After Li Wange left the restaurant, she was in a very bad state. She had special reactions both emotionally and physically.
"Headache, my head hurts so much!"
Under the long night, she stopped by the lake and stood leaning on the railing.
Suddenly, I felt like there were countless needles piercing my head, and the pain continued.
Such pain was unprecedented, and it made her feel worse than death.
As a result, her body was almost out of control, her center of gravity was unstable, she was trembling, and she almost fell into the lake.
"What's wrong?"
Qiao Simon reacted quickly and grabbed Li Wange's arm to steady her light body.
"My head hurts so much. Something is stuck in my head. It really hurts..."
"Get out, get out quickly!"
Li Wange's beautiful face was twisted into a pitiful look, and she kept patting her head, trying to get rid of the all-pervasive feeling.
"What's got in? Is it a bug? Let me help you take a look!"
Qiao Simon really thought that some small bugs like flying mosquitoes had got into Li Wange's eyes or ears, so he held her face and observed it carefully.
"No, it's thoughts, thoughts about that person. I don't want them to get into my mind. Let's go... let's go quickly!"
Li Wange continued to slap his head.
There seemed to be a thin barrier erected in the center of my brain, which was about to burst due to the constant influx of these thoughts.
The more these thoughts pour into her, the deeper Mu Chengxian's influence will be on her. She doesn't want this, she doesn't want it!
"Calm down, take a deep breath, and stop beating yourself, it will hurt."
Qiao Siman grabbed Li Wange's waving hand distressedly, looked into her eyes, and said: "It's a backlash reaction. It's happened again. This time it's more serious than the last time. It not only affects your mind, but also affects your mind."
of your body!
"It's all my fault, it's all my fault. I shouldn't have agreed to my brother's shameless request because of my selfishness!"
Qiao Simon felt guilty and anxious. He held Li Wange's shoulders and choked with sobs: "Tell me what I need to do to make you feel better. Are you thinking about Mu Chengxian now? I'll take you to find him."
Does it mean that if you find him, you won't feel so uncomfortable?"
"don't want!"
Li Wange covered her head with one hand, and grabbed Qiao Simon who was about to take her to find Mu Chengxian with the other hand. She said with a painful expression: "I don't want to see him, I don't want to see him again in this life!"
"Stop fighting with yourself, obey your heart, you just can't let him go, there's no shame in that, the more you struggle, the more your head will hurt and the whole person will feel more uncomfortable, don't torture yourself anymore...
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"No, I'm not unable to let him go, I just hate him so much... Why can he start a new relationship as if nothing happened after he destroyed me? People like him should have retribution, so why can he still be fine?
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The more Li Wange talked, the more out of control his emotions became and the more his head hurt.
Qiao Simon knew that this was the most typical symptom of backlash reaction.
It's her subconscious and her self-awareness that are fighting, like two people using her brain nerves as a rope in a tug-of-war. It's the most extreme tearing. Can it not hurt?
"Take a deep breath, take a deep breath. If it hurts too much, just... bite my hand to divert your attention."
Qiao Simon said this and put his arm next to Li Wange's mouth.
For a moment, Li Wange looked like a zombie who had lost his mind. He grabbed Qiao Simonan's arm and started to bite him, biting hard until his whole body trembled, and there was blood between his lips and teeth.
My head finally doesn't hurt so much anymore.
The thoughts she wanted to get rid of suddenly disappeared.
What appeared before her eyes was a blood-red color that frightened her.
"I...what did I do?"
Li Wange carefully held Qiao Simonan's bitten hand, and said tremblingly: "Did I bite it? How could I be so cruel?"
"It's not your fault, it's just that you lost control. Don't worry, I'm not afraid of pain."
"I...what's wrong with me? Why did I suddenly become a madman?"
Li Wange is no stranger to this feeling.
After the fire, she would lose control of her emotions for many years to come.
She would yell, hit, and even hurt herself, becoming like a dangerous item that could explode at the drop of a hat.
Lin Mobei has been giving her psychological treatment and combined with the medicine, she has not had an attack for a long time and is almost recovered.
Why...is it happening again this time?
She is really scared. Will something more terrifying happen next time she attacks, from biting... to killing someone?
What if at that time, it was not Qiao Simonan who was with her, but her child, the consequences would be disastrous!
"Don't worry too much. You have a backlash reaction. As long as you reshape your original consciousness, this won't happen again."
Qiao Simon said softly.
"Backlash reaction?"
"In short, it is the adverse reaction after you were given a dream by Gentleness. If you want it to disappear, you only need to let Gentleness create a dream for you again and clear out the information that was forced on you."
Qiao Simon said without reservation.
Now that the matter has come to this, he just wants the woman to return to her former self, and he doesn't want anything else...
"What message is she forcing on me?"
Li Wange asked Qiao Simonan in a calm tone.
Regarding this issue, she and Qiao Simon maintained a tacit understanding and never raised it on their own initiative.
Now it seems that it is impossible not to mention it. She is really afraid that she will gradually become a lunatic!
"One is, you must love me, the other is, you must hate him."
Qiao Simon pinched his fingers and confessed with difficulty.
This is the most despicable thing he has ever done in his more than 20 years of life.
"Yes, this is good. I also hope that I can fall in love with you. After all, you are so good. Falling in love with you will be a very happy thing."
"You are in love with me, but the me you fall in love with is actually him after you beautified him."
"What...what does this mean?"
"Do you think that I am perfect in your heart? There are many beautiful memories between you and me. These memories make you feel happy. But in fact, the protagonist of these memories is not me at all, but him.
The deeper you love me, the deeper you love him, but this 'him' brings you only happiness and no pain."
"It's impossible, it's impossible. There are no good memories between him and me at all. It's all pain. I know very well that I love you. I..."
"It's time to end."
Qiao Simon gently placed his long fingers on the woman's lips and took a long breath, "In a few days, tenderness will come over, and then she will create another dream for you. When you wake up, I can leave with peace of mind.
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In other words, Li Wange's love and dependence on him are already counting down...