" The two brothers, who were always paying attention to Nan Xiaonan's movements, now couldn't get any abnormal reasons from Nan Xiaonan. Their unconscious control over this child was really frustrating.
He is worried.
"Well, there shouldn't be any." Nan Xiaonan's hands when doing homework were stiff, but she couldn't continue writing the math problem she was doing in front of her. Nan Heming raised his eyebrows. Nan Xiaonan didn't look like he was okay.
Look.
This situation seems to have started after meeting Feng Yi.
Nan Heming gritted his teeth. If he could help it, he really didn't want Nan Xiaonan and Feng Yi to meet. That man made him feel very bad. The child he had been holding in his hand would change slightly as soon as he touched the other person.
And it's in a bad direction for him.
Nan Xiaonan secretly breathed a sigh of relief when he saw Nan Heming didn't ask any more questions. Nan Xiaonan has been working hard these days to create conditions for the two brothers to play together, but this is really too much for Nan Xiaonan.
It's difficult.
He has never thought about how terrible it would be for his eldest brother and second brother to be closer and then lose his place. He has long been accustomed to the favor of his two brothers, but now he may no longer have it. This is almost a problem for him
How could you bear this if you gave it away yourself?
Nan Xiaonan bit the tip of the pen, he...
He really...
I don’t want the eldest brother and the second brother to become closer at all.
Then there will be no place for him.
He wants his two brothers to always love him as much as he does now.
It doesn't matter if you don't have a mother, didn't Feng Yi say? The eldest brother and the second brother no longer need their mother. They are used to it. There is no way for their mother to come back. He can give them half of his mother.
Then they all have a mother.
Nan Xiaonan thought of He Xuanwan. It was probably because He Xuanwan was not liked by them, so the eldest brother and second brother had never been close to He Xuanwan.
No matter what, he wants to maintain his current best condition.
He wants to be the most important person between his eldest brother and his second brother, and will not settle for anything else!
With this idea in mind, Nan Xiaonan, who has always been an activist, began to change his plan to make the eldest brother and second brother closer, and secretly added his own selfish motives.
He sneaked into He Xuanwan's room. He Xuanwan was doing facial mask and opened the door. What he saw was Nan Xiaonan with a tangled look on her face.
"Um?"
"Mom, you are also the mother of the eldest brother and the second brother, right?" Nan Xiaonan was sitting on the sofa in the bedroom. Nan Yun was working overtime tonight and could not come back. Nan Xiaonan tilted her head and looked at He Xuanwan.
"no."
"Why not?"
"I am not their mother in the first place." He Xuanwan was wearing white gauze pajamas, which highlighted her exquisite figure, and her long hair was hanging down casually. If it weren't for that strange facial mask, she would definitely be a lazy and casual person.
appearance.
Thinking about it carefully, it seems that the eldest brother and the second brother never called He Xuanwan mother at home. There was basically no communication between them. Nan Xiaonan was not liked by He Xuanwan from the beginning. There was no relationship between them.
Communication is really rare, and it has only been eased in recent years. To Nan Xiaonan, this should be a normal mother-son communication relationship, so she didn't think deeply about it at all.
"Mom, you are my mother, right?"
"...Hmm." Even He Xuanwan herself didn't know why she hesitated.
"Well, I have such a good relationship with my eldest brother and my second brother. My eldest and second brother are also my brothers. Can my mother be the mother of my eldest brother and my second brother?" After Nan Xiaonan made such a request, he subconsciously became nervous. He could
I have never made such a request to anyone.
Nan Xiaonan lowered his head. Could it be that he was too shameless? In this case, he was obviously asking others to do so. If that's the case...
But if so...
Maybe there is no need to specifically bring the eldest brother and the second brother closer together?
He Xuanwan did not directly answer the child in front of her, but fell silent.
She remembered that when she first married Nan Yun, she knew that he had two children. She also did some psychological construction for herself, planning to be a good stepmother, at least a good stepmother, and she also had these two children.
She took good care of her two children. During that time, she had been thinking about how to improve the relationship between her two children and herself. After all, those who lived under the same roof and could not see each other when they looked up and looked down could not be enemies.
She worked hard to learn how to cook, cared about their studies, waited for her two children to come home from school, and perfected the style of a mother ten times ten. However, things were not as she imagined. Although she did not seek to be able to
I quickly changed my mind, but I just wanted a drop of water to penetrate the stone. In the end, I also found that this was a wish that could not be realized.
