She has never celebrated a birthday, and Liu Xin has never wanted to celebrate her birthday any differently.
In the past, my family was poor, and then I was a slave, so I was not worthy of having a birthday.
Later, when I had the conditions, I felt that other people's birthdays were to commemorate my birth and the kindness of my parents. Liu Xin didn't think that these things needed to be specially commemorated. Even before, she was not sure whether her parents' kindness was worthy of her.
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This is also the origin of Liu Xin’s deep obsession.
Unexpectedly, her first birthday was still held, and she celebrated it with her family. Although there was a table of simple meals, Liu Xin had never had a spiritual feeling.
Liu Xin didn't look back when she left, but when she came out of Dezhu City, she felt as if she had lost something that was closely connected to her. The feeling of being cut off was hard for her to accept for a while.
Even shortly after leaving Dezhu City, Liu Xin realized that something was wrong, so she could only find a quiet place, put down the array given by her master, and cross her legs to adjust her breathing, hoping to alleviate her sudden troubles.
This trouble is so sudden and irresistible. It does not come from the physical level, but from the spiritual level, and the root seems to be in my own "Tao".
Liu Xin smiled bitterly and understood that she might be in big trouble this time. She never thought that she would encounter her own "tribulation" in the late stage of the Xuanmai realm. And it was also an extremely dangerous "heart tribulation".
Liu Xin remembered that he had seen this kind of situation in Taoist books about experiencing tribulations early. It can be said that it is unique. And experiencing tribulations early is also beneficial, which means that the possibility of encountering similar tribulations later will be much smaller, and even if
Meeting again is much less risky than others and easier to get through.
But the problem is that Liu Xin is not sure whether she can survive this time. If she fails this time, what will she talk about in the future?
What else can I do but smile bitterly? Perhaps without this experience of going home and the determination to cut off the past, there would not be this knot of heart.
Regret? Liu Xin had no such idea. From the moment she met her master at the state banquet, her path was destined to be a path forward in full view of the public, a path that subverted other people's perceptions and all suspicions and contempt.
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Since "My Way" started like this, there is no reason to change it halfway. Cutting off the past and pursuing the Tao wholeheartedly is the step that Liu Xin should take. Otherwise, if you really procrastinate and wait until your parents pass away, then this step
It is no longer possible to unravel and cut off this obsession. Liu Xin's "Tao" may have obvious cracks due to this.
But it is one thing to strengthen one's Taoist heart, and it is another thing to resist the calamity of the mind. If you want to solve the calamity of the mind, you need to find and understand the key to the calamity.
After sitting in the formation for several days, Liu Xin had no clue at all. The more she figured out what she did in Dezhu City, the more she felt that there was nothing wrong with what she did. But then
All the connections between family and blood will eventually converge into the tearful look of the mother before parting, and the mediocre but unforgettable birthday banquet.
It seemed that Liu Xin was being forced to make a choice.
Either admit that one's "Tao" should not cut off the past like this; or continue one's "Tao" but cut it off thoroughly, even the last emotions and memories that remain in the memory must be cleared away. Even at any cost
He would not hesitate to kill them.
Liu Xin couldn't choose either of the two options, and she also knew that this was just an illusion given to her by Xinjie. If she really chose any of them, she would have fallen into the trap of Xinjie.
A few more days passed, and Liu Xin was trapped in this mental tribulation. Not only was she unable to move, but her condition was getting worse and worse. She even felt that her consciousness was drying up. If she continued, her Taoist foundation would be seriously damaged.
"Don't be anxious or impatient when facing a calamity. This is not a way to overcome the calamity."
Suddenly, a peaceful voice sounded directly in Liu Xin's ears, causing her frown to relax. This was Master's voice.
Master is here!
Liu Xin didn't know why the master came suddenly. Her current situation was very critical. If she was not careful, she might directly damage the Taoist foundation, and her future cultivation path would be cut off.
"Master, my disciple is full of doubts, because the choice between family affection and "Tao" seems to be contradictory, creating a pull, which makes it difficult for my disciple to untie it now. Although the Taoist heart is strong, it is difficult to extricate yourself from the quagmire."
Zhang Yan was originally sorting out his late-stage Fusion Realm gains in the cliff mountain to prepare for the Twenty-nine Heavenly Tribulation. But suddenly he felt that his apprentice Liu Xin seemed to be in extreme danger. But did he activate the protective jade?
Card. This made Zhang Yan extremely nervous, and he moved directly to where Liu Xin was.
"The Sword Comes"
The result shocked Zhang Yan at first glance. He did not expect that Liu Xin was actually experiencing a heart tribulation with a mere cultivation level in the late Mysterious Vein Realm!
"Tell me about your return to your hometown in detail. I would also like to hear how you deal with your own way." Zhang Yan has not experienced the heart tribulation. But after all, he is about to reach the perfection of the body integration state. In his cognition
There are countless "principles", and he has the ability to help Liu Xin solve some key problems.
Liu Xin also endured the discomfort and quickly told everything she had done in Dezhu City this time, and she told it in relatively detail.
After listening to Liu Xin's narration, Zhang Yan did not use emotions in his heart, but simply used his own "principles" to find a context that was consistent with Liu Xin's way and could unravel this inner calamity.
"I ask you, why do you seek enlightenment?"
"In order to escape from the shackles of all living beings, I want to have a glimpse of the mysteries of heaven and earth, and I want to control my destiny in my own hands from now on, so I seek the Tao."
"Since you want to peep into the mysteries of heaven and earth, and want to control your destiny in your hands, why do you stand still?" Zhang Yan used his own "principle" to draw out a thread. With a soul-stirring voice and magic power, he directly
The words were imprinted in Liu Xin's mind.
"Because I am trapped by family ties, it seems difficult to cut off even if I want to, so the lotus root is entangled with broken silk threads and cannot make any progress."
"Now that the past has been cut off and ended, why are there any disconnections? They are just memories and memorials to the past, how can they be considered ties?
To be strong is to have a strong heart. Believe in your own choices, accept your past and past events calmly, and just have a clear conscience. Why worry about everything? Where do you find the disconnection? "
This sentence first states what a strong person is, and then follows the two rhetorical questions.
"But do you want to have a clear conscience? A strong person only has memories and past, but no disconnection?" These words broke in like a pair of scissors, and then Kacha cut open Liu Xinben's messy consciousness with a sound. Once he understood it,
Once a thread comes out, the knot at the back will naturally be undone...