Chapter 49: Zhuang Zhou dreams of butterflies, is a white horse not a horse?
The early morning sunlight shone into the room, and Cheng Jinyang lay silently on the bed, staring blankly at the ceiling.
Don't want to face reality.
There may be no more joy or sorrow in my life.
"Are you lying dead?" Miss Wang, who had finished washing herself, came to Cheng Jinyang's bedside and asked coldly.
"Wanrou." Cheng Jinyang sighed and asked, "If that big demon... possesses Xiaoli's memory, does that mean Xiaoli is still alive?"
"Then if you lose your memory, are you considered dead?" Wang Wanrou asked back.
Cheng Jinyang:…………
Damn it, I can’t refute it!
Of course, amnesia does not mean death. After all, there is still the possibility of recovering memory.
However, Su Lili can no longer survive...she was dead from the beginning, and died before she traveled through time, leaving her unable to save her even if she wanted to.
Cheng Jinyang felt his scalp numb when he thought that during this period, the cute little Li who he had been loving with every night was actually a demon who deliberately wanted to kill him.
However, what still lingers in his mind is the miserable expression on Su Lili's face that was almost desperate when Wang Wanrou forced herself to break through the dream and brought herself to consciousness.
Cheng Jinyang got up and went to the bathroom in a daze. After he finished washing, he saw Wang Wanrou leaning on the door frame in the mirror and said:
"As for your dream, she didn't actually create it. She just provided an interface to log in."
"I have hacked and modified the permissions of the interface. You can use Dreamland with confidence in the future without worrying about being controlled by her; of course, she may come to kill you again in Dreamland, but as long as you don't give in, nothing will happen.
Substantial harm.”
"No." Cheng Jinyang shook his head, "She won't kill me."
"If what you said is true, and she is actually planning to trick me into leaving Jiankang City, then she will not arouse any hostility from me in the dream; if she is really Su Lili, then she will not kill me."
"Is this your intuition?" Wang Wanrou shook her head, "Through the analysis of 'Su Lili', I can probably deduce her intentions, but we still know very little about other means possessed by the big demon. Also.
That is to say, it is not surprising to encounter any strange things in subsequent dreams."
"More importantly, you need this dream to increase your blood concentration..."
"Do you need it too?" Cheng Jinyang asked without looking back.
Wang Wanrou was silent for a moment.
"Yes." She replied, "We need it too."
"What if I can't enter this dream?" Cheng Jinyang turned around and looked at her calmly, "Will you still stay with me?"
"I don't know about them." Wang Wanrou replied, "As for me? If I didn't meet you before, I wouldn't; if it were from now on, I would."
"What's the difference?" Cheng Jinyang smiled bitterly.
"Before I met you? Without dreams, there was nothing about you that could attract me." Wang Wanrou said concisely and concisely.
"what about now?"
"Now? So-so." Wang Wanrou smiled and said, "If the world is like a boring gray and white scroll, then you can barely be considered one of the few dim colors in it."
"Just 'a few'? Not the 'only' color?" Cheng Jinyang laughed.
"Stop being so pretty? We have to go to your 'Sister Xinnan' in the morning." Wang Wanrou avoided answering.
However, for this eldest lady, it was enough to explain her answer without denying and ridiculing with a sneer.
Therefore, Cheng Jinyang's mood has improved slightly. To use Wang Wanrou's metaphor, it means that there is a bleak color in the gray inner world of despair.
The two of them had a simple breakfast when there was a knock on the door outside.
Azhi is back.
Although the Xing clan in Hejian is very close to the Cheng clan in the divine capital, Xing Yunzhi did not choose to go directly to Luotang, but first returned to Wujiang Town to find Cheng Jinyang.
This was another bit of comfort, making Cheng Jinyang slightly happy.
"There seems to be something wrong with your face?" Xing Yunzhi keenly noticed his strangeness.
"Is it obvious?" Cheng Jinyang touched his face.
"It's like coming back from a tiring day full of sweat and dust, and then finding that the bathtub at home is broken and you can't take a bath," Xing Yunzhi said.
A wonderful metaphor from Azhi? Normally he would have complained, "Actually there is a public bathroom across the street."
