Li Wange has almost recovered physically, but there are still huge mental problems that are worrying.
The biggest change is that she seems to be no longer interested in anything, even the two children.
Every day I sit on a chair in the garden, staring into the distance with a dull expression, saying nothing and showing no expression.
Ask her to eat, she will eat, ask her to drink water, she will drink water, but if no one asks her to do this, she will never be hungry or thirsty.
To put it simply, it means losing the desire for the world.
Postpartum depression?
This was Lin Mobei's initial guess.
Slowly, he felt that it was not just depression, but also accompanied by obvious brain slowness.
This kind of slowness is not purely psychological, but has physical damage.
But besides having a caesarean section, Li Wange probably didn't have any other surgeries. How could he have damaged his brain?
"Uncle Lin, please comfort Mommy. She looks so unhappy. Xiaobao brought her her favorite snacks, but she didn't even look at them..."
The little boy looked out of the garden, his white and tender little face full of worry.
"Mommy hasn't hugged Xinxin for a long time. Is she still angry with Xinxin and doesn't like Xinxin anymore?"
Lin Xinxin also said with disappointment.
"Children, don't think so much. Your mother is sick. When she recovers, she won't be like this anymore. Don't blame yourselves."
Lin Mobei touched the heads of the two little guys and comforted them with distress.
"What's wrong with Mommy? How can it be cured? Can Daddy be the only one who can cure it?"
Xiao Bao had an idea and asked Lin Mobei excitedly.
If daddy can cure mommy, he will go back to Beicheng to find daddy immediately.
"of course not!"
Lin Mobei quickly denied it and said: "Your mommy has a psychological problem. The cause of her illness is probably your daddy. So you must not mention your daddy in front of your mommy, or in front of you."
Mention your mommy in front of daddy, otherwise your mommy's situation will only become more serious."
Although his words are exaggerated, they are not unreasonable.
Mu Chengxian and Li Wange were deeply entangled. In the past, Li Wange suffered from severe mental illness because of Mu Chengxian, and would often go crazy and lose control due to certain stimuli.
It took him several years, including psychological counseling and special drugs, to stabilize her disease.
Li Wange had such abnormal reactions this time, and he felt that it probably had something to do with Mu Chengxian.
Because news all over the world is reporting that Mu Chengxian is getting married.
She would rather abandon her three children and marry someone else. She is really scumbag to the extreme.
Lin Mobei guessed that Li Wange started escaping from reality after reading these news and the double blow of his baby's early death.
"Kids, don't worry, I will heal your mother."
After Lin Mobei gave the two children reassurance, he came to the small garden in front of the bungalow.
This small garden is very warmly decorated. It is full of sunflowers that Li Wange likes. There is also a hammock. It is very comfortable to lie down, enjoy the wind and bask in the sun.
"What are you looking at?"
Lin Mobei came to Li Wange's side, pulled out a chair and sat down.
Li Wange's expression remained calm and he said: "Yun."
"cloud?"
Lin Mobei followed Li Wange's line of sight and saw that the clouds today were indeed beautiful, big and like marshmallows.
However, Li Wange has been watching this for almost a whole morning, aren't you tired of it?
"After watching it for a long time, do you think it's too boring?"
"The clouds are so beautiful. When the wind blows, they turn into other shapes, very similar to what I saw in that white room?"
Li Wange didn't squint, always looking at the clouds in the sky, and said quietly.
It's the white room again.
Lin Mobei couldn't help but wonder, what exactly was the white room that the woman mentioned, and why did she keep thinking about it since she woke up?
"Wan Ge, can you tell me where that white room is, what's in it, and why you like it so much?"
Lin Mobei stood from the perspective of a psychiatrist and tried to open Li Wange's heart.
"The white room, of course, is white. There is nothing in it. As for why I like it so much..."
Li Wange frowned and thought for a while, "Maybe it's because of the lightness. My body is lighter, my soul is also lighter, everything has become nothingness, and I won't feel sad."
"Nothingness, I heard you say it is the same as heaven, but shouldn't heaven be beautiful? But since you woke up, I haven't seen you smile, so that place is not beautiful, right?"
"How can I laugh?"
Li Wange slowly withdrew his gaze, looked at Lin Mobei, and said, "I want to see clouds. I want to see clouds in a place with the most beautiful clouds in the world."
"This is hard for you. I only know where the most beautiful mountains in the world are, where the most beautiful seas are, and where the most beautiful lakes are. I just don't know where the most beautiful clouds are."
"I know, it's in Beicheng."
Li Wange's numb face finally had a different expression, full of yearning.
"The clouds in Beicheng are very beautiful, especially near my home. There are big clouds and a big forest there. When the weather is good, the sun is shining, and the clouds are reflected on the lake. It's very beautiful..."
"North...Beicheng?"
Lin Mobei's mood was a little complicated.
He could no longer tell whether Li Wange was really sick or whether they were just worried. In fact, she knew better. Otherwise, why didn't she mention Beicheng, a sad place?
"Brother Lin, I want to go back to Beicheng. It's time for me to go back."
Li Wange's eyes finally regained consciousness, as if his soul had finally returned to its original place.
"That place is not a good place, and you don't have any good memories there. Why are you going back?"
"That's my hometown, my family is there, and my children should live there."
Li Wange spent the past few days thinking about some things.
Hometown is her eternal destination, the place where she can take root deeply and live a stable life.
"If you really want to go back, I won't stop you, but you have to think clearly. That place will always be Mu Chengxian's territory. It is inevitable that you and him will have intersections. Are you sure you will not be
Influence?"
"Mu Chengxian?"
Li Wange looked confused, "Who is he? Is there any intersection between him and me?"
"You don't remember Mu Chengxian, do you?"
Li Wange shook his head, "The name sounds familiar, but my memory is very vague. I can't match the number."
Lin Mobei carefully observed Li Wange's micro-expressions and did not see that she was lying.
So, she really doesn't remember Mu Chengxian?
how can that be possible?
You know, during her most painful years, he tried his best to dilute the memory of that man in her heart, but he never succeeded.
Now, she suddenly doesn't remember?
From hatred to the bone, to forgetfulness.
Lin Mobei didn't know for a moment whether this was a good thing or a bad thing.