The two children left behind by her ex-wife have very different personalities. She has no ability to intervene at all. They have their own goals and their own world. Rather than being mature and unlike children, it is better to say that they have entered the rebellious stage early.
This was a fatal blow to He Xuanwan, who had never raised a child before. She was completely unable to fulfill the duties of a mother.
It was also from that time that He Xuanwan lost the confidence to be a mother. It was also from that time that she happened to be pregnant with Nan Xiaonan.
She had her own child, which should be a happy thing, but it was not the case. In fact, the appearance of this child only made her more anxious.
The thought that she could not be a qualified mother kept lingering in her mind. As her belly grew bigger, this anxiety became more obvious.
The appearance of this child will break her current life. After giving birth to a child, she will no longer be young. She is a mother, but she cannot be a good mother, and she cannot return to the carefree girlhood. If
If this continues, sooner or later she will be abandoned.
The more you think and the heavier your thoughts become, which is undoubtedly fatal to a pregnant woman.
In the end, his child was neglected, abused by the nanny, and eventually sent to the countryside to grow up as a wild child.
He Xuanwan thought about it carefully. She had tried her best to consider Nan Qinse and Nan Heming, two children who were not related to her by blood. But when it came to this biological child who had always longed for her, she
But she is always passive. She can understand the child's dependence and love for her. She just sits and waits for the child to come to her. She rarely takes the initiative to care. She is confident in being favored. Suddenly He Xuan
I finally understood this feeling.
"Xiao Nan, you like mom, right?"
"Yes, I have always liked my mother very much." So he wants his mother to become the mother of his eldest brother and second brother?
"But why?" He Xuanwan really couldn't understand, "I've never been nice to you, right?"
"Mom is... very good to me." Nan Xiaonan paused for a moment. If he insists on saying that he is very good, He Xuanwan did not do anything particularly good to him, but, "Although mother is not particularly good to me,
I feel better, but it’s actually not necessary, right?”
"Um?"
"Other people's mothers will cook for their children, but our family has an uncle who cooks very delicious food. Other people's mothers can clean the house. Our family has servants, aunts and sisters, and other people's mothers will take their children out to play.
, our family often goes out to play together." For Nan Xiaonan, the requirements are not high. He is very satisfied with his current life, "My mother does not beat me or scold me like other mothers who are not good, and she also
She can play with me, she likes my father, and my mother is the prettiest of all the mothers I have ever seen. Isn’t this a very, very good thing?”
He Xuanwan opened her mouth, feeling a sour emotion welling up in her heart. She didn't know why, and her swollen and aching heart felt a little uncomfortable.
"What kind of mother is the best in other people's families?" He Xuanwan asked.
Nan Xiaonan thought about it for a long time. Before he was five years old, he was a left-behind child. After he was five years old, his mother was always by his side and occasionally gave him advice. He could eat well, be well clothed, go to school, and see his parents at home. This was already a village.
There are many families without children.
Nan Xiaonan has never been to other people's homes or met other people's mothers, so in Nan Xiaonan's impression.
"My mother is the best mother other people have."
He Xuanwan looked at the child in front of her. There was no flattery or lies in his eyes, and there was complete clarity and trust. He Xuanwan suddenly remembered the little red ball when she saw this child for the first time.
It was extremely wrinkled and ugly. At that time, she was so satisfied that she was disgusted and didn't even want to look at it again. She would feel pain when he drank milk and was disgusted. In the end, she simply stopped touching the child and used a tool to suck it out.
At that time, He Xuanwan felt that she was just a suckling machine, a cow, and she felt even more resentful inside.
Now it seems that she may have really missed too many things that should have made her happy. After all, in this world, many things will become different as long as the mentality changes.
If she wants to be good to this child, is it too late now?
"Why did you suddenly ask me if I am Qin Se and He Ming's mother?"
"Because the eldest brother and the second brother don't have a mother?"
"At this age, they are already past the time to act like a spoiled child in their mother's arms. It doesn't matter even if they don't."
"But everyone else has it, and I want my eldest brother and second brother to have it too."
He Xuanwan sighed softly in her throat. How could she tell this child that what was lost was lost and no one could replace it?
If those two children could accept a new mother, she wouldn't feel rejected by the two children, right?
He Xuanwan thought carefully: "Xiaonan, do you want to see the photos of Qinse and Ming's mother?"
"Do you have any photos?" Nan Xiaonan has never seen photos of other women in the Nan family, or the Nan family rarely displays photos.
"Yes." He Xuanwan smiled mysteriously, "But this matter must be kept secret!"