But he really wasn't in that mood right now? So he just smiled bitterly and said:
"Well, I'm lovelorn."
Xing Yunzhi's ears immediately stood up. She first glanced at Wang Wanrou warily (could she be confessing her love to her)? Seeing that the woman with the fifth surname had no reaction, she asked tentatively:
"Su Lili?"
Cheng Jinyang covered his cheek and felt a dull pain in his heart.
"Alas." Xing Yunzhi didn't know what to say.
After a long while, she whispered:
"Would it be better to come out as soon as possible? People can't indulge in the illusion of the past forever."
"Thank you for your enlightenment, Yuan Zhi." Cheng Jinyang whispered, "If you can, can you help me wash the breakfast bowl?"
"You're welcome, please wash it yourself." Xing Yuanzhi said.
"If Qingqing were here, she would definitely help me wash it." Cheng Jinyang sighed and stood up with the bowl and chopsticks in hand.
As he walked into the kitchen, Xing Yunzhi immediately asked Wang Wanrou in a low voice:
"What happened last night? Su Lili in the dream died?"
"Can a dead person die again?" Wang Wanrou asked her back, making Xing Yunzhi feel like a fool.
"I mean, has the phantom that only he can see been shattered?" Xing Yunzhi corrected.
"No." Wang Wanrou said, "It has evolved into a great demon."
Xing Yuanzhi:???
Placing the dishes and chopsticks in the sink, Cheng Jinyang turned on the faucet, and then watched blankly as the water washed over the plate.
Su Lili...
He suddenly remembered three years ago again.
In the memory belonging to the original owner, he saw that Su Lili's lower body had been trapped in the demon's devouring, his breath was gradually weakening, and he said sadly and painfully:
"You have to live..."
"Live well...even if..."
"for me……"
But now, the demon who devoured her has become her. How ridiculous and ridiculous this is! It’s a shame I stayed with an impostor for so long!
Wait, it seems that I am not the original one either!
I traveled back in time to Cheng Jinyang, who was depressed and on the verge of death, and obtained his memories that were fused with his. So, am I "Cheng Jinyang"? In the same way, is the great demon that is fused with Su Lili's memory actually "Su Lili"?
If so, then when I am with her, it is like Cheng Jinyang and Su Lili are together. How can there be any difference between a fake and a fake?
If not, then the real Cheng Jinyang and Su Lili are both dead. I, who took Cheng Jinyang's identity through time travel, have not actually interacted with the original Su Lili.
The one who met me in the dream, stuck with me, and made me fall in love from the bottom of my heart was this big demon who transformed into Su Lili from the very beginning!
The more Cheng Jinyang thought about it, the more confused he became, and his head felt swollen and painful.
On the one hand, I instinctively felt that something was wrong, but on the other hand, I couldn't refute it: if you follow this logic, there is neither a problem of the dead daughter nor the problem of the original owner of NTR.
Either I merged with Cheng Jinyang, and the big demon merged with Su Lili. In this way, Su Lili is not dead, and I don't have the original owner of NTR. After all, I am Cheng Jinyang, how can I NTR myself?
Either the two of them are dead, and then the two Xibei idiots, Da Yao and I, stick to each other under the guise of Cheng Jinyang and Su Lili, then it is a complete non-NTR pure love. As for Da Yao killing Su Lili, that has nothing to do with me.
Son? Su Lili was the childhood sweetheart of the deceased original owner, not mine!
After thinking carefully for a long time, Cheng Jinyang finally realized that there was no need to worry about whether the big demon was Su Lili's philosophical issue. His own safety was the most important thing.
He only needs to confirm two points next:
First, whether Su Lili’s personality dominates the body of the big demon.
Second, does the big demon want to kill himself?
Judging from the motivation, these two points are actually the same. After all, Xiao Li's consciousness must like himself, while the big demon's own consciousness must want to kill him.
My thoughts became brighter in an instant. Although I still haven't figured out the truth, the dark clouds in my originally depressed heart have dispersed a lot.
Cheng Jinyang washed the dishes and chopsticks in the sink and just put them in the disinfection cabinet when he heard the girl's clear cry from below.
He raised his head and looked down from the window, and saw Miss Qingqing standing downstairs, waving enthusiastically to him.