After thinking about it, let me tell you... Because there are often pirated book friends coming here to make violent comments in the book review section, I generally won’t read it, but I know what people are urging me to do, and more importantly, I feel like it’s my own
There is a spectrum.
This book was originally written based on the saying "I write slowly and you read slowly"... From this perspective, it is impossible to go bankrupt.
Later, there was a promise before it was put on the shelves... striving to keep updating it before it was put on the shelves to ensure that everyone's investment was returned... This was accomplished.
Then came the updates after the release. First, it was 150,000 words per month. This promise was actually fulfilled in June, that is, three months ago, and the debt started to appear three months ago.
But in fact, students who follow the update should have discovered that the update was extremely unstable about four months ago. The promise of 150,000 words was also a supplement and comfort to the instability at that time.
But soon, it was basically difficult to write even 150,000 words in these three months.
In the first two months, it was more than 140,000 words, which was just a hair’s breadth. It was shameless to piece it all together and round off, and then last month it was just over 130,000 words... I couldn’t make it through the end of the month, basically.
There is no more fuk to say.
This is my fault. Don't attack the management. The management is the readers who are obliged to help. The ecological niche is above me. Just come to this chapter and say it here and scold me... Don't kowtow to admit your mistake. Kowtowing will be resented by other readers.
But you must admit your mistake and you can no longer avoid this fact, otherwise the editor, management, and readers will all be unable to justify it.
I would like to formally apologize to everyone and admit my mistake.
After admitting my mistake, looking back, to be honest, I understand everyone's mood, and I have also thought about being more direct. From now on, I will write 4,000 words a day, or I will make it clear that I will update it every three days (more than one person suggested this to me)...
But why didn't you say it? Because I really didn't dare to say it, because I was afraid that once I said it, I wouldn't be able to do it.
I still hope to hang myself with this illusory promise and pretend that I am a good person who is renewed every day.
Let’s go back and look at the stage three or four months ago when updates started to slow down... Did I mention to you that I couldn’t feel any desire or happiness?
I'm not doing PR for depression... Anyone who knows me well knows that I avoid medical treatment and only go to the emergency room when my toothache is severe.
And I hate going out and don’t have time to go out... Luyuan only signed up because this issue is an online class. The ceremony of overturning the Han Dynasty collection of national maps has just avoided the kindness of the editor. Even the new Xiaomi has not been there for so long.
I had time to give her an injection.
But I have to admit that that kind of situation does appear more and more often.
Then it creates an endless loop... When you are in that state, you delay the update and pretend that nothing happened, but in fact, you are so anxious that you don't dare to go to the group to communicate with your friends, and you don't dare to open the writer assistant to read the feedback, so you just hold it in.
Here, my routine is reversed, I finish the next chapter, and then I breathe a sigh of relief.
But in fact, during this period, the work and rest are reversed, psychological anxiety, and not communicating with book friends will quickly lead to the next update.
And in this process, the idea of occasionally using fragmented time to write a dozen words on Zhihu seems to be lazy, which then leads to a riot in the book review area, making everyone very angry, and the writer can only support it unconditionally.
Supporting your own administrators will make everyone more violent.
But back to the original question, why not admit it earlier, give up on the promise, and let the ridicule go?
Because I am still unwilling to give in...I still feel that I can overcome this state from a psychological level. With that breath, I can still be a human being.
That’s what I’ve been thinking until now, just to see if I can grit my teeth and get through it.
So what does it mean to issue this statement now?
I feel that after all, I am thirty years old and I cannot act like a child... I have to make it clear to everyone... I remember that the last time I told you, the average order for this book was only 15,000, and now it is 10,000.
Seven thousand and five thousand... In other words, in less than two months when the update was the most popular, the average booking bucked the trend and increased by more than two thousand.
The number of follow-up subscriptions is also stable at just over 10,000. No matter when it is updated, there are a little more than 10,000 genuine subscriptions within 24 hours. You should be able to see this from the activity level mentioned in this chapter.
With this kind of achievement, it can basically be said that every time I write a word, I should feel a full sense of accomplishment and be rewarded with money... But I just can't control myself, and I really don't know if I am lazy or have a real physical problem.
But at the same time, everyone's love makes me, a person who still wants to show off, feel a little ashamed.
This is the current contradictory situation.
So what’s the most important thing to do next?
Please give me a chance, and I will give myself a chance to see if I can have a Shawshank Redemption, fish myself out, and get over this hurdle on my own... instead of giving in to excuses and laziness.
Even if that state is really depression or something, I think it is still a psychological problem, and there is no reason not to overcome it!
Of course, it really failed. Let’s retreat to the Yangtze River and discuss the matter of 120,000 words in the next month.
But this month, I still hope to complete the 150,000 words while making a bankruptcy declaration and throwing away the burden. This can be regarded as an explanation for everyone and myself. At the same time, I hope that everyone can join me in being patient for the country.
, accept my previous willfulness and weakness.
There are some things that we still hope to overcome through hard work.
As for tonight...I guess it's gone...because I was so stimulated by the criticism from my book friends that I got up from the bed. Now my eyes are droopy and I can't live. You can read this article.
Just know the status... Go to bed early, I'll go to bed too, there should be an update tomorrow morning.
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