After Xu Tongdao took a shower, when he came to the bedroom, he saw his brother Xu Tonglu already sleeping on the bed as soon as he entered the door.
His house is not big, and there are only three mud houses including the main room. On the east side is his parents' bedroom, and on the west side... there is a "wall" separated by bamboo slices and cang leaves, dividing the whole room into two.
His sister Ge Yuzhu lives in the inner room, and he and his younger brother Xu Tonglu live in the outer room. The two brothers have slept on the same bed since they were children.
Xu Tonglu slept inside the bed, and he, Xu Tonglu, slept outside the bed.
The light was still on in the room. When Xu Tonglu entered the door, he saw his younger brother Xu Tonglu sleeping motionless in the bed.
"Asleep?"
He asked lightly.
Xu Tonglu didn't respond and seemed to have really fallen asleep.
But Xu Tongdao knew that the boy must still be awake, but because he just strangled his neck, the boy was now sulking with him!
Closing the door, Xu Tongdao subconsciously touched his trouser pockets. Before his rebirth, he smoked for many years. Whenever something happened, he would habitually smoke a cigarette. This was a kind of psychological dependence, but at this time, he naturally
I felt empty, and there was no smoke on him now.
With a faint smile, Xu Tongdao sighed, walked over, sat down on the edge of the bed, and looked at his brother who was pretending to sleep in the bed with complicated eyes.
The two brothers are only one year apart, and they grew up sleeping in the same bed, so their relationship is naturally deep.
But the experiences of those years before rebirth...
It makes him feel very complicated about his younger brother.
He knew that his brother's nature was not bad. The main reason why Yuan Shikong went astray and ended up sending him to jail for three years was because of his father.
The father who eloped with his eldest aunt... was not only very irresponsible, but also made their whole family unable to hold their heads high in the village.
Not only could they not hold their heads high in their Xujia Village, but they could also not hold their heads high in front of all their relatives, and in front of all their classmates and friends who had heard about this incident.
This feeling of shame makes Xu Tonglu, who has been proud and arrogant since he was a child, unable to bear it. Xu Tonglu, who has been winning certificates every year since elementary school, has always been proud, but since his father eloped with his aunt, everyone saw that
His eyes looked like he was watching a joke. Many people pointed at him behind his back, whispered, and even more excessively, even made fun of him in front of him.
Tongdao Xu has also suffered many such experiences.
The only difference is that Xu Tongdao is not so proud in his heart and has a deeper character, so he can endure it, but his younger brother Xu Tonglu obviously cannot bear it.
Therefore, in the original time and space, Xu Tonglu's temperament changed drastically. He would not listen to anyone. No matter who talked to him, he was very impatient. He had no intention of thinking about books anymore, and he deteriorated very quickly.
Xu Tongdao hated his father very much in his heart, but he always felt sorry for his younger brother Xu Tonglu. More importantly, he hated iron for not being able to become steel.
Tonight, my sister is sleeping with her mother in the east room, so there are only him and Xu Tonglu in the west room.
Tongdao Xu felt that tonight was a good time for him to have a heart-to-heart talk with his brother.
Although he was not confident that one heart-to-heart talk could change his younger brother Xu Tonglu, he still wanted to give it a try.
He really hopes that his brother will become wise soon and that he can continue to make progress.
"Xiaolu, I know you're not asleep yet, let's talk?"
Xu Tongdao looked at Xu Tonglu who was motionless and started talking.
But after he said this, Xu Tonglu in the bed still showed no reaction and seemed to be sleeping soundly.
Xu Tongdao was not surprised. This was the style of his younger brother Xu Tonglu.
So he started talking to himself.
"Our dad has no sense of responsibility. It's a fact that he ran away..."
"Xiaolu, there are many things in this world that we can choose, but what kind of parents we have... we can't choose. This is fate! We can only accept it."
Xu Tonglu was still unresponsive in the bed.
Comrade Xu sighed softly, leaned against the bed, and continued with half-squinted eyes, "I know that such an old man in the stall makes you very angry and embarrassed... Me too, but what can I do? No matter how embarrassed I am,
No matter how difficult it is, we can only face it!
It's like a person accidentally falling into a cesspool, yes! It's embarrassing to fall into a cesspit, but the path... If you don't climb out of the cesspool because it's embarrassing to fall into the cesspit, and you drown in the cesspit, you
Don’t you feel more embarrassed?”
Having said this, Xu Tonglu glanced at his younger brother again, but Xu Tonglu still had no reaction.
The metaphor of "cesspit" didn't make the boy excited, which was a bit unexpected.
This is to carry out pretending to sleep to the end!
Tongdao Xu smiled faintly, looked up at Cangye on the roof, and continued: "Xiaolu, we are brothers! Brothers from the same mother, tell me! Have I ever hit you since you were a child?
No?
Have you ever thought about why I attacked you tonight?
I know that you must still be angry with me now, and even want to get up suddenly, press me down on the bed and beat me. I know that you must be thinking so.
If you really want to hit me, then get up and hit me! I promise I won’t fight back.
But...as your brother, I hope you can regain your normalcy as much as possible and continue studying hard. I know this is difficult, but this is not the reason for us to surrender! Because...because we are the pillars of our family now!
"
At this point, Xu Tongdao still didn't hear his brother's response.
Maybe my brother really has fallen asleep.
But when Xu Tongdao said this, he didn't want to stop there.
So he paused and continued: "Our father is an irresponsible coward! We can't imitate him! We brothers must strive for success, even if it's not for ourselves, we have to think about our mother and Yuzhu, what do you think?
?
Xiaolu, you must listen to my brother. Don't argue with me about making money. I'm older than you, let alone one year older. Even if I'm one day older, I'm still older than you. So, if I can't hold on,
Before, you didn’t need to think about making money. Your task was to study hard, preferably to go to university. We have to stand up! We can’t be looked down upon all our lives!”
Xu Tongdao finished speaking, but his younger brother Xu Tonglu remained motionless in the bed.
Comrade Xu glanced at this, looking a little disappointed.
He really hoped to convince his brother.
but……
If he leaned over and took a look at Xu Tonglu's face at this time, he would find that Xu Tonglu had been motionless, his face was already covered with tears, and he was biting his lips tightly.
Disappointed, Comrade Xu stared blankly at the green leaves on the roof. He was stunned for a while. Finally, he sighed softly again, got up, took off his clothes and went to bed, then turned off the light and went to sleep.
…
At dawn the next day, Comrade Xu got up early, went to the kitchen to get a shrimp rake and a fish basket, rolled up his trousers and went out to catch fish with his bare feet.
The family is having a hard time now. Since there are fish in the fields, he doesn't want to waste the opportunity to bring some fish home and add to his dish.
If you have a lot, you can sell them to make some money to supplement your family income.