Knocking lightly on the door, Chen Shikun stood outside the room and waited for a moment, but failed to get a response from the owner of the room, which made him hesitate to open the door and enter.
Standing alone at the door, after staying alone for a long time, he took a deep breath, as if to cheer himself up, and finally made up his mind, opened the door and walked in.
The room was very dark.
It was clearly daytime, but no light could penetrate the room due to the curtains. Chen Shikun opened the door and walked in lightly.
He came to the bed and looked at Dong Xin who came back very late.
Staring down.
"It's getting late."
"..."
His words did not receive any response. On the contrary, Dong Xin, who was sleeping soundly in bed, was awakened by these words. He frowned impatiently and turned sideways.
"Get out."
His words were full of impatience. Not only did he not treat his nominal husband as intimately as a normal couple, but he treated his nominal husband more like a servant in daily matters.
Such rude words reached Chen Shikun's ears. He who was still calm at first frowned and stood there for a long time, then returned to the same look as when he entered the house.
Still a little unwilling to give up, he tentatively asked.
"Shu Yin hasn't seen you for a while, she..."
"Can't you understand people? I'm so tired, can you please stop disturbing me?!"
"..."
"Get out of here! You useless piece of trash!"
The verbal abuse was like a sharp knife inserted into Chen Shikun's fragile heart. Although he seemed to be so prosperous to outsiders, he could never imagine that he would look like this useless person at home.
Faced with his wife's insults, Chen Shikun was unable to even refute the most basic words.
He just clenched his fists helplessly, as if suppressing the anger that had accumulated in his heart for a long time.
But he never had the courage to vent, so he just turned around silently, and even when leaving the room, he tried to minimize the sound of the door closing.
Being outside the house.
Looking at the room where his wife lives, all kinds of unpleasant memories over the years suddenly emerged at this moment.
He lived in poverty for the first half of his life, and made a lifelong commitment to his childhood sweetheart from the same hometown. After getting married, in order to bring a better life to that small family, he worked hard to go to school in the city, hoping to get a degree and find a job to support his family.
Jobs in Hukou.
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The man who was so hasty and energetic back then unknowingly ended up in this situation now.
Perhaps in the eyes of outsiders, he relied on Dong Xin to get where he is today, but while gaining wealth, he also lost more.
I couldn't resist the temptation when I was young.
He abandoned the wife who cared about him the most, and he prospered as expected, but now he has ended up like this.
With a sigh, Chen Shikun turned around silently and left the door, went down the stairs, and looked at Dong Shuyin who was playing with the experts on the project.
Because of an accident when she was young, her daughter became what she is now.
As we age, people who were once hard-hearted will become soft-hearted.
Just like those civil disputes that are often reported on social news, men who treated their wives and daughters arrogantly in their early years turn out to be pitiful and want to earn their children's forgiveness when they get older.
However, the mistakes once made cannot be healed so easily.
Chen Shikun also knows this.
Because of this, after learning that Zhao Xuanying did not want to see her, she silently chose to avoid it.
For Zhao Xuanying... it is best for her not to disturb her life.
"Ah, Dad!"
Chen Shikun, who was watching silently from the side without making a sound, was finally discovered by Dong Shuyin.
Putting aside the private medical staff who were playing with him, he happily ran forward.
He should have been in school at that age, but due to his health, he could only stay under the radar of medical staff.
Obviously, both his height and appearance have changed little by little with age, but his mind is like that of a child who has not grown up.
It makes people feel awkward looking at it.
Looking at his daughter running towards him in the distance, Chen Shikun opened his arms and hugged the girl in front of him tightly.
He listened to the other party asking him repeatedly why his mother didn't get up yet, but other than hesitating, he couldn't find any reasonable explanation.
Obviously, as a mother of children, she can be so cold-blooded.
The crazy behavior in recent days and the close contact with all kinds of men have already thrown his only self-esteem to the ground and severely stepped on it.
at this point.
Chen Shikun has asked himself privately more than once, is this kind of life really what he dreams of?
You really don’t need to worry about money issues anymore.
But whenever he returns home, he is faced with the deserted scene in the big house, and he doesn't like to talk to his wife and daughter who has a medical condition.
The family seems harmonious, but it is full of unsolvable problems.
Perhaps it was because of this that he was so eager to contact Zhao Xuanying after he learned of her existence. After all, the memory that had been buried deep in his memory since the first moment he saw her
All of them came out in one fell swoop.
In my memory, the person I grew up with and made a lifelong commitment to myself worked hard to save money and do hard and tiring work just to support myself in going to a big city to study.
After leaving everything to himself, he escorted himself out of the village on foot.
The woman who has always... loved him deeply.
Perhaps it was in Zhao Xuanying that he saw the shadow of that person, so facing Zhao Xuanying, a daughter he had never had contact with for more than ten years, he was so eager to recognize him after learning about his existence.
The reason is just to make up for the other party.
While I want to make up for the other party... I also want to make my heart, which has been riddled with holes for so many years, feel better.
"Is Mom very tired recently? I haven't seen her for a long time."
Dong Shuyin, who was holding Chen Shikun's arm and resting his head on him, cooed quietly and raised his head to look at his father, who had been silent since the beginning.
The eyes looking at each other are full of doubts, and at the same time... they are also full of expectations.
"I'm so worried about mom. Is she sick?"
"..."
"Your mother is not sick."
"real?"
"Um."
After a moment of silence, Chen Shikun responded to his daughter.
He raised his hand and gently stroked his daughter's forehead while whispering softly.
"It's me who's sick..."
A muttered sentence came out. Although the voice when saying this sentence was very low, Dong Shuyin heard it clearly.
She didn't know why her father said such a thing. After hearing this, she raised her head in confusion and looked at her father who stood beside her with a calm face.
In Dong Shuyin's eyes, Chen Shikun's expression became more determined at this moment.
It seemed... that he figured something out at this moment.